Dancing with the wolves

Aidan's POV

When I woke up I was in the bath with the biggest hangover I have ever had.
Someone walked into the bathroom and started to have a piss.
I pulled back the shower curtain and saw Will.
"Do you know I am asleep in here." I said.
Will chuckled and looked at me.
"Yeah, but I needed a piss and I needed to check up on you to make sure you haven't choked on your own vomit." He said the last part he said seriously.
I looked down.
"Come on let's get you into a comfier bed." He said and flushed the toilet and washed his hands and walked over to me and picked me up.
"I disgraced myself haven't I?" I muttered as Will took me to a bedroom.
"Just a little, but its okay because Rowan, Tyler, Kit and Finn disgraced themselves as well." Will said.
"What did I do?" I asked as I felt Will put me on the bed.
"Well, everyone now knows what you look like in just your bra and panties." He said.
"Fuck." I muttered and felt my eyes getting heavy.
"Its okay, Tyler pissed himself, Rowan puked on that expensive rug in the sitting room, Kit started to make out with Seth thinking it was Ri and Finn got lost and we found her smoking our weed the bitch." He said.
"The whore." I muttered and fell asleep.

By the time we all crawled out of bed and went downstairs it was 4 in the afternoon.
"And how is everyone feeling today?" Dad asked as we all gathered in the kitchen.
"Hungover." Kit muttered.
"Rowan clean that fucking mess of yours." Pa said.
"Shush. Head hurts." Rowan said and downed a load of mill.
"Bad idea." He said and rushed off and all we heard was him throwing up.
"How did that bitch get hold of our weed?" I asked and looked at Will.
"We rolled some up and the bitch got a hold of them." He said and rubbed my shoulders since my back really hurt from the night in the bathtub.
"Cow bag." I muttered.
" That's why you don't leave your shit lying about. She was fucking chucking her guts up and then passed out before she stopped throwing up." Pa said seriously.
Me and Will looked down.
"Sorry Pa." I said quietly.
"Sorry!? She could of choked and fucking dead Aidan!" Pa said loudly which made all off us flinch.
"Yeah well I didn't choke or die so what's the big deal." Finn said as she walked into the kitchen.
"The big deal? Finn you could off fucking choked and died and we wouldn't have a fucking clue about it!" Pa shouted.
"Jack calm down. Everyone is feeling hungover and we don't need you shouting at us." Dad said.
"Aren't you bloody mad at Aidan!?" Pa said and I just looked down and shrugged Will off me.
"Technically I brought the weed." Will said.
But dad and pa didn't listen.
"Yes I am cross with her Jack. But you don't need to go shouting around, we are all hung over and we don't need you shouting." Dad said.
Pa just sighed and walked out the room.
"Dad, I'm sorry." I said.
"We'll be having words Aidan. But right now we all need to get rid of our beautiful hangovers and I need to find Pa." He said and walked off to look for Pa.
"Aid?" Seth said and everyone looked at me.
"I need a shower." I said quietly and walked off.
"Want me to come?" Will asked.
I shook my head and went upstairs.

Once I got my stuff and went ton the bathroom I just wanted to cry.
I was so stupid for leaving the weed on the table, so stupid for getting Finn so drunk she didn't have a clue what she was doing.
I knew Finn had blades hiding round the place so I looked and found one and cleaned it off and dug the blade into my leg and cut long and deep while missing my tattoos.
I just sunk to the floor and cried.
I don't know how long I was in here for but the next thing I knew was someone was walking into the bathroom and picking me up and covering me and walking me to a bedroom.

"Hey, why you crying and hurting yourself for?" Seth asked quietly.
I looked at him and wrapped the towel tightly round me more.
"We've seen enough of each other naked. I don't think it'll change any time soon." He chuckled quietly.
"Where's Will?" I asked quietly.
"He getting a shower and he'll be here as soon as he can." Seth said quietly and moved some hair out of my eyes.
"Why you crying and hurting yourself for?" He asked more seriously.
"Dad and Pa. They would of killed me if Finn died. I mean she's their little miracle baby course they'll love her more than us. I wouldn't forgive myself if anything did happen to her." I said and started to cry again
"Hey don't cry okay. Finn didn't die she's fine, just hungover like then rest of us but she's fine. You know as well as I do that dad and Pa loves us all equally. You don't think about that okay. Finn is alive and well, that's all what matters." He said and pulled me to his side and kissed the side of my head.
I sniffed.
"But some clothes on and we'll sort your leg out for you." He said and got up and sat in the corner.
I smiled and put a clean bra and pant on.
"You don't mind me just being in a bra and pants do you?" I asked.
"Nope. I'm gay and see no interest in you whatsoever, and your also my sister and it would be wrong as well." He said and got up and sat next to me.
I smiled and Seth cleaned the cut up and put a bandage on it.
He looked at my arm as well.

"Aid you was doing so well. What happened?" He said and looked at me.
"I lost the baby and I don't know how to stop this empty feeling in my chest. I should still be expecting him. I should of been able to hold him and care for him in a couple off weeks." I said and cried.
"Aid, have you spoken to Will about how you feel?" He asked.
I nodded.
"But it doesn't help. I want my baby." I sobbed.
"Hey, in time you two will have another one. Its bound to happen. But in the mean time I'll talk to him and get how he's feeling." He said.
I nodded since Will hasn't really opened up to me.
"She's all your mate." Seth said and got up and kissed the top of my head and walked out.
Will came over and we both lead down and he just held me.
"I love you." He whispered.
"I love you too." I muttered falling asleep.
"Have a snooze." He said and kissed the side of my mouth.
I nodded and was out like a light,

Notes

this is shit I'm ill and feel like shit,.,