Alex's POV I walked to school and my ass was throbbing and that was an understatement. I smoked a quick joint and did a line of coke before I walked out the door and it was safe to say I was really buzzed. I got to school and I put my hood up so hopefully no one will noticed I'm fucked out my face.----------- I was wondering the corridors since everyone was in class but I couldn't be bothered to go to class. "Gaskarth go to your lesson now!" Ashby said. "Would if I could but I simply can't be bothered." I said. I rarely spoke and the only time I did was when I was drunk or high. "You high Gaskarth?" He asked and walked over to me. "No, why would I do such a thing?" I said and he pulled my hood down. I flinched away from the bright light. "Jesus Alex!" He whispered shouted at me. "Not so loud. Have you got anything to eat I'm starving." I said. "No I haven't we're going to the head." He said and grabbed my arm. "Ow." I said loudly and pulled my arm out his hold. "What did he do Alex?" He asked. "Who said it was him? Maybe it got rough in the bedroom, you should know after all." I smirked. "Christ I hate it when your like this." He said. "Ah come on Al, you love it." I said and poked his chest. "It's Mr Ashby to you and don't touch me." He said. "No fun." I pouted. He glared at me. "Heads office now." He said seriously. "Na, I'm good. Oh do you have any of that good shit on you?" I asked quietly. "No, I don't do drugs you should know this." He said. "Lies Alan." I said seriously. He huffed and walked off. "Bye Al." I said loudly down the corridor. He ignored me. "Who will have drugs on them that isn't scary." I muttered to myself.----------------- I was on a down and had serious munchies so I went to the cafe and basically just ate until I ran out of money. "Gaskarth." Someone said and sat next to me. "Currently eating do not disturb." I said with a mouthful of food. "Grab your shit and come with me." They said. I looked amd as a pissed off Carlile and Ashby. "Ah shit Al, you told him." I groaned and picked my packet of crisps up and followed them to Carlile office. Once the door was shut Carlile looked at me. "What the fucking hell was you thinking Alex!" He shouted at me and I flinched away and moved towarda a corner. "I'm sorry." I said quietly. "Coming into school fucked out your face! Your lucky I'm not expelling you from the school!" He said. "No, don't do that. I can't stay with him all day, its bad enough at night . I can't spend all day and night with him he will literally kill me!" I said quickly. "Alex calm down, I'm not going to expell you." Carlile said and walked towards me but I moved away from him. "You are though! You gonna leave me with him, let him do whatever he wants to do with me!" I said and I felt tears roll down my face. "I shouldn't of trusted you! I should of listened to my head and not to tell you anything! I should off lied and said everything was fine!" I said loudly and started to pull my hair like I normally do when stressing out. "Alex, you can trust us." Ashby said. "I can't. I can't trust you any more, I'm alone again. Like always I'm alone! No one gives a flying fuck about me! Maybe I would be better off dead! Because I have no one who will miss me!" I shouted. Someone knocked on the door. "Not now!" Carlile said loudly. "But sir." The person said through the door. Carlile went to the door and opened it a little. "Look I can't speak now, I have a student having a panic attack and I need to make sure they are okay. Come back in a hour." He said calmly. "I'm not having a fucking panic attack!" I said loudly. "Come back later." He said and shut the door. "Alex listen to me, if you don't calm down you gonna pass out." Carlile said quietly. "I don't care! I don't fucking care! At least if I pass out I can forget the fucking pain my ass is going through right now! I can forget fucking everything for a while." I said and sniffed. "Alex what aren't you telling me." Carlile said seriously. "I'm not saying. I won't say either." I said. Ashby walked over to me and I backed away from him. "Don't come near me. I don't want to hurt anymore." I said and slid down to the floor and started to cry. I heard someone walk over and kneeled in front of me. "Alex talk to me. You haven't been like this for a while, what going on." Carlile said quietly. "No, he'll find out." I sniffed. "He won't find out. Whatever you say won't leave this room." He said and moved his hand and I flinched away and went more into the corner. "Babe, he's a mess." Ashby said. "I know he is. I have literally just broken his trust and its going to take me ages to get him to at least trust me a little." Carlile said. "Alex, why don't you come and sit on the sofa and I'll make you a tea." Ashby said. I looked up and nodded and got up and made my way over to the sofa. "Don't touch me." I growled when I felt someone's hand on my back. I sat on the sofa and looked down while Ashby made me a tea. "Here you go." He said quietly and handed it too me. I smiled and someone knocked on the door.------------------ "What!" Carlile said. The door opened. "What's up Sir, been sent to see you." The boy from yesterday said. "Jesus Jack its been a day." He sighed. "What can I say, never promised to be a golden boy." He said sarcastically and looked at me. I looked down. "What's wrong with you?" He asked. "Never mind about Gaskarth. Right now my focus is you and why you are in my office." Carlie said. "See ya." Ashby said and walked out. Jack came and sat on the sofa next to me. I moved as far as I could from him. "What's up? I don't bite... Much." He smirked and winked at me. "Jack! Sit in this chair now." Carlile said. "But I'm comfy sat next to this cutie." He said and looked at me. "Jack, I'm serious. Sit in this chair now." He said and Jack moved and sat on the chair. "Alex why don't you listen to your music and draw or whatever we you do." Carlile said. I nodded and looked for my iPod and my doodle book.

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