Undercover

“Get behind me Jack,” I told him.

“No, I’m going to stay by your side,” he told me.

“I don’t want you to get hurt.”

“I’m fine with it if I’m by your side.”

Before anything else could be said I saw a gun be raised by my mother. I lunged for her, taking her wrist and twisting it behind her back. I heard my father gasp at how quickly I reacted. Rian stepped back, shocked. I took the gun with my free hand pressing it into the other girl’s side. The look that Jack gave me really seemed to tear into my heart, he was afraid of me.

“You need to leave,” I growled to them.

My mother threw me over her shoulder with her free hand. I absorbed the hit with my shoulder; the giant slit in my upper arm started bleeding again due to the hit I took. I stood up, shaking myself off, I saw Jack attempting to grapple with my father, and it was obvious that my dad was going easy on him. I grabbed the girl’s arm and threw her against a wall. Rian was just watching, not taking a side. I looked at my mother and she looked as if she was waiting for my next move. I saw in the corner of my eye the girl sitting up, her free hand holding onto her arm, she winced as she sat up. She was young, a new recruit, she wasn’t going to try to fight with that injury.

I didn’t want her to turn out like me; I could tell by her eyes that she still had hope for good in the world. She was keeping this up and she would become more robot than human. I didn’t feel pain anymore, my arm should probably be hurting more than I can put to words but instead it was an inconvenience. Something that I would bandage up again when this was all said and done and that’s how I began to view any injury. I wouldn’t go back to the business for anything, I had emotions again and for the first time in my memory and as much as they got in the way through normal life I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

“Get up,” my mother hissed at the girl.

“My arm is broken,” she protested.

“I didn’t ask.”

I looked over and saw Jack pinned to the fridge, a knife to his neck. I knew if I did anything I was going to lose the only person that I had ever loved. The one person that I was actually close to at all. I held my hands up signaling that I was giving up. If he was going to die then I was to because I didn’t know how to do anything without him anymore. If I was destined to die right now than that was it, there was no stopping destiny and it was that simple.

“Let him go, take me. What he knows isn’t anything big. Let him live, take my life instead. He has nothing that can destroy you, I swear that, I kept my mouth shut about all things related to this,” I said.

“Alex, let me decide my own fate,” Jack begged.

“Jack, fate isn’t something for you to decide on your own. It’s predetermined. Kill me but leave him out of this. Wipe me from his memory so when he thinks of the little I told him he’ll assume it was some bad dream, you know how to, please, he’s innocent, I dragged him into this because I couldn’t do it on my own.”

“And why would we break policy for you,” my father snarled.

“Because, it’s my last wish, the closest thing to a dying request as I’m going to have,” I responded. “Take me back there and if I know he won’t be hurt I will be a model prisoner until it’s time for my execution.”

“Fine.”

I felt what felt like handcuffs go around my wrists to restrain me. I wasn’t going to fight; Jack was going to be safe so there was no need for me to fight at all. I looked at Rian who hadn’t moved since we were seen. I had no respect for him, he was man enough to turn us in but not man enough to fight us or try to make any of this right to either side. Still he followed all of us from his house, him not able to look at me.

“I want Rian to be the one to kill me since he wasn’t man enough to fight for either of us. He’s a coward and I want to look him in the eye as I die,” I snarled out, “that way he is held responsible for his actions. He turned us in so now he has to deal with what he did.”

Jack and I were thrown into the back of a windowless van. There were no seats where we were and we were completely isolated from the front however I’m nearly positive they could hear everything that we said. I couldn’t look Jack in the eye, I knew that I was betraying him, maybe if I didn’t love him I wouldn’t have given up that easily but I was so afraid of him getting hurt. I knew that he was pissed at me and he had every right to be, I pretty much lied to him.

“Alex, I was fine, why did you do this? You just signed your own fucking death certificate, I hope you’re happy with what you just did,” Jack practically yelled.

“Because I’m so in love with you that the thought of you getting hurt at all was too much for me. I had to keep you safe and that’s exactly what I did, you don’t agree with it of course because why would you! You don’t understand this place like I do. You’ll continue to live without me, don’t say that you’re going to be heartbroken because it’ll be like I never existed. It won’t hurt, you’ll be asleep and when you wake up you’ll be very confused but they’ll tell a lie to comfort you and bring you back home with some lie to cover where you’ve been,” I told him.

“I told you to let me decide my own fate!”

“You’re fate is predetermined, there’s nothing you can do to change it. It’s that simple. Stop acting like you can change you’re fate because you can’t. It’s that simple.”

“If you loved me-“

I cut him off, pressing my lips to his as heavily as I could. I tried to move my hands to cup his beautiful face. It broke my heart to realize that he was going to forget me. He was going to forget the first time I told him I loved him, the many lazy kisses we shared, the few nights where we got a little frisky because that’s bound to happen between two nineteen year olds. It hurt to think that he wasn’t only going to forget me but he would never remember how much I loved him. A small tear ran down my cheek as I pulled away from him.

“Please don’t forget how much I love you,” I whispered so soft it was barely audible.

Notes

I'm sorry I have posted on this story in a while, to say writer's block is a bitch doesn't even cover it. Originally I was going to have this chapter be a huge action packed on but I decided to take it on a different route that I really hope y'all like. I also really hope that this was worth the wait on it.

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- Jess