Jessica~_~
It was a rainy fall morning, The crisp air nipping at my face, and the light rain freezing my fingers and face.. The leaves didn't have the same crunch to them as yesterday, Witch was disappointing.
The dreary sky above, Dark.. Mysterious.. Acting as if it were upset..
It was 7:46am and I was off to another dreadful day at school. Pushed into lockers/Garbage cans ect...
Not even 10 seconds in to the doors and Dakota is already into the insults "Oh look. the janitor forgot to take the trash out last night.." I tried ignoring her but her boyfriend Josh pushed me down
"Awe is the little baby gonna cry" He made a pout face then pushed my face into the floor giving a swift kick to my ribs, Just before the bell rang and the halls cleared..
I decided today was going to be a me day. SO I got up, Dusted myself off and walked right back out the school doors and to where ever the fuck I wanted.
4 hours later I found myself at a book store silently reading 'Paper towns' when all of a sudden I was ripped up by the collar of my shirt and dragged out I spun around to see..... Ryan, My sister... She was tall, Pretty. N very popular... And here I was, Short, Ugly. and a freak. "What the fuck? You should be in school you slut." She spat "Riight, Because sitting n reading a book is, sooooo slutty" she slapped me "Wait until dad finds out." she shot dragging me home, gripping my fresh cuts making them sting and possibly open, But she didn't care.. No one in my family cared about what I go through... My mom found out about it and yelled at me, She keeps telling me I can talk to her. Hard to believe when I tell her and she fuckin yells at me.... And my father.... He's just an abusive alcoholic. And my 3 siblings? They just get what ever they want... The only one of my siblings that doesn't hate me is my twin Brother... But he still gets what ever he wants... Shares sometimes...
"You're going back to school, and then when you get home, You'll have to deal with dad." she said tugging on my arm harder.
I got back to school in time for the end of lunch and last period.
I walked through the doors and to the library, where I sat quietly, reading... No one ever asked why I didn't eat, because no one cared.. A few minutes later I seen a boy with flippy brown hair walk through and was coming in my direction, I instantly tensed up "Hey" He said, Looking at me through his fringe, I looked up, pieces of red hair falling in front of my eye "H-hi..." My voice fell silent, not able to speak "Can I sit here?" He gesturing to the empty chair beside me, I nodded my head a little and he gave a small smile.... What was he planning...
We sat in silence for a few minutes, before he spoke up "I'm Alex by the way..." he slowly trailed off "I-I'm Jessica...." My voice just under a whisper he was about to say something else when Dakota walked in and over to us "What are you doing with this freak, Lex?" She asked cocking her eyebrow.. He looked at her then me, I just stayed silent "Hmmm?? She doesn't deserve friends" she spat while looking at me "She's just a fat, Nobody." her words dripped out like venom then, She turned to me "Why don't you just go kill yourself?" Her voice loud, And that's when the bell rang and I raced out of there and to fourth... Thank god it was spare... I ran to my locker... grabbed what I needed and hid in the bathroom till the halls were clear..
I then found myself back in the library with my music in, listening to 'Pittsburgh-Amity affliction'
It's been my go to song for a while now... My mind started wondering from my home work... To suicide.
I was actually going to do it tonight.... No one would care. I have no friends. And no family that cares... Except Julian.. But he'd get over it after a while...
Not even 5 minutes later Alex was back... And I was scared of what was about to happen...
Thoughts raced through my head my heart beating a mile a minute...
He started to speak but I couldn't hear him through the head phones, So I took them out slowly.. "Hmm?" I said softly "I said... Since, were both on spare, do you want to come watch me and my band practice?" He asked, a small smile playing on his lips.
I sighed "Shouldn't you not be talking to me...." I said looking down at my paper "Fuck that twat, Leets goooo" I laughed a little and stood up, pulling the sleeve of my shirt down further.

We walked out the doors and to his car. It was an awkward ride for the first half, Until he spoke
"So what kind of music you listen to?" He asked pulling up to a red light "Rock, metal, Anything alternative really...." I said quietly "Really? Well lucky for you, the band im in is sortta punk-ish" I gave a small smile just as we pulled into the driveway of im guessing his house....

When we got inside the garage I saw 3 other guys messing around with there instruments, The one with a similar hair cut to Alex's popped his head up "Hey, Alex is back, Whos the girl?" Alex looked over at him "Jack, this is Jessica, Jessica this is Jack, Rian, and Zack.. They, are my band" Each of them smiled and waved, But then Jack.. i think.. His face fell "Wait isnt that the Jessica everyone bullies?" he questioned, I looked down hiding my face "Yea..." Sadness laced Alex's voice "What bitches.... Don't worry, Stick with us and no one will bother you, and if they do, the'll have to deal with us." Jack said standing tall, I gave a small smile "Thanks" I said in a quiet whisper "S'no problem, Now lets get to practice" I hard Alex say.

