What's My Age Again?

I always hated Valentine's Day because I was always single during it. I mean I was single the day before and after it too but Valentine's Day always made me feel worse about being single. Now that I was with Alex I felt special on this day. It was on a Sunday and usually I would sleep in, but Alex called me and woke me up early this morning.

"Hello?" I answered in a sleepy voice.

"Happy Valentine's Day, Love." He told me and I immediately smiled.

"Happy Valentine's Day to you too."

"Thank you!" He exclaimed. "I think you should go outside. The weather feels great today."

"I literally just woke up. I don't want to go outside." I giggled.

"Just go look on your front porch." He laughed.

I got up and went downstairs to see what he did. I opened the door and saw a huge vase full of red roses, a teddy bear, a card, and a big box of chocolates waiting on me.

"Aw Alex! Thank you!" I said happily. I had to kind of keep my voice down so my mom wouldn't come out and see all of this stuff.

"You're welcome, Beautiful. That's just part one of your gifts. Part two is coming tonight." He said.

"Let me guess, its sex right?" I said sarcastically as I carefully took my gifts to my room.

"No...Maybe." He mumbled and I laughed.

"It's okay. I consider having sex with you a gift." I told him.

"I consider it the other way around, but I'm going to call my mom and see if she got the flowers I sent to her. I'll see you tonight." He said.

"Okay. Bye." I said and we hung up.

I looked at my gifts and I took a quick picture of them. Alex, without knowing it, made this the best Valentine's Day I've ever had. I was in the mist of sending the picture to Kellin when my mom walked in. She was trying to tell me something, but stopped when she saw the gifts in my room.

"Are these yours?" She asked me.

". . . No Mom don't be silly, I bought it for you! Except for the chocolate, I bought that for myself." I lied really quick. I wanted to keep the chocolate because I was craving it too badly to give it away.

"Aw really, Sweetie?!?" She asked and I nodded. I sadly handed her my roses and my teddy bear. It was either this or tell her the truth. "I'm going to sit these in the living room with the rose Avery sent me." She smiled and left my room.

Thankfully she didn't pay attention to the card on my bed. I sat down on my bed and opened the card. The outside said, 'To the love of my life' then the inside was filled with Alex's own writing. It said:

I know the outside of this card seems a little dramatic, but it was the only one I liked that allowed me to write my own message. I know we've only dated for months now, but you're the only person I've ever been with that actually likes me for who I am. I never have to pretend to be someone I'm not when I'm with you.

I immediately feel happy when I'm around you even when I've had the worst possible days. I can't imagine how heartbreaking it's going to be for me to be far away for so long. I'm pretty sure I'm going to cry myself to sleep most nights. I'm going to make sure to visit you once a month when we're not on tour.

I'm sorry this card is kind of long. I just want to make sure you believe me when I say, I love you more than I love if itself. I can't imagine how different my life would have been if we didn't meet that night.

I love you so much, Jack.

Alex

P.S I'd kill for one more way to tell you how you make me better every day :)

I had tear stains on the card by the time I finished reading it. Alex knew exactly what to say to make me feel special. I also felt guilty still got lying to him. Especially when he said he liked that he could be himself around me. It's not that I wasn't being my normal self around him, I just wasn't being honest about who I was.

I opened the box of chocolates and ate a few pieces to make myself feel better. I decided I was ready to tell Alex the truth about my age. I didn't want to do it tonight and ruin Valentine's Day so I was going to tell him tomorrow. I was going to leave out the pregnancy part for a little bit longer. That was probably going to bother him the most.

I cleared my face of any evidence of tears and then I went down to grab a quick breakfast. My mom was sitting at the table eating an omelet when I came down.

"I made breakfast." She told me and I thanked her. I sat down across from her where she already had my plate waiting for me.

"Do you have any plans with Avery tonight?" I asked her.

"Yes! He made reservations for dinner, then he rented us a hotel room for us so I'm probably going to stay with him tonight." She mumbled the last part. I didn't mind since that meant I could spend the night with Alex.

"That's sounds really romantic, Mom." I told her and she smiled.

"Yeah, do you have any plans for tonight?" She asked.

"Uh I think Kellin is going to be my Valentine again." I laughed.

"That's cute! Just make sure you two are home by curfew." She reminded me.

"We will be."

***

Alex asked as he kissed my neck. We were laying in his bed and he was on top of me kissing down my neck. "You're so beautiful." He told me. We were both naked, but we're just want to fool around a bit before sex.

"Thank you. And I forgot to tell you thank you for my card. It was so sweet. It actually made me cry."

"Oh no I didn't mean to make you cry. I just wanted to tell you everything you meant to me."

"No no it's okay, it was just happy tears. Like I'm so happy to have you in my life." I clarified and he laughed.

