Many Of Horror

Alex's POV

The car ride home was quiet.
"Here text Fred and tell him we're bunking and that I'll pick him up later." Eric said so I texted Fred telling him we was bunking the rest of the day.
"You okay now?" Eric asked.
"No, I feel like shit." I said quietly.
"Shit as in, shit shit?" He asked but I knew what he was on about.
I nodded.
"This whole place, school, home its too much. It doesn't feel like home." I said and looked out the window.
"You're not going too do what I think you are?" He asked.
"I dunno what I'm thinking right now." I said quietly.

Eric left it at that and we got home and mum was home since she pretty became some sort of house wife or something.
We walked in the door and mum came out from the kitchen.
"Where's Fred?" She asked.
"The only one who can survive the shithole." Eric said.
"Why you both home?" She asked and looked at us.
"Hate the classes." Eric said.
I didn't say anything.
"Alex, why are you home?" She asked.
"I don't like it here, and I had a panic attack." I said quietly.
She sighed.
"I'll have a word with the school and see if you can do half days." She said.
I smiled as this was the only way I was actually going to go to school.
She looked at me a bit more.
"What's the matter Alex?" She asked.
"Nothing." I said quietly and walked into the sitting room and sat on the sofa and just zoned out.

I felt the sofa dip beside me and a arm pulling me into someone's side.
By the smell of things it was mum.
"What's up?" She asked quietly.
I shook my head and rested it on her shoulder.
I was really close to mum, Eric and Fred were closer to dad but they still was close to mum.
"Alex I'm not blind or stupid, something is wrong with you. You getting bad again?" She asked.
"I dunno, I don't want to be at school and I do feel like shit." I said and sat crossed legged on the sofa and faced her but looked down.
"Is it because we've moved?" She asked.
This is the first time we've talked about moving here.
"Yeah." I said quietly and picked at the sofa.
"Don't you like it here?" She asked sadly.
"No, I want to go back to England, where my friends are, where I felt somewhat normal and don't feel like some sort of freak as I walk round the place." I said being completely honest with her.
"Sweetie." She said quietly and pulled me too her side.
"I hate it here mum." I whispered.
"I understand Lex, but we had too move things where out of control, Eric need a fresh start we all did, especially you Lex. I know your slowly getting better and the move hasn't helped you, but this is a chance to change things to try and get better and make new friends and maybe even find someone Alex." She said.
"I'm 14 mum I'm not gonna be finding someone who wants to be with me for the rest of our lives. Maybe you need that chat with Eric or Fred." I said.
"I met your father at your age now look at us." She smiled.
"A house full of men, you poor sod." I chuckled.
"You was meant to be the girl, but sadly your not but I wouldn't have you any other way." She said and kissed the top of my head.

"He's the girl what you on about?" Eric said and sat next to me.
"No I'm not." I said and looked at him but didn't move from mum.
"Really? Then how come you have more beauty products than mum in fact all of us put together." He said.
"Can never have too much of that stuff." I said.
"Yeah you can princess." He said.
"Can always show you my dick to prove to you that I'm no princess." I said and moved from mum.
"God please don't, bad enough when you three was younger and compared your dicks." Mum said.
We chuckked.

Freddie came back half way through the day.
"Christ all 3 of you home before the end of school what the hell is wrong with you three!?" Mum asked.
"I had a panic attack and couldn't calm down." I said sheepishly.
"Eric and Alex abandoned me." Fred said and drank some milk from the carton.
"Freddie! Don't drink out the bloody carton!" Mum said loudly at him and glared at him.
"Mums on the wall path." Eric said quietly.
"And you! Your meant to be setting a bloody example to these two! Not bunking you bloody lessons and that goes to all three of you! You might not like it here but it was the best me and your father could do." She shouted.
We all looked down.
"And I take it its all my fault." Eric said.
Me and Freddie sighed
"Not this argument again." I said and walked off.
"Alexander where are you going." Mum said.
"Somewhere where I don't have to fucking listen to you argue about the same fucking thing." I snapped and walked out the front door and slammed it behind me and went to find somewhere.

I was sat on a swing listening to music when a group of boys walked in the park and sat on the floor.
I just ignored them and carried on listening to my music.
One came over and sat on the other swing.
I looked at him and pulled a earphone out.
"Can I help you?" I asked.
"Well my friends have gone and you looked a little lonely and lost so I thought I'd come over and say hello." He said.
I stayed quiet.
"Your Alex? The one who was sat in the loo this morning." He said.
"That's me, the one who can't cope being at school." I said and looked down.
"It ain't that scary there." He said.
"Says the one who been here all his life and actually fits in." I said.
"Fair point but still, try and make some friends and not be a grumpy guts all the time." He said.
"Don't need friends." I said quietly.
"Can't be a loner all your life." He said.
"Going to be moving back to England as soon as I'm old enough, I have friends there." I said.
"You can't always relie on people you know." He said quietly.
"I don't need a fucking lecture from you or from fucking anyone so fuck off and leave me alone!" I said and looked at him hard.

"Alex!" Eric shouted and walked over too me.
"Where the fuck have you been?" He asked.
"Where the fuck do you think?" I asked and looked at him.
"I'll be seeing you at school then Alex." The boy said and walked off.
"You been doing something you shouldn't be doing?" He asked.
"You fucking tell me! Hm do I have blood running down my arms? Do my eyes look big too you? Because you should know after all your the fucking druggie in this fucking family!" I said.
Eric slapped me round the face.
He regretted it as soon as he did that.
"Alex I'm sorry." He said.
I walked passed him and went home.

"All I'm saying is that he isn't coping Peter, he isn't like Eric or Fred he has problems. That school isn't helping so he's doing them half days. He showed up barley an hour after being at school, if that's not a kid in distress about something then I don't know what." Mum said.
"He doesn't talk to anyone anymore. He's just shut us out and shuts down when you try and talk to him." Dad said.
I stood by the kitchen door and listened to what they had to say about me.
"And if Eric going off like he did didn't help, Alex blames himself for what happened you know." She said.
"I know he does." Dad said quietly.
"I know the boys are looking out for each other. But there's only so much they can do for each other." Mum said.
"Ear dropping how rude Alex." Eric said and it made jump.
"Fine one to talk." I said and walked off to my room.

I was sat playing the guitar when Eric walked in.
"Could off been naked you know." I said with my back to him.
"I know but its something which I havent seen before." He said and sat on the bed.
"I'm sorry I slapped you earlier, I shouldn't of done it." He said quietly.
"It's fine, I desvered it." I said and turned round and faced him.
I was looking round my room too see what I can do too make it feel like its my room.
"How about this weekend I take you somewhere and you can choose some paint and help you paint your room so it can at least feel like its your room." He said.
I smiled and rested my head in his shoulder.
"Good idea?" He asked and rested his head on top of mine.
"Yeah." I said quietly.
"Pass me your guitar then." He said and I passed it too him and he quietly started to play it quietly.
I was slowly falling asleep.
"Go to sleep if your tired." He said quietly
"Stay and play it quietly." I muttered.
"As you wish princess." He smiled and carried on playing quietly.

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