Live While We're Young
My Only One
March 1, 2012
It’s been 6 months since I met the people who changed my life completely. This means it has been 6 months since I began my journey. It is fun to look back and see the ups and downs during this journey that I have shared with you all. All I have got to say is man I am so dramatic it’s not even funny; and do you think Zack and I had enough fights because of me? Jesus, I swear I am not always that uptight; you can ask anyone to verify that for me even. Though this journey hasn’t ended the way I wanted it to I am grateful for all the support I have to this day and for the best friends I have made along the way. I now look at it like this: I will always have Charlotte and Jacee to support me (among many others I am sure) when I am having a rough time. My mind has finally wrapped itself around the fact that my birth family never was my “family” per se but my friends were the ones who I fought, cried and laughed with. This ends my journey to find my family so you guys will probably not hear from me again, at least not for a while. If you do it will be tales of stupidity that has happened with me and my friends at that time or it will be happy stories of the princess meeting her prince and so on. Thank you all for sticking with me through everything and keeping me in line.
Until next time.
Finlee Rayne
Oh and PS – I am putting this on here because I need to tell someone and Charlotte doesn’t read this blog. JACK IS PROPOSING TO CHARLOTTE TONIGHT!!!!! Can’t you tell I am ecstatic about this fact. Yes it is fast but they are so in love and are each other’s best friend. They balance each other out that is for sure. I may edit this thing later to let y’ll know how it goes :).
Finlee's POV
I have had butterflies in my stomach since I woke up today. I don’t even want to know how Jack feels right now if I am so nervous for him. Currently I am walking to the mailbox to see if I got the letter from Arizona State University telling me if I got into the PA program or not. That may also be part of the reason why I have butterflies at this moment.
I have also been avoiding Char since I found out Jack’s plan a few days ago. Why did he confide in me when he knows I can’t keep a secret very well. Zack thinks I am crazy for being so excited for them. The way I look at it they deserve to be the happiest they can be and if that is with each other than I will jump for joy for them. And since Zack will probably never marry me I have to live vicariously through them.
When I get to the mailbox I open it slowly so I can give myself more time to brace myself for rejection. I look in the box and see a large manila envelope from ASU. I decide to open it right then and there so that I don’t break down in front of my friends and boyfriend (even though they don’t know I applied for grad school yet) for being rejected from yet another thing. Once I open the package I slowly read the letter contained inside of it. In all capital letters it read: CONGRATULATIONS YOU’VE BEEN ACCEPTED IN THE PHYSICIAN’S ASSISTANT PROGRAM AT ARIZONA STATE UNIVERSITY. If you would like to accept this invitation into the program please give us a call at the number at the top of this page. Hope to have you become a Sun Devil soon. Holy crap I got accepted to my dream school. Now I actually have to tell Zack that I am moving away. Hopefully the boys can keep him calm when I tell him. I wonder if I should wait until Char and Jack have had their moment before I steal the spotlight. But I also do not know if I can keep my excitement for myself in. So many things have gone awry in my life lately this is definitely a relief. When I walk into the apartment I see that everyone has already left. I guess that means I get to celebrate by myself, not that I am complaining or anything.
I then feel someone snake their hand around my waist from behind making me jump when they say, “What are you cheesing for beautiful?”
“Jesus Zack! You scared me to death. You almost got a fist to your face!” I say almost hyperventilating.
“Sorry babe, I thought you saw me. Now why are you smiling like that?”
“Um… well, promise you won’t get mad?” I reply biting my lower lip.
“Yeah? What’s wrong Finlee? You’re scaring me.”
“Baby, what would you say if hypothetically applied for grad school across the country and kept it from you and got accepted…” I said very fast.
“I would smile and say awesome because it’s your dream and that we would figure it all out because I love you too much to let distance break us apart again. Where did you “hypothetically” get accepted to baby?”
Wow, he is happy for me? This must be why I fell in love with him. “Arizona State University,” I reply with a smile.
