Sex and White Lies

"What?! Lisa, you seriously can't be pregnant! I could never sleep properly the last time we had an abortion! I just... I can't do it again, please." I pleaded. And it's true. I could never sleep, eat, or even focus in the band because of that. My conscience is killing me from the inside out.

How could I tell the fans about how suicide is never a good thing when I, myself, killed an unborn, innocent child? I've created a monster in me. And I could never kill it.

"I'm sorry Alex, and I know full well what you're implying. You can't leave me, y'know. I could easily tell your cute little fans that we had an abortion. I still have that doctor's number. Don't dare me, Gaskarth." She spat. That bitch. I fairly know what she's capable of, she has her own sources. Always gets what she wants. That's how she did it with me.

And that was her draw, the blackmailing card was drawn, I could never back out to her own game. What would the fans say? What would my band mates say?

And Jack, what would Jack think about this?

I'm completely sure that he'd be so disappointed in me. Not just because I lied, we were both lying behind everyone's backs. But because I lied to him that I would never sleep with Lisa.

The room felt silent as the front door opened, and closed again. I know full well who that person is. And I'm so scared to look and see what expression his face was wearing.

"Oh look, it's Jack.. Hey, Jacky boy.." Lisa trailed off; I know what she's on to about. She knows that me and Jack had something behind closed doors, something more intimate than just brotherly love. Something beyond just being friends.

Lisa's putting up with me because I give her everything she needs in order to feed herself off of shoes and clothes and fancy jewelries. Money. Just to keep her mouth shut.

It wasn't always like this at first, back when Jack and I were just buddies, back when I had true feelings with Lisa. Back when we were teenagers. Everything changed when a round of truth or dare was played though.

Intoxicated by our own alcohol and thoughts. Truth hiding behind our bare skins. And one dare of a kiss showed the truth that we've all been denying from the beginning.

That kiss changed it all. It started with shy pecks in the cheeks that went lower to our lips. Pecks started growing to open-mouthed ones. Next thing we knew, there were tongues. And we never even thought that having full on sex was going to happen. But it did and none of us regretted it.

So it became a constant habit of us. The sneaking out to back doors to climbing to the other's bunk. And it also became a constant reminder that we have been lying to everyone from the start.

It was 6 years ago when Lisa found us making out on the couch in this very house.

We were all good, the truth was revealed that she never did love me, those 3 years of relationship was wasted because she's as greedy as she could be.

Not one soul found out about our rotting secrets. It was buried deep six feet under, but the stench was unbearable for everyone not to notice.

So Jack and I took the chance, the stench rising to the surface did not just made All Time Low more famous, we could basically be public without everyone noticing.

As time passed, Lisa became more greedier for money than before, everyday, she would ask me multiple times for some hundred bucks. That, I would comply, of course.

Why do I comply, you ask? Let's hear her choice of words, can we?

"If you can't fucking give me money, Gaskarth, I swear, I'll tell everyone about you and Jack."

A couple of hundred bucks wouldn't hurt me if we can be safe. I'm only doing this for me and Jack.

But the longer I give Lisa money, the more she became obsessed with it.

One cliché, rainy night. She came knocking on my door. That was the night that Jack came home to his parents for a holiday.

She asked for money, I haven't even been to the bank and all I got that night was a wrinkly twenty. She got pissed, which never happened before.

She pushed open the door. And that's when it hit me. Lisa was on drugs.

Her eyes were bloodshot. I could just make out a little of dried blood coming out of her nose, her lips were chapped. She also reeks of alcohol.

The sight of Lisa was awful. I've never seen a woman so wrecked before.

As mentioned she was drug induced, to be more specific, she took heroine and ecstasy together.

One mistake bounced into another. Since I can't give her money. I might as well give her what I can. So I did. Jack never did find out about it.

A few weeks later and I haven't talked to Lisa, no news that she died. She was just seen passing a corner of a drugstore. But she hasn't visited me.

A month later, she came on my doorstep, asking if Jack's home. Luckily, he wasn't.

She was carrying a news, I could almost just smell it from the moment she showed up.

The next thing she said, I could've sworn that I died.

"Alex, I'm sorry... I-i... I'm pregnant."

She cried. I don't know why but she did. I never comforted her. I just persuaded her to get an abortion. To say that I was walking on the wrong path was an understatement.

When we did, I didn't feel accomplished or satisfied, knowing that there's no more baby in Lisa's womb. A pang of guilt crept its way up to my stomach. I puked.

Years later, I was still with Jack. I was still fake dating Lisa. I still give her money.

One night though, I never thought one night could change things drastically.

Me and Jack had a major fight, he left to sleep to her mom's.

I called Lisa, I didn't wanna be alone. Not ever.

She came, comforted me. Gave me hot chocolate, ate ice cream with me and watched stupid movies. Cuddling turned into Spooning as spooning turned to kissing. And I know you can make out the rest of what happened.

And that brings us to now....

"Lisa, please, just calm down. We'll figure something out." I said softly, not wanting Jack to hear it. But apparently he did.

"Figure what out?" His eyebrows are furrowed and voice laced with confusion.

"Uhmm... Money... stuff. You know me, Jack.. I like to buy.. Alex doesn't have any cash with him.. So.." Lisa catches up and eyes me, signaling for me to just ride with it. I nodded unsuspiciously

"Oh.. okay. Well.. I have cash here, Lis. I-uhmm.. How much do you need?" Jack said, plainly. Looking concerned at Lisa and then to me. Giving me an apologetic smile that i just nodded in to.

"Oh! No.. it's.. it's fine Jack. You don't have to. I'm leaving anyway. Uhm.." She turns to me and mouthed the words 'Text me' and left saying goodbye to Jack on her way.

Jack's eyes were wide and mouth gaped. Turning to face me. I just hope he doesn't ask questions.

"What.. was that? Is she really being nice to me?" He said unbelievably. Lisa being nice to Jack was unusual. It rarely happens. So when it does, it shocks us all.

"I don't even know, sweetheart. Uhm.. I-what's for dinner?" Changing the topic, hoping he'd just drop it as I gaze to the floor, scratching my neck waiting for his answer.

"I ordered Chinese, babe. Did you want something else?"

I breathed a sigh of relief, walking towards Jack and engulfing him in a tight, comforting hug.

"Nope. You're all I want and need, love." I whispered on his hair. Letting my eyes close as the new information processed in my mind.

Lisa's pregnant. Again. What do I do?

Notes

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