Tate's POV I groaned when I heard my alarm go off and I woke up and saw I was on Alex's side of the bed and he was being the big spoon. It felt weird but at the same time it was nice. I turned my alarm off and peeled Alex's arm away from me and slowly and quietly got out of bed. I heard Alex sigh loudly and sit up. "Where you going?" He asked quietly his voice thick with sleep. I loved it when his voice was thick with sleep. "I have college." I said and pulled a hoodie on. "Stay here." He muttered and lead back down and slowly fell back asleep again. "I can't, but I'll be back at lunch and we can go out for coffee." I said and Alex nodded. I smiled and lent over and kissed his cheek and picked my stuff up and walked to class. "I'm telling you, she's making it up." Someone called Eric said. We was talking about this case we had been dragged into and it was a girl who was abused and raped. I couldn't help but think about Alex on this one. "But the evidence says she is not making it up." Someone called Danni said. "We know that some evidence lies and we don't trust what people say." Eric said. "I don't see why someone would lie about being abused and raped. It's some serious shit." Danni said. "Your quiet Tate, normally we can't shut you up. What's the matter? Lost your tounge by fucking someone." Eric said. I glared at him. "It's never the victims fault but the abuser." I said thinking about what Alex said last night. Eric scoffed. "In my eyes they had it coming." He said. "Don't you ever say that in front of me again! How many victims do you know who don't feel ashamed by what happened to them! How many do you know don't hate themselves and blame themselves for what has happened to them. You don't so don't go judging something you clearly know nothing about." I said loudly. "And you do?" Danni asked. "Yes I do. And trust me its not nice what they are going through." I said and looked through the notes. "This friend happen to be the one who has put a smile of your face?" Eric asked. "That's for me to know and you not to find out." I said and studied something which doesn't make sense. "She said it started when she was 6. But hospital notes say she was 8 when she first went to hospital." I said to myself. "You don't have to always go to the hospital." Danni said. I thought about Alex and I think he's only been to hospital 3 times since his dad started doing things. I sighed and got up and went to my bag and got my phone and texted Alex. "What you doing?" Danni asked. "I need to speak to my friend about something. I might come back but I don't think I will." I said. "We have 3 days until we're in court and you want to go and talk to your friend and not come back." Eric said. "Look its to do with this. Something isnt right ." I said and picked my bag up and walked out.
Me and Alex was sat in a cafe and Alex was looking something over. "So what do you think?" I asked Alex as he studied the notes while nursing his drink. "Like you said before, she might of been but someone took her when she was 8." He said. I watched him and smiled. "But that doesn't make sense." He said and sat forward and put his drink down and sat beside me since we was sat on the sofa the cafe had. "I mean everyone is different but that is one thing which doesn't make sense." He said and pointed. "What the fact she went back to him?" I asked confused. "She ran off for 6 months. Then she magically went back. If that was me I would never set foot back in the state." He said. "Even if you was to leave me behind?" I asked. Alex looked down and thought about it. "Yeah." He whispered and looked away from me. It hurt but I could understand why. "So that clearly doesn't make sense." I muttered. Alex sighed and got up. "Where you going?" I asked. "I figured that you don't want me around so its best if I just go." He said quietly. I got hold of his arm and gently pulled him back on the sofa. "I always want you around." I said quietly. Alex smiled and sat back on the sofa and put his feet on the sofa. I put my arm behind him and he smiled. "We could go home and cuddle." I said quietly. Alex smiled. "After this." He said quietly. I chuckled and got my drink and drunk it. We got back and Alex was miles away in thought. "What you thinking about?" I asked and sat next to him. "About the girl, how she sounds like me." He said quietly. "Yeah but unlike her you had it worse." I said quietly. Alex rested his head on my shoulder. "Love you." I said quietly. "Love you too." Alex whispered. I smiled and kissed the top of his head. "I want to see her." Alex said out of the blue. "What for?" I asked confused. "I dunno, want to know if it gets better or not." He said quietly. "Babe it might seem mean but I think it's better if you don't see her. It only gets better if you want it to get better." I said. Alex thought about it. "Your right. Only I can help myself to get over this." He said and looked at me. I smiled and kissed him. "Does this mean your gonna go back to school?" I asked. Alex nodded. "That's the spirit." I said. "But I'm gonna start next week. I don't want to do anything right now." He said. I pushed him gently on his back and sat on him and kissed him. "Not even this." I said against his lips and he smiled and pulled my head down and kissed me hard. "Of course." He said. I smiled and pulled my hoodie of along with my top. Alex ran his hands up and down my chest. I smiled and kissed him again while undoing his shirt. He sat up and I pushed his shirt off. "Better go to the bedroom don't want Lottie walking in on us." I said and got off Alex and got hold of his hand and we went to my room. I pushed Alex gently on the bed and sat on him. I looked at his arms and his stomach and chest which was covered in scars and healing cuts which he had done the other day. "What?" He asked. "Just seeing how beautiful you are." I said and kissed a scar on his chest. "I'm not that." He said quietly. "You listen to me Gaskarth. You are beautiful, if anyone says any different then they must be blind and clearly can't see past your scars which make you more beautiful." I said and kissed him. "You being serious?" He asked. "Deadly serious. Scars or no scars you are perfect to me and I wouldn't change you for anything in this world." I said and Alex smiled. "I can feel a problem growing in your pants." Alex chuckled. "Better fix it then." I smirked at him. "See what I can do then." Alex smirked and pulled my trousers off along with my pants.
Alex was lead on his front and I was on my side tracing my finger along his back. "Feel like watching some girly film." He said and rolled over and faced me. "Like what?" I asked. "I dunno, you have sisters you tell me." He said sadly and looked down. "You know Grace will always be your sister." I said quietly. "Please don't ruin the post sex mood. I just want to cuddle and fall asleep watching some shitty girly film." He said. I chuckled. "How about pitch perfect?" I asked. "That'll do." He yawned. I put the film on and got back into bed and Alex cuddled into my side using my chest as a pillow. I looked at his arm which was drapped across my chest. I hate the fact he had to hurt himself to try and numb other pain he was going through. I picked his arm up and kissed the scars I could get too. I looked at Alex who smiled at me. "Jack saw them the other day." He said quietly. "Did he say anything?" I asked. "No, he said he didn't get why I do it but he was fine with the scars and that I didn't have to hide them from him." He said slowly falling asleep like he always does as soon as a film is on. "That's good then." I said quietly and held him closer to me and watched the film and slowly fell asleep to it.

Notes

Don't like the beginning of this but the end I sort of like... I dunno really...