Time-Bomb
"I'm building a place, something amazing just for the sake of saving us."
Jack’s POV
“Leave me alone,” I told the guys.
“Logan’s gone,” Alex reassured me. “You can come out now.”
“I don’t want to.”
“If you’re not getting out of there, will you at least explain to us what the fuck just happened?”
“I slept with Dawn.”
“We kind of already knew that.”
“When I got up, she told me to leave. She yelled at me. I thought everything was better. I know that she still loves me. She told me. Why would she do this to me?”
“She’s a fucking idiot, and you need to get over her.”
“I can’t. I love her.”
“When you decide to stop being so fucking stupid, tell us.” With that, the guys left me alone.
I just kept thinking about what happened. What the hell did happen? Why did she kick me out? Did I do something wrong? Is she still made at me because of what happened? Think Jack think.
That’s when it came to me. In every interview, she says she’s single. Every single interview! I ruined her chance to ever fall in love with someone else. Why else would she write a ton of songs about me? She can’t get over me just like I can’t get over her. She hasn’t been with anyone. She hasn’t had someone that could make her feel special. It’s all my fault.
Stop blaming this all on yourself Jack. You gave her a chance to be with you again. Yeah, I did a month after I broke up with her. She’s been alone. I’ve been alone. I guess it’s both our faults.
She isn’t going to forgive me though. In all her songs, she says that we can’t be together. She may love me, but she’s too mad at me. There is no hope for us. I really am going to be alone. I can’t be with anyone but Dawn. She hates me though. I need to realize that. The only problem is that I can’t.
I stayed in bed all day. I didn’t want to see anyone. I just wanted to be lost in my memories of us together. She probably doesn’t even have that stuffed animal I gave her. I still have all the pictures that we took together. I just kept them hidden. We had a lot of fun times together. We were only together for a year, but it felt like we were together for a lifetime. A lifetime that I wish never died.
The next day, I got dressed, went to our signing, and eventually went over to the main stage. I could hear an amazing voice coming from the speakers as we walked towards it. We had to be there when the previous band was performing the last of their songs. I started to hum along. Wait. I know this song. Shit. Its Lunatics and Love. I have to be there when Dawn is performing the last of her songs.
I sighed and continued to the stage. Once we were backstage, I slipped away from the rest of the guys and found myself on the side of the stage. My eyes watched the entire band’s movements. They were really good performers. The one that cussed us out yesterday jumped around like a maniac just like I do. The drummer was moving his arms so fast. He was better at entertaining than Rian was. I laughed in my head. Care tried to stay in the back. She wasn’t really into attention anyway. The keyboardist was dancing as her fingers moved across the keys and she sung into the microphone.
My eyes found Dawn in the front, singing and playing her bass, Zack. She couldn’t move that much because she was singing, but she didn’t need to. Her facial expressions amused the crowd enough. She was putting everything she had into it. She may have been the laziest person, but if she loved it, she gave it her all.
“For our last song, I’m going to do something special,” she said. What is she going to do? “I’m going to perform a song that I wrote yesterday with my sister. Carina Fox, you better get that guitar.” She was giving her sister the fake attitude voice
“Don’t make me hit you,” Care shot back.
“Care is threatening me.” She was so cute the way she acted like a kid. Care went over and grabbed the acoustic guitar before going back over to her. “You ready?” Care nodded her head. “This song is for someone. Before I start singing, I’m going to tell you guys what it’s about. It’s about this girl that was such a bitch and blew up on a guy even though she cared for him. Her name is Dawn, and she wants to say that she’s sorry. Dawn has a temper, and she let it get out of hand. She wants the guy to know that she forgives him for everything he ever did, and she wants him to forgive her too because she doesn’t want to be with anyone else.”
“Are you done talking in third person?”
“Shut up Care, and yes I am. I hope you guys enjoy the song.”
She started singing, and I knew it was about us. If she wants me to forgive her, I will. If she wants me to be with her again, I will never leave her side. We can make this work. I know we can.
When they finished, I watched as Dawn exited the stage. She was getting off on the side that I was standing on! I had to say something to her but what? What could I tell her? Damn. Why do I have to suck at expressing myself? I got it! This plan is perfect!
When she got off the stage, I gently took her wrist and whispered in her ear, “Watch our set. I think you’re going to like it.” She nodded and then walked away.
After we ended the song that indicated that half of our set was over, I decided to put my plan into action. “Hey Alex,” I said into the microphone.
“What?” he asked.
“Can I make a request?”
“Wait. Why? We already picked the songs that we were going to play?”
“Pleeeeaaaase. If you don’t, you’re not getting any tonight.” What? I was still going to joke.
