Many Of Horror

Jacks POV

I woke up and was alone in bed, which wasn't like Alex.
I sat up and looked round and saw Oscar say by the bathroom door.
"Oscar, where's Alex?" I asked and walked over to him.
Oscar looked at me and got up quickly and slammed the door shut and moved Alex's bed in front of the door.
He looked around quickly and ran over to his bed and pulled the curtains and looked at me.
"Oscar what's going on? Where's Alex?" I asked.
"They're gonna keep us here longer if they find out what we have done." He said quickly and looked at the door.
"What have you done Oscar?" I asked.
"Nothing, i haven't done anything." He said quickly.
"Hey, you can trust me I wont say anything okay. I pinky promise." I said and held my little finger out.
He looked at me and linked his little finger with mine.
"Tell me what you and Alex have done." I said quietly.
"I Overdosed on painkillers but i dont know what Alex has done because he ran to the bathroom and locked the door before i could stop him." He said and looked down.
"Do you feel okay?" I asked.
"Feel really sick, and my heart feels like it could give out at anytime and I feel really tired." He said.
"If your going to be sick then throw up in this." I said and handed him an empty crisp packet.
He looked at me confused.
"So they don't ask questions." I said seriously and looked at him.
"Don't go to sleep. I don't know how many you have taken so don't sleep. You need to stay calm okay, don't panic okay." I said.
"But I want to sleep." He muttered.
"No you are not going to sleep. Because if you sleep you could die and I am fucked if I'm going to let you die on me. You hear me, I might not know you but I am fucked if I'm letting you sleep so get your shit together and don't fall asleep." I said seriously and slapped him a little round the face.
"Don't fall asleep otherwise I will tell." I said and walked over to the bathroom.

I knocked on the door.
"Lex. Lex let me in." I said.
I heard him sniff loudly.
"Babe let me in. I want to help." I said.
"No one can help me." He said.
"Well let me in and I can help you Alex. You should know I can help you." I said.
"You can't help me this time Jack." He said.
"Alex your scaring me now let me in." I said.
I heard the door unlock and I walked in while checking on Oscar.

I shut the door behind me and looked around me.
There was blood all over the place.
"Lex you was doing so well." I said quietly and looked at him and he was sat in the conrer crying while making himself as small as he possible could.
"I don't want to be here." He sobbed.
I walked over and sat in front of him.
"Talk to me, I have all day." I said quietly.
He shook his head and looked away from me.
"Babe, talk to me please. I can't loose you." I said.
"You need to find someone better than me." He sobbed.
"No I don't. I love you Alex and I'm not leaving you." I said.
He moved and put his head in his hands and cried really hard.
"I'm no good for you or anyone. I'm better of dead or locked away in a shithole like this for the rest of my life." He said.
"Don't say that. Your not better of dead nor be locked away in a place like this." I said trying not to cry.
"But am I though. I'm fucking useless, I can't even fucking kill myself because people keep on fucking finding me. I don't want to be alive anymore! I want to die and I'll keep on trying to kill myself until it fucking works!" He shouted at me.
I couldn't hold my tears back any more.
"You not useless. You failed because you have a reason to live." I said.
"I have no reason." He whispered.
"Not even me?" I asked.
He looked at me.
"I...I..I can't Jack. I love you with all my heart I really do. But I don't want to be here. I don't belong here, in this world." He said quietly.
"Then why won't you fight this! I can't live without you Alex. I might as well be fucking dead without you. I have no one, only you. I need you Alex." I sobbed and stood up.
"I'm sorry Jack." He whispered and looked back down.
"No! You might of given up on yourself but I'm fucked if I'm giving up on you!" I shouted at him.
"See what I mean! I just make you upset. I can never make you happy!" Alex said loudly at me and looked at me.
"I upset because you can't see how important you are too me! You always make me happy! Always. I have never been upset with or around you." I said loudly.

Alex sighed and looked down.
"Babe please. I need you, Eric and Freddie need you." I said and sat next to him.
"I don't know what to do Jack." He sobbed and moved and cried into my chest.
I held him close to me.
"Get better and come home. You are going to come home. Because home isn't home without you there. It'll never be home when your missing from it." I said and kissed the top of his head.
He sniffed loudly.
"Let me clean you up." I said quietly.
Alex looked at me and moved and sat on my lap and kissed me hard.
"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry." He said and kissed me again.
I pulled back and looked at him and moved a bit of hair out of his face.
"There's that beauitful face I love." I said.
Alex blushed and looked down.
I chuckled as i loved making Alex go all shy seems I was the only person who could make him shy.
"Ive made you go all shy havent I?" I asked.
He shook his head with a shy smile
"Yeah i have." I chuckled and tickled his sides which made him move a little.
Alex sat forward and buried his head in my chest.
"I love you." I said quietly.
"I love you too." He whispered.

We heard someone bang on the door.
"Let us in now!" They said loudly.
Alex moved and hid under the sink.
I sighed and got up and unlocked the door.
I got pushed to the side and they went running over to Alex.
"Get away from me!" He shouted at them.
"Listen to him please." I said and walked over to them and started to pull them of Alex.
"Leave him alone!" I shouted but someone grabbed my arm and pulled me away.
"Go home and we'll let you know how Alex is." A nurse said.
"No, I'm not leaving him." I said seriously and looked at Alex.
"Leave me alone please leave me alone." He shouted loudly.
"Listen to him for God sake." I said and looked at the nurse who was stood by me.
The nurses gave up trying to get Alex and looked at me.
I moved and walked over to Alex and pulled him into my chest.
"I won't let them hurt you okay. I promise." I whispered into his hair and kissed the top of his head and held him tightly.
"They was going to hurt me." He sobbed into my chest.
"I'm not going to let them hurt you okay. But you need your arm sorting out." I said and looked at him.
He shook his head.
"Would having a sedative help?" I asked.
I knew Alex could make his mind up as he wasn't that bad in the head even though it looked like he was.
He nodded.
I looked at a nurse.
"You have his consent to give him that." I said and nodded towards the needle in a nurse hand.
They walked over and gave it to him.
"Please stay." Alex said quietly to me.
"I'm not going to leave you okay." I said and kissed his hair.

Alex was on suicide watch for a week which he was going to be please about when he wakes up.
He was asleep on my chest when a nurse came in.
"Is he okay?" He asked.
"Yeah, just tired." I said quietly and moved a bit of hair out of his eyes.
"I thought you would like something to eat." He smiled.
"Thanks but fatty here is more important." I said and looked at Alex.
"He's lucky to have you. Most people would of ran a mile when they see their loved ones have a moment." He said.
"I wouldn't have him any other way. It's what makes Alex Alex and I wouldn't change it for anything." I said quietly.
The nurse smiled.
"I'll be back to check on you two soon no funny business when I want back in." He chuckled.
"He's knocked out for the night so no fun for us." I said.
The nurse smiled.
"Get some sleep." He said quietly and walked out the room.
I smiled and pushed Alex of me a little and cuddled into his chest the best I could and linked my little finger with Alex's little finger.

Notes

I had the worse day ever.
I've managed to get into my bosses bad books.
I feeling so low and shitty which is why this chapter is so fucking bad and shit.