Alex POV "Riley Kit, grubs up if you've both stopped fucking each other!" Jack shouted up the stairs. I chuckled a little and tickled Sky sides a little since she was sitting on my lap. Riley and Kit showed up in just their pants and their hair was all over the place. "You can sit on the floor." Seth said. "It's just cum." Riley said. "Ew, you never even showered!" Aidan said and moved and sat next to me. "Didn't have time, don't worry we did wipe each other down." Riley said. "Your disgusting." Aidan said and threw a cushion at Riley and Kit. "You can't say much, especially what you and Oli used to do." Riley said. Aidan looked at him hurt and got up and went upstairs. "Good one Ri, she was just forgetting about the bastard and then you had to open your fucking trap!" Seth said. I got up and went upstairs to Aidan room. I knocked on the door and walked in. "What's up buttercup?" I asked and sat next to her. "I'm just being stupid." She sniffed. "Aid, I know I haven't been around for the last few months but I'm here now and if you want to talk about it then you can." I said. She looked at me. "I thought you was going to die dad." She said and some tears fell and she wrapped her arms round my neck and sobbed in my neck. I sighed and moved Aidan so I could hug her. "I'm sorry Aid, I didn't mean to hurt you or anyone." I said quietly and kissed the top of her head. "You looked like you was going to die especially when you was out for the count." She sobbed into my neck. I pulled back and made her looked at me. "I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere." I said quietly and kissed her forehead. "But your not eating and you've lost loads of weight and something might happen." She sniffed loudly. "Nothing is gonna happen to me. I'm going to get better, it'll take time but I'll get better." I said. Aidan looked at me. "Promise?" She asked quietly. "I promise Aid." I said and kissed the top of her head. "Are you and pa back together?" She asked hopefully. "We had a brief chat about it while I was in hospital and yeah we are. But we need more of a serious chat about it." I said. She smiled. "Let's go and have some pizza." I said and got up. Aidan got up and pulled me into a hug. "I'm glad your back. It wasn't the same without you here." She said. "I happy to be home as well." I said and after that we went downstairs. We was all pigging out on pizza, well everyone was but me I was just looking at my one slice not feeling hungry. Jack was sat next to me and Rowan was eyeing my bit of pizza. "Rowan you have some stop looking at everyone else's." Jack said. "But I don't like this." He said. "Then why have you eaten half of it then?" Jack asked. Rowan didn't say anything and just carried on eating his pizza. "Your pizza is getting cold." Jack said quietly and looked at me. "I'm not hungry." I said quietly. Jack got up and took my plate with him and a couple of minutes later he came back with only half the pizza and cut in smaller bits and a little bit of salad on the side. I looked at him and smiled a little. "Just have a little bit, you don't have to eat it all just a couple of mouth fulls." Jack said and put a load of pizza in his mouth. Since my eating habits have changed a lot the sight of Jack putting food in his mouth made me want to throw up. I picked at my food only having a couple of mouthfuls in the end. I was washing up when I felt really sick. Jack was in the kitchen on the laptop doing some work. I tried to ignore what I was feeling but it didn't work. I put my hand over my mouth and ran to the downstairs bathroom and threw up. For me it wasn't enough food which I brought up so I stuck my fingers down my throat and made myself sick. "Alex?" Jack said as he knocked on the door. "I'm fine." I said and threw up. I heard the door open and Jack walked in and got down to my level. "I'm sorry." I said quietly and rested my head on the edge of the toilet. "It's okay, wasn't expecting you to get better straight away. You just need time and learn that food isn't your enemy." He said quietly. "I've fucked everything up haven't I?" I asked quietly and looked at him. "No babe you haven't. It's was just one of them things and we'll just have to get through it together." Jack said and reached his arm out and messed with my hair. 'What if I don't get better?" I asked quietly. Jack got up and I felt him pick me up. "You guys going to be okay to put Rowan to bed? I have Sky under control." Jack said. "Yeah." Someone responded but they was all too involved in this game to pay attention to me and Jack. Jack placed me on the bed. He went to walk of somewhere but I got hold of his hand and he looked at me. "Stay, please I can't trust myself." I said and looked down. "I was just shutting the door and checking on Sky." He said and shut the door and went over the cot I saw Jack smile and he walked back over to me and sat on the bed. "You will get better because I know for a fact you won't leave the kids. You like a challenge and beating your eating disorder is going to be on of the biggest challenges you have faced for a long time." He said. "What if I don't want to face it Jack, what if I'm too weak to fight it and let it just kill me." I said and looked away from Jack. I felt Jack get hold of my chin and made me look at him. "Your not weak Alexander. If you was weak then you would off given up when you cut yourself to bits and OD on your meds. But you didn't Lex and I'm fucked if I'm losing you again but this time knowing that I would never get to hold you, kiss you. It was hell not having you here when you left. I don't want to grow old and not have you by my side Alex. I just can't do it." Jack said seriously and looked down. "Sky needs you Lex, all the kids need you. Without you they are a mess. It took Seth nearly 3 months until he spoke to me. Riley and Aidan didn't speak to me for a month. Seth nearly cut himself, if it wasn't for Tyler walking in on him then his legs would be littered in scars and cuts. I know for a fact you don't want any of the kids to grow up like that. You don't want them to be like you. The only way that can happen is if you stay and fight this Lex. If not then this whole family will be fucked. We need you more than what you think." Jack said and looked at me. I looked away and sighed. "I feel like this will take long to get over than the last time Jacky. It's not gonna be 6 months later and I'm better, this is going to take a long time." I said quietly. "But your going to get better Lex you have too. I will do anything to help you get better." Jack said looking at me. I moved closer to him and kissed him. "Is that a yes?" Jack asked. I looked into his eyes, which I never do to anyone. "I gonna try. I promise you that I'll try." I said quietly. Jack smiled and reached over to his side of the bed of got something. Her faced me and sat crossed legged and followed his lead and sat cross legged on the bed. Jack held his hand out and my ring was in the palm of his hand. "I understand if you don't want it back..." He said but I stopped him by taking my ring and putting it on my finger and kissed him hard. "Course I fucking want it back!" I said and kissed him again. Jack smiled and pulled me into a hug. I heard the door open and me and Jack looked and saw Rowan standing at the door rubbing his eyes with bunny. "What's the matter bud?" I asked and removed myself from Jack and went over to Rowan and picked him up. "I had a nightmare." He said quietly and rested his head on my shoulder. I looked at Jack. "If you thought you was getting any you would of been wrong." I said and sat on the bed and gently rocked myself side to side to help Rowan fall asleep. "It's been ages." Jack pouted. "Well we have little man in our bed tonight which means I have to give my cuddles up so you can give the sex up for one night." I said and stood up and pulled the covers back. I sat leaning against the pillows Rowan still asleep. Jack came over and climbed into bed. I put Rowan in the middle and pulled the covers over me and Rowan. I rolled onto my side and Rowan moved and cuddled into my chest. I looked at Jack and smiled. Jack moved so he was close to me but Rowan still had space to move around since he was a wiggle arse. "Night Lex." Jack mumbled. "Night Jacky." I said and was put like a light.

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