“But you know how horny I get after our shows.”
“I’m not going to give you any if you don’t let me choose a song.”
“I’ll do anything.” The crowd was loving this. I could hear them screaming “Jalex! Jalex!” Our fans and their weird pairings. “What song do you want us to do?” I overdramatically tiptoed over to him and whispered the song I want us to do last. “Ok, we can do that song last.” He went over to Zack and Rian to tell them what song. This was the perfect plan.
When the time finally came, I took a deep breath. “Before we play, I want to dedicate this song to someone.”
“We are not letting you dedicate this song to anyone.”
“Why not?”
“You’ll probably dedicate it to condoms and your penis or something like that.”
“For once, I’m being serious.”
“Really?” Even the fans were confused. They didn’t think that I could be serious? Huh. Interesting.
“I want to dedicate this song to this girl that I like.”
“We are not letting you dedicate this song to her.”
“Too bad. I’m dedicating this song to this girl that I really like. We couldn’t be together back then and maybe even after this. That just shows how fucked up this world is. I want to dedicate this song to her because… Just listen to the song. I can’t express myself right now.”
“Fine. We’ll do the song for her. You already made the speech. Anyway, this song is called ‘Under a Paper Moon’.” The fans cheered. I looked offstage right into Dawn’s eyes. Did she know this song? I thought that she wouldn’t listen to our music ever again.
I finished the last chord and looked back over off the stage. Dawn wasn’t there. I thought that she would like it. That was when I felt arms hugging me from behind. I knew they were hers. I also realized that I was facing the wrong side of the stage anyway. Oh, my bad. I set my guitar down, lifted her up, and spun her around before pulling her into the best hug that she’s probably ever had.
I could hear the crowd go “Awwwwwww.” Then they finally chanted, “Kiss. Kiss. Kiss. Kiss.”
I was not going to let down our fans or Dawn for that matter. I put her chin in my hand, leaned down, and gently put my lips on hers. I smiled when she kissed back. When I pulled away, I smiled and looked into her eyes.
“Would you like to be my girlfriend again? I promise that I’ll never ever do anything to upset you ever again.”
“Of course I will. I sung about forgiving you, didn’t I?”
“And I forgive you.” I pulled her into another kiss.
“Leave me alone,” I told the guys.
“Logan’s gone,” Alex reassured me. “You can come out now.”
“I don’t want to.”
“If you’re not getting out of there, will you at least explain to us what the fuck just happened?”
“I slept with Dawn.”
“We kind of already knew that.”
“When I got up, she told me to leave. She yelled at me. I thought everything was better. I know that she still loves me. She told me. Why would she do this to me?”
“She’s a fucking idiot, and you need to get over her.”
“I can’t. I love her.”
“When you decide to stop being so fucking stupid, tell us.” With that, the guys left me alone.
I just kept thinking about what happened. What the hell did happen? Why did she kick me out? Did I do something wrong? Is she still made at me because of what happened? Think Jack think.
That’s when it came to me. In every interview, she says she’s single. Every single interview! I ruined her chance to ever fall in love with someone else. Why else would she write a ton of songs about me? She can’t get over me just like I can’t get over her. She hasn’t been with anyone. She hasn’t had someone that could make her feel special. It’s all my fault.
Stop blaming this all on yourself Jack. You gave her a chance to be with you again. Yeah, I did a month after I broke up with her. She’s been alone. I’ve been alone. I guess it’s both our faults.
She isn’t going to forgive me though. In all her songs, she says that we can’t be together. She may love me, but she’s too mad at me. There is no hope for us. I really am going to be alone. I can’t be with anyone but Dawn. She hates me though. I need to realize that. The only problem is that I can’t.
I stayed in bed all day. I didn’t want to see anyone. I just wanted to be lost in my memories of us together. She probably doesn’t even have that stuffed animal I gave her. I still have all the pictures that we took together. I just kept them hidden. We had a lot of fun times together. We were only together for a year, but it felt like we were together for a lifetime. A lifetime that I wish never died.
The next day, I got dressed, went to our signing, and eventually went over to the main stage. I could hear an amazing voice coming from the speakers as we walked towards it. We had to be there when the previous band was performing the last of their songs. I started to hum along. Wait. I know this song. Shit. Its Lunatics and Love. I have to be there when Dawn is performing the last of her songs.
I sighed and continued to the stage. Once we were backstage, I slipped away from the rest of the guys and found myself on the side of the stage. My eyes watched the entire band’s movements. They were really good performers. The one that cussed us out yesterday jumped around like a maniac just like I do. The drummer was moving his arms so fast. He was better at entertaining than Rian was. I laughed in my head. Care tried to stay in the back. She wasn’t really into attention anyway. The keyboardist was dancing as her fingers moved across the keys and she sung into the microphone.
