I put a spell on you.

My family just sat there and stared at us. My mum cried. My brother was shocked. Then something hit me . In the first month of Charlie and I. We had a massive argument, I then went to a party with Alex. I think we got so drunk and had sex but I'm not entirely sure, We've never spoken about it. It dawned on me it might not be Charlie's.
"Lil can I see you outside for a second?" Charlie asked me I thought it was weird he never calls me Lil always babe or baby. We walked outside. "I can't do this"
"What? I said to you. you didn't have to. You said you could handle it. I knew you couldn't you're just a child"
"I've been sleeping with someone else I didn't think you were serious about me, I thought you and Alex were a thing"
"Get out"
"Lily please"
"GET OUT!" I pushed him tears down my face "GET OUT YOU LYING CHEATING TINY DICK CUNT" I had an evil look in my eyes.
Charlie turned around and left, I walked back into the house my entire family stared back at me. I knew by the look on their face's I had their support. I left the house and went to Alex's. I stayed round his, I knew it was cruel but there was a tiny part of me that knew Alex was meant for me, He was right for me, he could maybe save me but he was here at the wrong time. The next day I had a doctors appointment to check up on the baby and all that. Kayleigh wanted to come with me, we drove there and she cried when she saw the baby for the first time. I teared up as well but not as much as her. I had a funny feeling about the drive back home, the road we normally take was closed due to road works. So we had to take the back way home. I just had a bad feeling Kayls was just singing along and at that moment everything changed completely. And at that moment an asshole driving a stolen merc at 100mp/h crashed into us head on, sending my car spinning.

2 week later
I woke up in a daze. I was in a hospital bed. a tube down my throat, I tried not to struggle. The doctor came and took it out. Kayls was there with Alex, she had her arm in a cast.
"What happened?" I asked real quiet
"A guy in a stolen merc drove into us at 100mp/h, You went flying through the windscreen. You've been in a medical induced coma, because your injuries were so intense" Kayls looked destroyed.
"baby?"
They both shook their heads, my stomach dropped. Throughout the day The doctors came round and did loads of checks on me. I had to stay in the hospital for a few more days just to see if I was alright.
"Wheres Karen?" I asked Kyle who came to see me
"She couldn't do it. She said she couldn't see another one of her babies with tubes down their neck"
"Utter bullshit. I hate her"
"Lets get our own place" Hes being deadly serious
"Lets"
A few more days have passed and I was allowed to go home. When we got back to the house, Karen had set up a surprise party but I was in the mood to find out why my mother was not by my bedside.
"SURPRISE" Everyone screamed
"WHERE THE FUCK WHERE YOU?!?!" I shouted at her
"What?"
"Every single person in this room managed to come see me at one point since I've been awake. But not you. Your Stupid husband even manage to see me. But not my own mother. MY OWN MOTHER WAS NOT BY MY BEDSIDE"
"I couldn't do it. I couldn't see another one of my children in one of those beds"
"Cut the bullshit for once? Ok no you couldn't do it because it reminded you of him. Everything I do reminds you of him. It reminded you of what you did. BECAUSE ITS YOUR FAULT. ITS YOUR FAULT HES NOT HERE. YOUR FAULT"
"Stop it, Lily Mae stop it"
"No "Mum" why? Shouldn't our friends and family really know what happened to him? OR who he even is?"
"Lil stop now" Kayls spoke up
"who is he?" Alex asked me concerned
"YOU KILLED HIM KAREN! You Killed Luca. You Killed him" I shouted at her, Kyle turned around in shock. I hadn't said his name since he died. "YOU WERE THE REASON HE DIED. HE HATED EVERYTHING YOU MADE HIM DO. And whats worse you didn't believe when he told you. You told him to grow up and be a man. HE WAS 17, SEVEN FUCKING TEEN. I call you Karen, because they day you said that to my twin was the day you lost the right to be called mother. Because to me you are not my mother, Kyle and I are moving out by the end of the month. After that I want nothing to do with you or your family just dads family. Because his family were the ones by my side. During this whole situation and with luca."
I walked out the back and sparked up a massive joint.

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