A Love Like War
I Need You.
Jack
I was shocked to hear what Rian said when he fled down the stairs. How could Alex just up and leave like that? I may not be in the right mind right now, but I wasn’t going to stop till I found him. There is no way in hell he can be dealing with any of this shit by himself, he was pregnant for fucks sake!
There was only one place I could think of where Alex would run off to. It was about a two hour drive, but he was worth it. I have only been to the place one time. Alex took me on a date there, because he wanted to show me where he goes when things at home get to bad, or the stress of school is too overwhelming for him.
I got in my car and sped off. I know Rian and Zack were going to be pissed at me for going alone, but this is just something I had to do. Like always, I never let him explain his side of the story, the real thing that happened with Brendon. All I know is, when I get him back. There is no way in hell will I let Brendon around him. Alex most likely won’t even take me back, but I was still going to do my damn hardest to watch over him and our child. It he even wants to keep her.
Speaking of our child. I know it might be weird, since I wasn’t going to be allowed around her, but I was still thinking of baby names. I really liked the name Autumn, it just always seemed like a pretty name. But there are many pretty names out there, maybe if Alex does keep the baby, he will at least let me help name her. He can name her whatever he wants, but I want Autumn to be somewhere in her name, but I guess I shouldn’t get my hopes to high.
By the time I finished my thoughts, I was finally at the lake. I remembered sitting out here on the shore with Alex on our date. We were looking up at the stars, just enjoying each others company, with him cuddled into my side. It was one of the most perfect dates we have ever had.
I walked for a for about five minutes, till I heard soft sobs. I looked around a bit, till I saw a dark figure on the shore line. I walked a bit closer, being quiet incase it wasn’t who I was looking for. But I was right. Right in front of me, sat a crying Alex on the shore line. I continued closer, him not noticing me as I sat down right next to him.
“Beautiful night out, right?” I asked quietly as I looked over to him. His head shot up and all I saw in his eyes were hurt and pain. I was the main cause of both of them, and it broke my heart.
“W-what are you doing here?” He asked as he rubbed his eyes with the palms of his hands. It wasn’t until then that I noticed he didn’t have on a sweater or jacket. I slid off my leather jacket and placed it on his shoulders. “N-no. P-please don’t be n-nice to me.”
“And why wouldn’t I be nice to you?” I questioned, keeping my soft tone, thinking that if I speak any louder, he might break down even more.
“E-everything was my f-fault. Y-your depression, B-brendon, e-everything.” He sobbed out. I put my arms around him and brought him into my lap, he didn’t protest, just latched onto my shirt like it was a life vest. “W-why are you d-doing this?”
“First off, nothing is your fault. It was mine. I didn’t let you talk to me about the Brendon thing, I know the truth now, he came to my house and told me. Also, you were not the cause of my depression. Truth is, I have been in a depression for the past three years, I was just really good at hiding it, well, used to be. Lastly, I’m doing this because I still love you Alex. I always have, and I always will. I told you I would always be there to protect you. Well, this is my trying to keep that promise. I want to protect you and our child.” I placed a hand on his stomach, and I felt movement. I smiled a bit and Alex chuckled.
“She knows you’re here.”
“I’ll always be around. Well, I’ll try to be, if you keep her, and want me around her.” I looked away. I felt Alex place two fingers under my chin and move my head so we were staring into each others eyes.
“Jack, I have made up my mind already. I’m keeping her. And if you want to be a Father to her, than who am I to stop you?”
“The person who is going to be giving a painful birth to her.” I said with a light chuckle as I tried to lighten the mood.
“Always one to crack jokes. Even at moments like these.” He giggled a bit. And what a beautiful giggle it was. “Jack, her and I both want you around. We love you. I love you, and I always will.” His voice was quiet, but that was all I needed to say before pressing my lips to his.
I was shocked to hear what Rian said when he fled down the stairs. How could Alex just up and leave like that? I may not be in the right mind right now, but I wasn’t going to stop till I found him. There is no way in hell he can be dealing with any of this shit by himself, he was pregnant for fucks sake!
There was only one place I could think of where Alex would run off to. It was about a two hour drive, but he was worth it. I have only been to the place one time. Alex took me on a date there, because he wanted to show me where he goes when things at home get to bad, or the stress of school is too overwhelming for him.
I got in my car and sped off. I know Rian and Zack were going to be pissed at me for going alone, but this is just something I had to do. Like always, I never let him explain his side of the story, the real thing that happened with Brendon. All I know is, when I get him back. There is no way in hell will I let Brendon around him. Alex most likely won’t even take me back, but I was still going to do my damn hardest to watch over him and our child. It he even wants to keep her.
Speaking of our child. I know it might be weird, since I wasn’t going to be allowed around her, but I was still thinking of baby names. I really liked the name Autumn, it just always seemed like a pretty name. But there are many pretty names out there, maybe if Alex does keep the baby, he will at least let me help name her. He can name her whatever he wants, but I want Autumn to be somewhere in her name, but I guess I shouldn’t get my hopes to high.
By the time I finished my thoughts, I was finally at the lake. I remembered sitting out here on the shore with Alex on our date. We were looking up at the stars, just enjoying each others company, with him cuddled into my side. It was one of the most perfect dates we have ever had.
I walked for a for about five minutes, till I heard soft sobs. I looked around a bit, till I saw a dark figure on the shore line. I walked a bit closer, being quiet incase it wasn’t who I was looking for. But I was right. Right in front of me, sat a crying Alex on the shore line. I continued closer, him not noticing me as I sat down right next to him.
“Beautiful night out, right?” I asked quietly as I looked over to him. His head shot up and all I saw in his eyes were hurt and pain. I was the main cause of both of them, and it broke my heart.
“W-what are you doing here?” He asked as he rubbed his eyes with the palms of his hands. It wasn’t until then that I noticed he didn’t have on a sweater or jacket. I slid off my leather jacket and placed it on his shoulders. “N-no. P-please don’t be n-nice to me.”
“And why wouldn’t I be nice to you?” I questioned, keeping my soft tone, thinking that if I speak any louder, he might break down even more.
“E-everything was my f-fault. Y-your depression, B-brendon, e-everything.” He sobbed out. I put my arms around him and brought him into my lap, he didn’t protest, just latched onto my shirt like it was a life vest. “W-why are you d-doing this?”
“First off, nothing is your fault. It was mine. I didn’t let you talk to me about the Brendon thing, I know the truth now, he came to my house and told me. Also, you were not the cause of my depression. Truth is, I have been in a depression for the past three years, I was just really good at hiding it, well, used to be. Lastly, I’m doing this because I still love you Alex. I always have, and I always will. I told you I would always be there to protect you. Well, this is my trying to keep that promise. I want to protect you and our child.” I placed a hand on his stomach, and I felt movement. I smiled a bit and Alex chuckled.
“She knows you’re here.”
“I’ll always be around. Well, I’ll try to be, if you keep her, and want me around her.” I looked away. I felt Alex place two fingers under my chin and move my head so we were staring into each others eyes.
“Jack, I have made up my mind already. I’m keeping her. And if you want to be a Father to her, than who am I to stop you?”
“The person who is going to be giving a painful birth to her.” I said with a light chuckle as I tried to lighten the mood.
“Always one to crack jokes. Even at moments like these.” He giggled a bit. And what a beautiful giggle it was. “Jack, her and I both want you around. We love you. I love you, and I always will.” His voice was quiet, but that was all I needed to say before pressing my lips to his.
Notes
Have some fluff. Everything is right in the world!
Well, for the most part.
~Jagk.
Wow that story was amazing. It was so shocking.
5/19/16