"Oh that makes more sense. Did you catch the song lyrics I put in?"

"Yes! How could I not recognize the lyrics to my favorite song by you guys?" I chuckled.

"I knew that would make you happy." He said sweetly and I pulled his lips back down to mine. He was already lubed up and ready to go. I told him he didn't have to use protection since he liked it better that way.

He guided himself to my hole and pushed into me. I expected him to quickly start pounding into me, but instead he did long slow thrust. He laid on top of me and placed his hands on both sides of my head. He hit my spot seconds after we started.

"Oh my god, Alex." I moaned. I lost the grip I had on his back and my nails dug into his skin.

"Fuck! Cut your nails." He chuckled and pulled my hands from his back. I giggled apologetically and he raised my hands above my head. He placed his hands in mine and held my hands down as he continued to thrust into me. It drove me crazy that I could touch him, but it turned me on more. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he began to go even deeper in me.

This felt more passionate then just regular sex. Alex was staring into my eyes telling me he loved me every time he moaned. I did like the rough hard sex that we normally had, but I liked this so much better.

"Tell me you love me." He leant down and whispered in my ear.

"I love you." I whimpered.

"Tell me how much you love me."

"I love you so fucking much."

"Fuck I'm gonna come." He speed up his thrust a bit and shot off inside of me. The warm feeling made me release too.

Alex stayed inside of me and we made out for a little while. We were both stuck in the moment. He finally pulled out of me and helped clean up the mess we made with some Kleenex. I laid on his chest when we were finished.

"Do you think we could do this for the rest of our lives?" He said and I smiled.

"If we were married we could." I joked.

"Hmm. That can be arranged." He said jokingly and I playfully rolled my eyes.

"We haven't even lived together yet."

"Do you want to move to New York?" He asked. I couldn't tell if he was being serious or not.

"Stop. My mom wouldn't let me think about moving away that far."

"You're a grown up, you can technically do what you want."

"Alex." I sighed.

"There are lots of nice colleges there too."

"No we're not ready for that step yet." I told him.

"What about in a year? If we can make the long distance relationship work for a year, would you consider moving with me?"

I really thought about it for a second. In a year I would only be seventeen and I wouldn't be finished with high school so I still wouldn't be able to go with him. He would know all of this when I told him about my real age tomorrow.

"We'll see." I said. He nodded and dropped the subject.

***

I left Alex's house kind of early this morning to beat my mom back home. She didn't tell me what time her and Avery would be finished so I just guessed. I didn't get to follow through with my plan of telling Alex my real age but I still had two weeks to do so. I did want to get it over with so I could get one more thing off my conscience.

I texted Kellin to see how his Valentine's Day went, but he didn't text back. He was probably still in bed with Vic.

When I made it home I saw my mom's car in the driveway. I slightly panicked for a second, but I remembered Avery picked my mom up in his car. I went inside to make sure she wasn't home. The house was empty so I was in the clear.

I went up to my room and took a quick shower. Then I put on my pajamas and laid in my bed. I had school tomorrow so I just wanted to rest today. I turned on my TV and watched old episodes of Keeping up with the Kardashians. My phone vibrated and I thought it was a text from Kellin, but it was from my mom.

From Mom:
Are you home?

From Jack:
Yes

From Mom:
Okay I'll be there in a few minutes.

Something didn't feel right. Maybe I was over thinking it, but it seemed weird for her to text asking if I was home.

I stayed in my bed and waited for her to come home. It was thirty minutes later when I heard the front door being opened in closed. She didn't come up to looks for me or even come greet me. A few minutes passed and then she called me down stairs.

"Jack can you come down here?" She called out to me. It didn't sound like she was asking. I didn't like the tone of her voice, it scared me. I felt like I was in trouble but that wasn't possible. I hadn't done anything wrong...that she could possibly know about.

I slowly walked down the stairs and met her in the living room. She definitely didn't look happy. I was in trouble for something.

"Yes mommy?" I said, trying to get sympathy from her.

"Hey what did you and Kellin do last night?" She asked calmly. Maybe I wasn't in trouble.

"Um we just went out to eat and saw a movie. That's all." I lied.

"Mhmm. What time did you come home last night?" She asked, but it sounded like she already knew the answer.

"At midnight." I mumbled.

"Hmm that's weird because I came home at around two am to get my phone I left and you two were nowhere to be found."

"I um...we um-" I stammered. I couldn't think of anything, we were so fucked.

"I'm not in the mood for more lies Jack. I thought I could trust you enough to stay at home alone while I worked. Well now you broken that trust. It's already hard enough for me being a single mom working night after night to support us. Now I have to beg May to stay home when Lisa or I work because we can't trust our kids." She shook her head at me and I looked at the ground. "You are so grounded. I can't even believe you would do something so stupid. What was so important that you two had to stay out to two am doing? We're you out with a boy?!" She yelled.