My eyes found Dawn in the front, singing and playing her bass, Zack. She couldn’t move that much because she was singing, but she didn’t need to. Her facial expressions amused the crowd enough. She was putting everything she had into it. She may have been the laziest person, but if she loved it, she gave it her all.
“For our last song, I’m going to do something special,” she said. What is she going to do? “I’m going to perform a song that I wrote yesterday with my sister. Carina Fox, you better get that guitar.” She was giving her sister the fake attitude voice
“Don’t make me hit you,” Care shot back.
“Care is threatening me.” She was so cute the way she acted like a kid. Care went over and grabbed the acoustic guitar before going back over to her. “You ready?” Care nodded her head. “This song is for someone. Before I start singing, I’m going to tell you guys what it’s about. It’s about this girl that was such a bitch and blew up on a guy even though she cared for him. Her name is Dawn, and she wants to say that she’s sorry. Dawn has a temper, and she let it get out of hand. She wants the guy to know that she forgives him for everything he ever did, and she wants him to forgive her too because she doesn’t want to be with anyone else.”
“Are you done talking in third person?”
“Shut up Care, and yes I am. I hope you guys enjoy the song.”
She started singing, and I knew it was about us. If she wants me to forgive her, I will. If she wants me to be with her again, I will never leave her side. We can make this work. I know we can.
When they finished, I watched as Dawn exited the stage. She was getting off on the side that I was standing on! I had to say something to her but what? What could I tell her? Damn. Why do I have to suck at expressing myself? I got it! This plan is perfect!
When she got off the stage, I gently took her wrist and whispered in her ear, “Watch our set. I think you’re going to like it.” She nodded and then walked away.
After we ended the song that indicated that half of our set was over, I decided to put my plan into action. “Hey Alex,” I said into the microphone.
“What?” he asked.
“Can I make a request?”
“Wait. Why? We already picked the songs that we were going to play?”
“Pleeeeaaaase. If you don’t, you’re not getting any tonight.” What? I was still going to joke.
“But you know how horny I get after our shows.”
“I’m not going to give you any if you don’t let me choose a song.”
“I’ll do anything.” The crowd was loving this. I could hear them screaming “Jalex! Jalex!” Our fans and their weird pairings. “What song do you want us to do?” I overdramatically tiptoed over to him and whispered the song I want us to do last. “Ok, we can do that song last.” He went over to Zack and Rian to tell them what song. This was the perfect plan.
When the time finally came, I took a deep breath. “Before we play, I want to dedicate this song to someone.”
“We are not letting you dedicate this song to anyone.”
“Why not?”
“You’ll probably dedicate it to condoms and your penis or something like that.”
“For once, I’m being serious.”
“Really?” Even the fans were confused. They didn’t think that I could be serious? Huh. Interesting.
“I want to dedicate this song to this girl that I like.”
“We are not letting you dedicate this song to her.”
“Too bad. I’m dedicating this song to this girl that I really like. We couldn’t be together back then and maybe even after this. That just shows how fucked up this world is. I want to dedicate this song to her because… Just listen to the song. I can’t express myself right now.”
“Fine. We’ll do the song for her. You already made the speech. Anyway, this song is called ‘Under a Paper Moon’.” The fans cheered. I looked offstage right into Dawn’s eyes. Did she know this song? I thought that she wouldn’t listen to our music ever again.
I finished the last chord and looked back over off the stage. Dawn wasn’t there. I thought that she would like it. That was when I felt arms hugging me from behind. I knew they were hers. I also realized that I was facing the wrong side of the stage anyway. Oh, my bad. I set my guitar down, lifted her up, and spun her around before pulling her into the best hug that she’s probably ever had.
I could hear the crowd go “Awwwwwww.” Then they finally chanted, “Kiss. Kiss. Kiss. Kiss.”
I was not going to let down our fans or Dawn for that matter. I put her chin in my hand, leaned down, and gently put my lips on hers. I smiled when she kissed back. When I pulled away, I smiled and looked into her eyes.
“Would you like to be my girlfriend again? I promise that I’ll never ever do anything to upset you ever again.”
“Of course I will. I sung about forgiving you, didn’t I?”
“And I forgive you.” I pulled her into another kiss.
Oh thanks! It's been forever since I've gotten comments or anything.
And I'm happy you like this one. It's not favorite, but it's forever there for me since it was my first ATL fic.
Oh and Idon't know if you've started the prequel but I got really stuck on it, but I have thought of just putting up all the info that wasn't explained. Ex. Why they hate Brittany so much
Anyway, thanks! :)
7/30/13