Many Of Horror

Alex's POV.

I was woken up by Jack rolling over and hogging most of the bed.
"babe your hogging the bed." I muttered and tired to roll over but Jack had me pinned to the bed.
"Jack move your crushing me." I whined and tried to push him off me.
He huffed and rolled off me into his side of the bed.
I rolled over and cuddled into his back and kissed between his shoulder blades.
Jack hummed contently.
I stop kissing between his shoulder blades.
"Don't stop. I'm enjoying that." Jack said his voice thick with sleep.
I smiled and kissed his back and started to nip his back leaving hickies down his spine and along his shoulder blades.
"This you making up for lost time?" He sighed and rolled onto his front and I sat in the dip of his back still giving him hickies.
"Not really, just making your back look pretty." I said.
He chuckled.
" Want me to still make you breakfast?" I asked.
Jack rolled onto his back and then pushed me off him and sat on me.
"Not yet. Might have to do something with you first." He said and kissed me which caught me by surprise.

"Well you two look like you had a good time." Eric said as he walked in the kitchen.
"That's because we did." Jack said.
I turned round and slapped Jacks chest.
"Ow." Jack said.
"Our sex life has nothing to do with you because you don't have a sex life." I said and looked at Eric.
"Mate I get plenty." Eric scoffed.
"Bullshit!" Freddie said loudly as he walked in the kitchen.
"Can we please not talk about this." I said.
"Their just jealous because we can get laid whenever we want and they can't." Jack said and kissed my cheek.
"Christ I have not missed the early morning talks about everyone's sex life." I groaned and gave everyone breakfast and walked out the room while everyone pigged out on breakfast.

I was sat in mine and Jacks room having cuddles with my rodent.
"There you are. We've wondered where you went." Jack said quietly and sat on the edge of the bed.
"I wasnt thinking on doing anything." I said quietly.
" I know you wasn't. But you have to eat something as you must be hungry after last night and this morning doings." He said.
"I'm not hungry." I said quietly but my stomach said otherwise.
Jack chuckled.
" Your stomach says otherwise." He said.
"Well it lies." I said and looked away from him.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
"Nothing." I whispered.
"Babe talk to me please." He said and moved more onto the bed.
"I was thinking. What happens if I can't keep a lid on it and do something and I end up back there and they won't let me out." I said and felt some tears fall down my cheek.
"Hey, baby don't cry. Nothing is going to happen to you. You are not going to end up there again." He said and pulled me to his side.
"But what if I can't help myself and I have to do it. I can't stop myself when I'm like it. What am I am doing to do." I sobbed.
"I know you can't stop yourself so we're going to try something." He said and kissed the top of my head.
"Just calm down before you work yourself into a panic attack." He said quietly.
"I can't stop myself." I sobbed more than before.
"Make a fuss of Bob. Maybe he can calm you down." He said.
I shook my head.
"No.. going.. to..work." I said between breaths.
" Lex, Lex breath. Listen to my voice and just focus on your breathing." Jack said and sat in front of me.
"Its not going to help Jack." I said and the colourful dots clouded my vision.
"Babe. Listen to me don't go passing out in me." Jack said.
But like normal on a bad panic attacks which I couldn't get a grip on I passed out.

I woke up in bed with Jack talking to someone.
"He hasn't had one that bad for a while." Eric said.
"Think its just the whole thing about not being somewhere in his mind as safe. Even though he won't admit it out loud but being at that place was like a safety net for him. And being in a different house as well is enough to making anyone with any problem go into panic mode." Jack said.
I cuddled more into Jacks side.
I felt him mess with my hair.
"I know your awake Lex." Jack chuckled.
"I'll leave you two be. But you should talk to Alex about it." Eric said and walked out the room.
"Talk to me about what?" I asked and rested my head on his chest and traced my finger along his stomach.
"About school." He said.
"I'm not going back." I said and sat up and looked at him.
"Wasn't expecting you too. What about online school." He said.
I sighed.
"Let me think about it." I said.
"Didn't want you to make a choice right away. Just take your time." Jack said and kissed me softly.
I smiled.
"Go back to sleep. I'll make you something to eat." He said and kissed the top of my head and I got comfy and fell asleep.

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