2 hours later I checked the time "Oh, shit.. I have to get home, fuck, im late" I said standing up fast "Hey, clam down, I'll drive you alright?" Alex spoke calmly, I slowly nodded.
The drive home was tense "turn here" I spoke and he followed my order "Right here is fine. If my father catches me being dropped off by a boy, he'll loose his shit even more..." I said un buckling my seat belt "Oh... Ok... See you tomorrow?" He asked "Yea...if im lucky...." I said the last part under my breath.

As soon as I got inside there was a slap to my face "You little whore. where were you!" My father screamed "Li-library... sir..." another blow to my cheek "Liar!" He threw me down, and I hit my head off the wall "ow" I whined, a kick to my ribs "Now. where. were. you!" he bellowed "I sw-swear.. The library" he picked me up by my hair "If you are EVER this late again, I'll beat you to DEATH!" he threw me down and I crawled to my room, cradling my ribs.

I got there and started to bawl. hot streaks of tears rolled down my cheeks.. A sob wracked my body, but I quickly covered my mouth trying to be silent. I quietly looked at my phone '8:45' I sighed to my self, everything that could go wrong today, did go wrong.. I slowly reached my hand over to my night stand and grabbed my blade, Slowly I made horizontal gashes across my wrists...
Crawling into my bed, I fell asleep....

The next day at school was a little different,
I had my hood up, the crisp fall air nipping at my noes. Less dreary then yesterday, The leaves crunched, and the wind howled, "Jessica?" I hard from behind me, and I turned around, to see the smiling face of Alex, I looked down slightly "Hey, Alex" I said, a smile spreading across my face "Whats up, you looked lonely" I laughed a little "Yea I guess I'm a little lonely" I admitted Looking up, forgetting about my black eye, I heard a gasp escape his mouth and his hand gently brushed the bruised area "Jess.. What.. What happened" his eyes held emotion ive never seen before.. "I-it's nothing...." I whispered in a hush voice, His face hardened "Thats, bullshit. Jessica, what happened" he seethed. "I...I told you I was late...." my voice quivering, "What...Do...You...Mean..." his grip tightened on my face "Alex... your hurting me..." I whined, he loosened his grip, but didnt release "Who... Hit you" his asked again sternly "My...My dad...." I said avoiding eye contact, his and ripped away from my face "WHAT!!!!" His face went read and his knuckles whitened "Alex...Please.. ca-calm d-down..." My voice barley audible, frozen in fear, thinking he was gonna strike me, "calm down? CALM DOWN?!?! YOU FATHER IS ABUSING YOU, AND YOU WANT ME TO CALM DOWN?!?" I slowly backed away hear racing, I felt the tears well up in my eyes, 'p-p-please, d-d-dont h-h-hurt me..." My voice trembled and cracked, his face softened, and he slowly brought me into a hug "I'm so sorry, Jessica, I didn't mean yo scare you..." his voice shaking "Its...Its fine..." he hugged me tighter, "no.. its not...." I sniffed a little "i didnt mean to scare you...."

After that little drama session was over we started walking towards the school doors, We met up with Jack, Rian, and Zack, an each of them had almost the same reaction as Alex did. "Dont worry, Were gonna get you out of there" Rian said, and I stopped dead in my tracks "You.. You cant.. He'll come after me, he'll kill me" I said shaking my head "We wont let that happen, I swear" Jack said stepping closer, I shook my head and turned away, Someones hand clasped around my arm, I let out a small gasp and spun around, cradling my arm to my chest, I got weird looks from all of them, I slowly started to back away, and when I had the chance I ran.

I got half way home when I realized, I couldn't go home... So I ran to an abandoned train station..
I sat there, and just let everything out.
About 5 minutes of me sitting there, and I heard my name being called by Alex

"Jessica!" he said relieved from beside me... "Hey.. Look at me..." He said tilting my face towards him but I pulled away "Jessica..." His voice cracked "No... your just gonna end up like the others. You'll find out how I really am... You'll leave. That's how it always goes..." it went silent "That's not how its gonna go this time... I promise..." I looked at him, tears threatening to spill over, But I refused to let them fall, He held out his hand "Please... Just come with me, Stay at my house.. Let me give you the life you deserve..." He smiled a little "But.. My father-" "-Will never get you, You'll be touring with us, he wont be able to keep up... I promise" I looked at him for a second, contemplating what he just said, I sighed, reaching my hand out to grasp his.... Was that a good choice..?

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