Jack

I dropped to my knees and cried. Did I hear everything right just now? There was a chance our baby wouldn’t survive? No, it can’t be true. It can not be true. I thought we did everything right. Yes, Alex was under a lot of stress, but I tried to best to coax him out of all that stress. I guess I didn’t do my best. What effect would this have on our relationship? I know damn sure I was the cause of most of the stress, what if losing the baby was all my fault? It Alex and I didn’t have sex in the stupid fucking shower after that stupid fucking game, none of this shirt would have happened.

We could be out on the field at practice right now, but no. I had to take our dream away from the both of us. What if Alex only came back to me for the baby? What if when he wakes up and finds out what was just told to us, he calls everything off? Oh god. I couldn’t handle losing both of them. I can’t even handle losing one of them. They are my whole life, the only reason I am still here.

“Excuse me?” I looked up to see a woman with a white coat. “Are you in any relation the the boy in this room?” She pointed to Alex’s room number.

“I’m his boyfriend. Also the Father of the child.” I choked out as I let out another sob.

“Oh. I am so sorry for everything that’s going on right now. But, would it make you feel any better to see her?” I stood up quicker than I have in my whole life.

“I can see her?” I asked quietly as I wiped my tears with my sleeve. She nodded her head with a small smile on her face.

“Only the parents of the child are allowed back to see the kids. As for Alex, he will have to wait till he is awake of course. But, you are more than welcome to follow me and I’ll take you to her.” It was my turn to nod my head. She smiled softly at me and turned around, starting down the hall with me right behind her.

We walked through the halls till we finally reached a door that she opened. Inside there was two other people, who I’m guessing to be other Doctor’s, around a tiny bed like thing.

“Doctor’s this is Jack, he is the Father of the baby.” The woman Doctor told to them. They nodded their heads and greeted me before walking out. I softly walked over to the little bed thing, and inside was a really tiny baby. When they said she was small, I didn’t think she would be this small. I don’t care how small she is, she’s perfect, and I love her. I smiled down at the little girl in front of me. I looked up to the Doctor and spoke.

“Can I hold her?” I asked. She nodded her head.

“Just be careful of all the wiring. It’s helping her get oxygen.” I said a small ‘okay’ before turning back to my baby girl and gently picking her up, one hand behind her head, and one on her diapered butt. Bringing her up into my arms and cradling her. “I’ll give you a couple minutes alone.”

“Thank you.” I said and gave her a smile before she walked out and shut the door behind her. I felt tears well up in my eyes as I looked down at the small human in my arms. “Hey Melody.” I whispered to her. “I wanted to let you know that Daddy and I love you very much. You’re very beautiful, I knew you would be. I need you to pull through for us, please. You can do it, we believe in you, sweetheart.” I wiped a stray tear from my eye. “And when you get all better, we will be able to bring you home, and your room will be all set up by then, I promise. I thought I was going to have a little more time to work on it, but I guess I need to do it now, huh?” I chuckled a bit. I moved her so that she was in one of my arms, and the other one I had in front of her. She latched onto my finger, holding with a gentle grip. She was perfect. “That’s Daddy’s finger you have there.” I smiled at her. I looked up to her face and saw her eyes open a tiny bit, just enough to where I could see them. I knew it, she has Alex’s eyes. “You have Daddy’s eyes, baby girl. Now there is two pairs of eyes that are the most beautiful in the world.”

I was interrupted by the door opening again. I looked over to it and saw the female Doctor again.

“I hate to interrupt. But I’m afraid that I have to bring you back to Alex’s room now.” She spoke. I reluctantly nodded my head. I didn’t want to leave my daughter, but I had to, in order for her to get better I had to let the Doctor’s make sure she is healthy. I softly put her back in the bed and bent down to place a small kiss on her head.

“Daddy and I love you. We will see you really soon.” And with those words I had to follow the Doctor back out of the room and leave my baby girl in that room all alone. I just got to see her, and they were already making me leave her.

We walked back to Alex’s room and I went straight in, now having a small smile on my face. I walked over to the opposite side of the bed Isobel was on, and held onto the sleeping boys hand as I sat down.

“The Doctor came and said she took you to see Melody? How does she look?” Isobel asked me quietly.

“She’s really small. Really, really small. But, I don’t care, she’s beautiful. Oh, and she has her Father’s eyes.” I looked over to Alex and smiled again.

“You mean, she has yours or Alex’s?” She questioned.

“Alex’s.” I chuckled a bit. Everything was going to be okay, I know it, I can feel it.

Notes

Chapter grind continues!

~Jagk.