Jack

“That’s it, I’m done with your bullshit. Both of you. Get out of here, get away from my property. If you ever return it becomes a legal issue. We’re getting a restraining order. Stay away from Alex, stay away from my kids, stay away from me. Get the fuck out of our lives,” I shouted, making Alex jump.

“Shouldn’t you watch your language near your kids,” Andy asked, motioning into my house.

“You’re not going to tell me how to fucking parent.”

“Cause clearly you’re doing such a great job on your own. You know, your lips still hitting the bottle. The joints burning your fingers. Yeah, it’s clear that you don’t need any help raising your kids.”

“Who the fuck do you think you are telling my fiancée that he can’t parent? He has done more for this family then anyone wants to notice. More than I have noticed. Without him we are incomplete. He is the love of my life and the person I’m going to spend the rest of my life with. He has always been there for me and I’m now realizing that. Back when I found out about you and Juliet he was the person who took me in that night. He was the one who left tour early to win my heart back. He has proved to me that I deserve to be loved and I wouldn’t trade him for anything in the world. So get out because I will never choose you again Andrew, even if you were the last person left. Jack will always be my first choice. Leave you aren’t welcome here,” I heard Alex speak up.

“So you’re going to take him over me? Look at him and look at me! He has problems and you’d rather have him,” Andy yelled.

“We all have problems. I love Jack for everything he is. Even though he broke his promises I couldn’t see myself loving anyone else quite the same as I love Jack.”

“What about me,” Zack spoke up. “What about me Jay? Your fuck buddy for years. Your best friend. The person who helped you through some of your worst times. Do I just mean nothing to you anymore? Am I no longer good enough for you?”

“Zack,” I began. “Everything we did was a mistake. I’ve made a lot of mistakes. I ruined your relationship time and time again and I will never forgive myself for that but we have no choice but to move on. I will never pick you Zee. Everything we were, all of that, it was a mistake. We were never supposed to be together. Stop trying to ruin my relationship with Alex or my kids. I made my choice and it wasn’t you and now you have to live with that. Alex is my one and only and I love him more than words can describe. I want to protect him and my two perfect angels. That means that both of you can never come back. So please leave. Now.”

“I still love you,” Zee whispered.

“I never loved you.”

I closed the door leaving the two men standing there in the hallway. I was going to get a restraining order because all of this was getting way out of hand and it all needed to be controlled and it just couldn’t at this point any other way. I had to keep all of them safe. This was the only way and it would be added to the list of things that I could never forgive myself for. I looked at Alex who had tears in his eyes. I wrapped my arms around his waist, pulling him close to me. I kissed him gently before looking at him again.

“Did you mean that, was what you said about me true,” he whispered.

“Yes baby. I love you more than words can ever describe and I will scream it from the mountain tops so that everyone knows that you are mine and no one else can ever have you. You are the only person for me and I swear I will prove that to you,” I whispered.

“I love you too.”
I kissed his nose gently before releasing my arms from around his waist. I went to the room where our children were still playing with whatever it is children play with. I sat on the floor and was attacked by Joella and Noah. Lexy seemed completely unfazed by my sudden appearance as she was playing a game, or trying to play a game is probably more accurate. I couldn’t help but laugh as she was getting frustrated at the moving platforms that kept making her fall.

I looked around the room as I heard the front door open and Becca stepped in holding a few bags. I couldn’t help but smile as Alex scrambled over to help his sister. I couldn’t help but smile as Lexy was practically growling at the TV because the situation was frustrating to her. I couldn’t help but smile at Joella who was playing with my hair seeing as it was amusing for her. I couldn’t help but smile at Noah who had given up on me and was playing with the legos, building whatever it was that was going on in his mind. All of them were a part of my family and I loved all of them. While we were small and weird we were the thing that I loved the most. I didn’t care how dysfunctional we could be, I wouldn’t give any of this up for things to be easier.

I had been given so much in my life that I couldn’t help but question why I had done so many unforgivable things. Why did I continue to press the bottle to my lips? Was it because a hangover hurt less than the thought of me disappointing everyone I ever loved? Why did I continue to break promises that I had done nothing but try to uphold? Was it the only way that I could seem to have a hold on my life?

“What are you thinking about babe,” Alex asked as he sat behind me.

“Just how lucky I am to have all of you,” I whispered.

“You know that there is nothing you can do to make me love you less right? You can tell me anything, you know that right?”

“I do, I’m just so afraid that one day you are going to wake up and wonder why you have my ring on your finger. Wonder why you are going to marry me when all I seem to do is screw up and disappoint you. I’m just afraid that one day you’ll wake up and see the truth that you deserve so much better than me and better than I can ever provide. I’m just afraid I’m not good enough for you.”

“You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the love of my life. There is nothing better than you, no one better than you. I knew this was going to be a rocky relationship when we started dating again but you know what? I wouldn’t have it any other way. You are the only person out there for me and I will stop at nothing to prove to you how much I love you and how much you deserve to love yourself. I love you with my entire being and you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Because of you we have two beautiful children who think that you hung the moon and all they want to do is please you. To them you are the be all end all. They love you almost as much as I do which says a lot because you are practically the oxygen in my lungs. What has you thinking this?”

“Matt had mentioned that our job is hard because when we go home we kind of assume that the key still opens the door. We assume that you still love us. We assume that whomever we are with can still put up with us despite all the hurt we seem to put them through.”

“Fuck what Matt said. I love you and I will never stop until my heart stops beating. You are my everything Jack Barakat.”

“You’re my everything Alex Gaskarth.”

Notes

Sorry it's been so long since there's been a chapter. I've been more than a little stressed out which has made me even questioning if I should continue with college. I hope you enjoy this update, it's a kind of cute filler and I tried to make it long considering it's been a while.

Drop a rate and a comment if you enjoy :)

- Jess