His arms were around my mother. His dick was... was inside my mother. He was kissing my mother. He was taking over my mother. And, my mother was enjoying it. She was moaning out his name. She was breathing out to his actions.

That wasn't my papa she was enjoying. She was enjoying one of my closest friends. Well, now, one of my closest enemies.

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I had been at this shore too many times this week. Only one good visit came out of this week while all the rest were negative. Now, I was sitting there because I was trying to escape the sickness of seeing my best friend fucking my mother. My feet were buried in the muddy sand that was under the surface of the salt water. The sun was still proceeding to rise to its fullest, and the wind was not as chilly as it was when Jack dropped me off, but I was still a bit cold. Thankfully, before I left Jack's, I stole his over sized Green Day hoodie. God, was it warm and cozy.

I had to admit: lately, this pregnancy had been beyond stressful. Don't get me wrong, I know pregnancies are supposed to be a tad stressful, but this... this was unbelievably stressful. I had lost Jack a million times, I was alone for most of the pregnancy so far, and now, the one person I needed to help me, along with Jack, betrayed me. Yeah, me. I get that she also betrayed my dad, but what she did is going to ruin my family months before their grandchild is born. I am not sounding selfish, am I?

The waves of the lake were music to my ears. It was calming me down, so I wouldn't cry. I didn't want to cry anymore; I had cried enough these passed few days. My hand rubbed my stomach softly. I smiled down at it lightly, and I whispered, "You know, you're the only one keeping me alive right now." I wasn't lying; if I wasn't pregnant, I honestly would have done what Jack had tried to do, but I would strive for it to succeed. However, I couldn't do that. I had Melody to worry about, now. Why am I not mentioning Jack? Because, to be completely honest, I don't think he would be enough to keep me from doing such a thing. I love him more than anything on the planet, but he wouldn't be able to keep me from going off my breaking point.

"Melody," I whispered, "do you want me to sing for you?" I never sang in front of anyone. Never. Jack had never heard me sing because I always thought I was the worst singer in the world. But, Melody couldn't judge; she was a fetus for fuck's sake. I felt a kick against my palm which I took as a response. "Fine, fine. But, if I make those little baby ears bleed, don't come crying to me." I laughed. I scanned my mental playlist until I thought of the perfect song to sing. It was one I wrote myself when I was a freshman.

Say goodbye to the halls and the classes
Say hello to a job and the taxes
The weekends with old friends spilling into 9 to 5 routine
Tell me how you feel over and done with
Like your life is a map with no compass to guide,
At the bar drinkin’ way too much
We sing along to "Forever Young".
So here we go again
Wishin’ we could start again

Damn, I had a pretty vivid mind when I was 14, huh? I continued singing to the baby with my hand cupped tightly onto my swollen stomach.

Wendy run away with me
I know I sound crazy
Don’t you see what you do to me?
I wanna be your lost boy
Your last chance, a better reality
Wendy we can get away
I promise if you’re with me, say the word and we’ll find a way
I can be your lost boy, your last chance
Your "everything better" plan
Oh, somewhere in Neverland

I finished the song minutes later. I felt kinda relaxed once I finished the tune. I sighed, looking down at my gut. "You're the only one who heard that, okay?" I imagined her nodding and giving me a thumbs up. I laughed at the thought. "Good, because if anyone else heard that, I think I would crawl under a rock and die." With that, I sat there for the remainder of my afternoon just talking to Melody. That was until a storm decided to roll by.

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I ended up walking to Jack's house in the pouring down rain. That was a terrible mistake. Halfway through the walk, I could feel myself growing an awful cold. I was sneezing, sniffling, and coughing like crazy. Once I got to Jack's, he was scared to death of what condition I was. He yanked me inside, got me a warm shower, got me into some warm pajamas, and put me in bed with him. He knelt down to face me at the edge of the bed. I was trembling from still being ice cold. I could see the panic in Jack's eyes. "What the hell were you thinking, Lex? Why would you walk all the way home, in the rain, from the lake?!"

"I-I-I," I shivered, "I didn't have a ride. M-M-Mama was at home, papa was a-at work, and you were at your shift. I-I figured by the time I walked here, you'd be home." Jack frowned.

"She couldn't take you there? Your mama?"

"No, because she was too busy fucking with her lover." I wasn't going to tell him who I was referring to. If I did, Brendon would be murdered, and Jack would be on the life sentence.

"You mean," Jack was taken aback, "your mother cheated on your father?" All I could was nod; my teeth were chattering too hard. Jack pulled me into his arms, and he rubbed my back soothingly. I, of course, began to weep a little. "Sh," he cooed, "it's going to be alright. You can stay here for as long as you like, and you know that, Alex. Okay? You're here until you're comfortable leaving." Really, how did I get so lucky? I nodded against his hold, heaving out,

"I love you, Jack."

"I love you, too, Lex. Just, don't do that again, okay?" He pulled me away from the hug to stare into my eyes. "I don't ever want to lose you because you get hurt walking alone or get deathly sick. Please, promise you don't go anywhere without a ride for now on."

"I promise, Jacky. I promise."

Notes

well here's a (long) filler chapter since bree and I were pretty busy 2day

hope you enjoy <3

xoxo krys