Zack's Pov.. I sat in the room with everyone and by everyone I mean Alex and Lisa, Rian and Cassadee and Jack and Heather his new girl friend. I always wonder why I put myself through sitting with couples who are always kissing, holding hands, whispering cute things to each other or just being in love while I sit here and become very interested in my phone, shoes or window. I often don't mind but today I had woken up on the wrong side of the bed and I couldn't deal with it all today, and the fact that the one person I didn't want to see today was here. Have you ever felt a certain way towards someone but you know you can't act on the feelings because there to happy with someone else? So you sit in the background and slowly watch as it kills you inside that its someone else there with and not you? Well this is exactly how I feel right now and the worst thing is its towards someone I've known for years. Just then Flyzik comes through the small door to our dressing room and looks around then gives me a sorry smile, I sigh and get up leaving the couples to be alone in their own little worlds not that they would notice if I left. "You okay bro?" Alex asked me and I nod looking at the door, not wanting to face him. "Yeah just in a weird mood y'know, I'm gonna go get some air and some food" I said and ran a hand through my hair a sign that I'm nervous or lying, the only person who knows when I do that is Rian. "Oh okay well bus call is at three and if you want to talk I'm here for you" Alex said giving me a smile, I mumbled an 'ok' and walked quickly out feeling like I couldn't breathe in the small room. I sat outside the small venue on the pavement and just watched what went on around me, cars driving past, people walking quickly or on phones and my mind drifted to him, yes him. Jack. I hated how he could make me smile when I didn't want to, I hate how he can brighten a room with a laugh or stupid dick joke, I hate how tall and skinny he is, I hate how much of an idiot he is, I hate his perfect smile, I hate how I have feelings for him over a drunken night and worst I hate that he's not with me. I walked to the bus knowing that I shouldn't wish Heather out of Jack's live so he could be with me, jumping into my bunk I lay there quietly knowing that Jack was killing me inside, so now I know how love feels and guess what? It fucking sucks.

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