"No." I whined and wiped at some tears in my eyes. I hated when she yelled at me.

"You're only sixteen. There is no reason for a boy your age to be out past curfew." She scolded me.

"I know. I'm sorry Mommy." I sniffled.

"Not as sorry as you're going to be. You're grounded for the next two weeks." Hearing that made my tears fall faster. How was I supposed to spend time with Alex? She held her hand out for my phone and took car keys also. "From now on you only go to school and come straight back home, do you understand?" She added.

"Yes ma'am."

"Now go to your room."

I turned around and walked back upstairs. I went to my room and closed my door. The only thing I could do was lie down and cry in my bed. This had to be why Kellin hadn't text me back yet. He was also grounded for the next two weeks. This sucked because not only could I not hang out with Alex, but I also couldn't tell him that I wouldn't be able to see him before he left. This was literally the worst thing that has ever happened to me.

I cried myself to sleep in my bed since I couldn't do anything else. I was woken up hours later when May walked in my room. She shook me and asked me something, but I didn't hear her.

"What?" I asked.

"I said are you hungry?" She repeated.

"Yes."

"Okay, I ordered pizza so it should be here in a few minutes."

"Okay." I sat up and wiped my eyes. I could feel the dried tears on my face. "Is mom still here?" I didn't want to go downstairs if that meant I would have to face her again.

"No she just left for work. That's why I'm here, to baby sit you and Kellin." She sighed and sat on my bed.

"Kellin's here?" I asked.

"No he's on his way here. His mom just left for work too."

"Oh. I'm sorry, May."

"I'm not the one you should be apologizing to." She said.

"I tried to tell Mom sorry earlier, but she was too angry to care." I complained and she nodded.

"You went against her rules and stayed out like three hours past your curfew. Of course she was mad. You broke her trust with you."

"I know and I feel horrible for it." I felt worse knowing that I was going to have to tell her that I was pregnant also. She was scary enough being mad at me about this.

Kellin came a few minutes after the pizza was delivered. We sat in the kitchen with May eating in silence. We couldn't talk about what really happened with May around so we would have to wait until bed time. Kellin watched in disgust as I ate my pizza with pickles on top of it, which sounds gross but it tasted sooooo good. Pickles were starting to taste good with everything right now which was most likely due to the pregnancy cravings.

"How long are you grounded for?" Kellin asked as we cleaned up behind ourselves.

"Two weeks. You?"

"Same." He sighed.

We began to walk towards the stairs to go to bed since our moms told May that we had to be in bed by ten. May stopped us before we could touch the first step.

"Hold on you two. Your moms said that you two can't sleep in the same room. Jack you sleep in your room and Kellin you're sleeping in my room." May said.

"Why?" Kellin asked.

"It's part of your punishment." She shrugged.

Of course both of our moms would try to make us suffer more by not being able to enjoy each other's company. Kellin and I walked upstairs together and stopped before we had to split up.

"What are we supposed to do? They leave for tour in two weeks." I complained to Kellin.

"I know. I don't know what to do. I just hope Vic doesn't come to my house to check on me one day since I can't reply to his text messages."

"Oh god I didn't even think about that." Alex had probably texted me so many times by now. I just hoped he didn't randomly stop by.

"Yeah I think with good behavior we can probably be ungrounded in like a week in a half." Kellin suggested.

"I don't know. My mom was really pissed." I told him.

"Yeah my mom was too, but-"

"-you both should be in bed now." May said, cutting Kellin off. We rolled our eyes and went to our bedrooms.

"Goodnight, Kellin."

"Goodnight, Jack."

We closed the doors and I went to sit on my bed. I remembered that I could text from my iPad. I hopped up and went to my desk only to find that it was missing with a sticky note that said 'it wasn't stolen' in my mom’s hand writing. She probably came to take it while I was sleeping. I almost felt like crying to have the small slither of hope ripped away from me.

I laid down in my bed and tried to force myself to fall asleep, but I couldn't. I stared at the ceiling as I thought about me actually being pregnant. I lifted my shirt and looked at my stomach. It was poking out more than it used too. I couldn't tell if it was because of the baby's growth or because I'd been eating so much lately. If I had my cell phone or iPad I would be able to look it up.

Maybe I could ask my health teacher about it in class tomorrow. I wouldn't be able to ask my mom anything like that without her becoming suspicious. I was planning on telling her before I became three months pregnant because my stomach would probably become more noticeable by then. I don't think I would be able to do it at three months after seeing how angry she was today. Maybe hiding it one more month wouldn't hurt.

Notes

I'm sad to say it's all downhill from here.