Hope for the helpless

Maybe I'll be able to see my brother again, I miss him so much, I thought. "But why would he miss a piece of shit like you." That voice in my head snapped "SHUT UP!" I screamed pulling at my hair and scrunching up my face. I looked down at the train tracks below me. Cars rushing past behind me but not a single one stopped, no one walking by even glanced at the shell of a man standing on the wall. This was it. I was going to do it. People always tell you that things will get better, but I've struggled for long enough to know that it never will. I took another step towards the edge, looking straight forward. That's when I heard him. His low voice saying "I'd take a step back if I were you" with a slight lisp. I kept looking at the horizon and shouted back "why should I?" Knowing what he would say next.
"Look I'm not gonna lecture you about how you have so much to live for, or how everything will get better, but I am going to tell you that taking another step froward will be the stupidest thing you have ever done." I turned around now, that wasn't what I expected. The man was tall, wearing a blink-182 shirt with a leather jacket hanging loosely on his shoulders. He had short raven hair with a blond patch at the front, it stood up in odd places and was messed up in a rugged and kinda hot way. He stood and stared at me for a moment before saying "trust me it easier to get better than to try to end it and fail. It stops all of the 'are you okay's or the 'what's wrong's and all of those really annoying worried glances." I listened to what he was saying, it was true. I considered what he had said for a moment, I suppose he's right. I jumped down off of the wall and looked at him, he had tears in his eyes, I debated wether to ask why but decided it wasn't my place to know. "Good, now introductions. Hello my name is Jack Barakat and I'm really hungry and want a burger," he said surprisingly jokingly for the situation. He looked at me expectantly. "oh yeah, I'm Alex Gaskarth and I would also like a burger." He laughed and gestured to his car that was parked nearby "this ones on me." He said as he opened the passenger side door. I sat in the seat and waited for him to get in the driver seat.
After a rather awkward and silent drive we pulled into the car park of my favourite burger place. "This place, in my eyes, has the best food in The whole of Baltimore," he said opening his door and clumsily climbing out. "I most definitely agree!" I said as I followed him to the door, He smiled and I couldn't help but return it. After ordering our food we found a quiet table in the corner to eat at. We were quiet for a while, too busy eating to engage in convocation. Jack broke the silence by asking "so you must still be in school, right?" I swallowed my mouthful of food and answered "yeah, it's my last year,"
"Cool, what are you studying?"
"English, media and music." I said looking down at my hands.
"Good choices, do you play anything?"
"Yeah guitar and I sing a bit too, what about you?"
"Oh, I play a bit of guitar too. We should get together sometime,"
After their meal we got up and left the building, jack started walking back to his car but I had stopped. The all to familiar feeling of someone squeezing my throat began and panic ripped through me, my heart was beating so fast I thought it would explode. I tried to call out but I couldn't breathe, falling to my knees my body started shaking. Jack turned around and looked at me, as soon as he saw me he raced over. By now I had lost all control of my limbs, I had fallen onto my back and was trembling all over. All I could hear was a high pitched ringing, my eyes slammed shut as I struggled to get enough oxygen into my lungs. "Holy shit, Alex!" I heard a distant voice shouting to me. A pair of strong arms lifted me up off of the cold pavement and put me in the back seat of a car. Someone sat next to me and pulled me close to their body, they rubbed my back in small circles holding me securely in a tight hug. I could hear a quiet humming that felt like it was miles away. The humming soon turned into words moulding perfectly to a melody I'd never heard before. I began to focus on the words.

'You're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you
And I'll keep you a daydream away
Just watch from a safe place
So I never have to lose

We would go out on the weekend
To escape our busy lives
And we'd laugh at all the douche-bag guys
Chasing down their desperate wives
I would drink a little too much
You'd offer me a ride
And I would offer you a t-shirt
And you would stay another night

But you're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you
And I'll keep you a daydream away
Just watch from a safe place
So I never have to lose

We never stood a chance out there
Shooting love in real-time
So we'll take it over ice tonight
With a little salt
And a little lime
You're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you"

The melody was beautiful and the voice singing it was hoarse and deep, singing the lullaby slowly and quietly. I slowly relaxed and fell into a deep and peaceful sleep before the song had ended.

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