He then picks me up and spins me around. He is obviously more excited for me than I expected. “Babe, we have to act normal. It’s Charlotte’s day not mine.”
“Every day is your day baby!”
“The only down side is I have to leave right when I finish finals.” I say with a frown as I think about it.
“Finlee, look at me,” Zack replies tilting my chin up, “I will make sure it’ll all be okay. We only live once! So let’s live while we’re young.”
Jack's POV
I don't think I have ever been so nervous in my life. I can't believe tonight is the night I take the next step with Charlotte. I am so scared she will say no. My hot sidekick has been trying to assure me that won't happen all week but that doesn't mean I'm not scared.
"Jack!"
"Hmm... What sweetheart?"
"I've been talking to you for like 10 minutes. What is up with you? You keep spacing off," she replied.
"I'm just thinking about how we should go out on a date tonight before I leave for tour :)" I recover.
"Um okay, you're weird. Let's go then, I'm starving!" she replied with a laugh.
The night goes well until we get to he hotel where we first hung out. It was now or never that I did it. Once we get to the balcony of the room I turn her around to look at the night sky so that I could prepare myself, like getting down on one knee. When Charlotte turns back around I blurt it out, "Marry Me Charlotte James."
She begins to cry hysterically; shit I knew I was taking things too fast, she doesn't want to marry me. I am such an idiot. I begin to get up and take it all back when she gets down on her knees, looks me in the eyes, and says "I would be delighted to be Mrs. Barakat :)" with a kiss.
I want to jump up and down like a little kid so bad. But I decide containing myself is the more mature thing to do. I don't want to embarass my FIANCE anymore than I have to tonight. It is her night after all.
"We have to go tell everyone! I need to start planning, OMG..." I hear Charlotte rant from afar. This makes my smile even larger. I guess I should just live in the moment and allow her her time to shine. After all she has proved to me that happy endings do, in fact, exist.
It’s been 6 months since I met the people who changed my life completely. This means it has been 6 months since I began my journey. It is fun to look back and see the ups and downs during this journey that I have shared with you all. All I have got to say is man I am so dramatic it’s not even funny; and do you think Zack and I had enough fights because of me? Jesus, I swear I am not always that uptight; you can ask anyone to verify that for me even. Though this journey hasn’t ended the way I wanted it to I am grateful for all the support I have to this day and for the best friends I have made along the way. I now look at it like this: I will always have Charlotte and Jacee to support me (among many others I am sure) when I am having a rough time. My mind has finally wrapped itself around the fact that my birth family never was my “family” per se but my friends were the ones who I fought, cried and laughed with. This ends my journey to find my family so you guys will probably not hear from me again, at least not for a while. If you do it will be tales of stupidity that has happened with me and my friends at that time or it will be happy stories of the princess meeting her prince and so on. Thank you all for sticking with me through everything and keeping me in line.
Until next time.
Finlee Rayne
Oh and PS – I am putting this on here because I need to tell someone and Charlotte doesn’t read this blog. JACK IS PROPOSING TO CHARLOTTE TONIGHT!!!!! Can’t you tell I am ecstatic about this fact. Yes it is fast but they are so in love and are each other’s best friend. They balance each other out that is for sure. I may edit this thing later to let y’ll know how it goes :).
Finlee's POV
I have had butterflies in my stomach since I woke up today. I don’t even want to know how Jack feels right now if I am so nervous for him. Currently I am walking to the mailbox to see if I got the letter from Arizona State University telling me if I got into the PA program or not. That may also be part of the reason why I have butterflies at this moment.
I have also been avoiding Char since I found out Jack’s plan a few days ago. Why did he confide in me when he knows I can’t keep a secret very well. Zack thinks I am crazy for being so excited for them. The way I look at it they deserve to be the happiest they can be and if that is with each other than I will jump for joy for them. And since Zack will probably never marry me I have to live vicariously through them.
