Alex's POV I couldn't sleep so I was sat in the kitchen listening to any decent songs which was on the radio. Jack managed to crawl himself up to bed which meant I was left on my own with music over thinking everything. I went and got my guitar and quietly started to play it to myself. I heard someone come downstairs. I looked at saw Aidan wearing a top which wasn't hers. "Since when did you own a basketball looking top with AC/DC on it?" I asked and she jumped. "Fucking hell dad! You gave me a heart attack! It's not mine its Oli's top." She said and went and made herself a tea. "Want one?" She asked. "Yeah please." I smiled and went back to the guitar. - "You haven't play your guitar for ages." Aidan said and sat next to me on the sofa. "Just needed to try and clear my head a little." I said quietly. "Is everything okay with you and pa?" She asked. "Course it is, we're good okay. You don't have to worry." I said quietly and she moved and I put my guitar down and she cuddled into my side. "Your meds aren't working are they?" She asked. "You don't worry if my meds are working or not because its between me and pa." I said. "I do worry dad. You distant round us all. Even yourself, we all have noticed your wearing hoodies which means your hurting yourself dad." She said and pulled away and looked at me. I looked down. "You shouldn't worry Aid, I'm fine." I said and looked at her. "I don't want you to do anything which can hurt you or bab." She said and looked down. I put a finger under her chin so she was looking at me. "I won't hurt myself or bab okay. I wouldn't harm bab alright." I said quietly and pulled her into my chest. She sniffed a little and I pulled back and looked at her. "Why you crying?" I asked and wiped her tears away. "I don't want to lose you." She said quietly. "You won't. Your stuck with me and pa." I smiled, she smiled as well. "Go back to bed I know Oli stayed round so go and cuddle up with him and steal his body heat." I said and kissed the side of her head. She smiled and got up and went upstairs. My bump has gotten bigger than what it was before. I put my hand on top of it and gently traced my finger along it. - Someone else came downstairs. I looked up and saw Jack stood on the stairs looking at me. "Come to bed, it feels empty without you." He said quietly. "Can't sleep, so many jumbled thoughts going round my head its keeping me up." I said and looked down. I heard Jack walk over and kneeled in front of me. "What going on in that head of yours?" He asked softly. "I don't know. I don't want to be in my head but I have to be but I want out." I said. "Out? As in leave me? Alex.." He started sounding hurt but I stopped him. "I never want to leave you Jack." I said and looked at him. "Then what do you want out on then Lex?" He asked. I looked down and messed with my sleeves on my hoodie. "Babe speak to me, you worry me when your like this." He said. I shook my head. "I can't help you if you don't tell me Lex, I need to know so I can help you because its not just you anymore you have to think about the kids and bab." He said. I looked at him. "They said the meds would stop the thoughts coming but they haven't Jacky, they've gotten worse. Like its at the point when I can't even do anything without thinking about it." I said in a rush but Jack could normally get what I was talking about. Jack moved so he was next to me and he pulled me close to his side and kissed the top of my head. "How long have you been feeling like this?" He said quietly. "Since they started to fuck around with my meds." I said. "That was nearly 2 months ago, why didn't you tell me?" He said. "Because I was fine to start off with and now my head is all over the place." I said quietly. "Wheres your meds?" He asked. "In our room in the bathroom cupboard." I said. "Do you have some of your old meds?" He asked. "Yeah, but why do you want to know?" I asked and looked at him. He got up and offered me his hands and I took them and he helped me up. "Let's go to bed and watch whatever shit you want to watch while I see how much they have actually cut back on your meds." He said. I smiled as I knew Jack would always keep an eye on me when it comes to my meds and when something isn't right with me. "When did you last have something to eat?" He asked. "Tea time." I said. "Want something to eat first?" He asked and I nodded. "Toast?" He asked and I nodded again and he lead me to the kitchen and made my some toast and took me up to our room . - We walked past Riley's room. "Get your fucking cold feet off me you asshole!" Riley said crossly. "Glad I'm not the only one who has that problem." Jack chuckled. I glared at him. "I'm pregnant and have cold feet because of it." I said. Jack chuckled and we carried on to our room. Once we got there I sat on the bed and Jack gave me the toast and the TV remote which was rare as he always hogged the remote. "Find something good to watch while I sort this out." He said from the bathroom and came back into the room with my meds and sat on the bed. I found something to watch and slowly began to eat my toast Jack made me. I looked at Jack and he was frowning. "What's that frown for?" I asked. "They've cut you down to almost nothing, no wonder why your going fucking cuckoo." He said and looked at me. "Is that including my anxiety meds as well?" I asked. "No because you haven't been needing them." He said. "Good point." I muttered. "We're going to the doctors tomorrow and get them to up your meds because I'm not having you feeling like this." He said seriously. I smiled and crawled onto his lap and kissed him. He returned it and looked at me. "What's this for?" He whispered. "Can't kiss my husband now, and I have something to tell you about bab as well." I said. "You can kiss me no matter what, oh do tell me." He said and kissed me. "I felt it kick for the first time." I smiled wide. "When?" Jack smiled. "I dunno at tea but it was really faint that I almost never felt it." I said. "Was beginning to think you wasn't pregnant." He chuckle. "Don't look it, wouldn't think I was 5 months." I said and lifted my top up and looked at my little bump and poked it. Jack chuckled. "Little guy." Jack said quietly and traced circles on my bump. I smiled. "How about i put your meds back and you climb into bed and we'll cuddle and watch a film." Jack said. I smiled and nodded a nd crawled under the covers and when Jack got back cuddled into his side and stole the remote off me and chose a film to watch. "Go to sleep otherwise you'll be one assey bastard tomorrow." Jack said and kissed the side of my head. "I'll try hopefully this film will bore me to sleep." I said and looked at him. He smiled and I kissed him and rested my head on his chest and watched the film until I felt my eyes get heavy and I was out like a light.

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