When I get to the mailbox I open it slowly so I can give myself more time to brace myself for rejection. I look in the box and see a large manila envelope from ASU. I decide to open it right then and there so that I don’t break down in front of my friends and boyfriend (even though they don’t know I applied for grad school yet) for being rejected from yet another thing. Once I open the package I slowly read the letter contained inside of it. In all capital letters it read: CONGRATULATIONS YOU’VE BEEN ACCEPTED IN THE PHYSICIAN’S ASSISTANT PROGRAM AT ARIZONA STATE UNIVERSITY. If you would like to accept this invitation into the program please give us a call at the number at the top of this page. Hope to have you become a Sun Devil soon. Holy crap I got accepted to my dream school. Now I actually have to tell Zack that I am moving away. Hopefully the boys can keep him calm when I tell him. I wonder if I should wait until Char and Jack have had their moment before I steal the spotlight. But I also do not know if I can keep my excitement for myself in. So many things have gone awry in my life lately this is definitely a relief. When I walk into the apartment I see that everyone has already left. I guess that means I get to celebrate by myself, not that I am complaining or anything.
I then feel someone snake their hand around my waist from behind making me jump when they say, “What are you cheesing for beautiful?”
“Jesus Zack! You scared me to death. You almost got a fist to your face!” I say almost hyperventilating.
“Sorry babe, I thought you saw me. Now why are you smiling like that?”
“Um… well, promise you won’t get mad?” I reply biting my lower lip.
“Yeah? What’s wrong Finlee? You’re scaring me.”
“Baby, what would you say if hypothetically applied for grad school across the country and kept it from you and got accepted…” I said very fast.
“I would smile and say awesome because it’s your dream and that we would figure it all out because I love you too much to let distance break us apart again. Where did you “hypothetically” get accepted to baby?”
Wow, he is happy for me? This must be why I fell in love with him. “Arizona State University,” I reply with a smile.
He then picks me up and spins me around. He is obviously more excited for me than I expected. “Babe, we have to act normal. It’s Charlotte’s day not mine.”
“Every day is your day baby!”
“The only down side is I have to leave right when I finish finals.” I say with a frown as I think about it.
“Finlee, look at me,” Zack replies tilting my chin up, “I will make sure it’ll all be okay. We only live once! So let’s live while we’re young.”
Jack's POV
I don't think I have ever been so nervous in my life. I can't believe tonight is the night I take the next step with Charlotte. I am so scared she will say no. My hot sidekick has been trying to assure me that won't happen all week but that doesn't mean I'm not scared.
"Jack!"
"Hmm... What sweetheart?"
"I've been talking to you for like 10 minutes. What is up with you? You keep spacing off," she replied.
"I'm just thinking about how we should go out on a date tonight before I leave for tour :)" I recover.
"Um okay, you're weird. Let's go then, I'm starving!" she replied with a laugh.
The night goes well until we get to he hotel where we first hung out. It was now or never that I did it. Once we get to the balcony of the room I turn her around to look at the night sky so that I could prepare myself, like getting down on one knee. When Charlotte turns back around I blurt it out, "Marry Me Charlotte James."
She begins to cry hysterically; shit I knew I was taking things too fast, she doesn't want to marry me. I am such an idiot. I begin to get up and take it all back when she gets down on her knees, looks me in the eyes, and says "I would be delighted to be Mrs. Barakat :)" with a kiss.
I want to jump up and down like a little kid so bad. But I decide containing myself is the more mature thing to do. I don't want to embarass my FIANCE anymore than I have to tonight. It is her night after all.
"We have to go tell everyone! I need to start planning, OMG..." I hear Charlotte rant from afar. This makes my smile even larger. I guess I should just live in the moment and allow her her time to shine. After all she has proved to me that happy endings do, in fact, exist.
Notes
The end... Let me know if you guys would like a sequel or an epilogue or anything. Hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I liked writing it. Oh and Finlee's outfit, Char's outfit, and Char's ring are in the set linked below :)http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=73857286
Ok. =) Can't wait.
1/11/13