Undercover

In the end it didn't matter what we told each other. It didn't matter if we loved each other or absolutely loathed each other because we were still running. We were the only person that the other could trust endlessly because we were all the other had. We were going to have to find a new safe house soon because Rian was only so trustworthy. I wasn't stupid enough to trust someone for too long. I knew that Rian was going to give us up in the end and we'd have to manage to be one step ahead of him. Leave in the middle of the night with no indication of us going or where we may be going. It just wasn't safe for us to do things carelessly; there was no room for a single mistake because that would be the last mistake we would ever make.

I looked over at Jack who was pacing, he was growing tired of this basement just like I was. What if I had never dragged him with me? Would I have continued to press so hard, desperate to stay safe or would I have given up at the first hard ship? I mean, it was impossible to go back in time to see what'd I'd have done but I knew that there was a reason that I had dragged Jack with me in the first place. I still wasn't sure what that reason was myself but he had an idea on what it was. I heard a shuffle next to me and felt a person sit down next to me.

"Lex, how much longer are we going to keep running," he asked.

"I don't know. I want you to be safe," I whispered.

"What about you?"

"I don't care about me, I want you to be safe."

"Lex, I want you to be safe with me."

"What if that isn't possible?"

"Let me make decisions like that for myself."

I looked at him and a very tired smile stretched across my lips. I lowered my head back down to my lap where I was picking at my nails. My hair fell in front of my face and I merely ignored it. He had a point, I needed to stop trying to be Superman because I couldn't save everyone, it wasn't possible. He wasn't my Lois Lane, he didn't need rescuing. He could take care of himself and I was just so afraid of losing him that I wanted to do whatever it'd take to protect him even though it was impossible. I wanted him to stand on the sidelines during a battle but I knew that in the end he would be right beside me leading the charge into the heart of the war and there was nothing I could do about it. Maybe there was no need for me to be Atlas with the world on my shoulders. Maybe I needed to focus more on me and less on us because us was already safe but I might not have been.

"You're right Jack, sorry," I whispered.

"Take a break Superman, get some sleep," he smiled at me.

"It's a good thing you're cute Barakat."

I walked over the the pullout and laid down on the sheets, not realizing how tired I was. The sheets were softer then I could remember seeing as I was running on next to no sleep and pure adrenaline. I curled into them, taking in the familiar smells of both Jack and Rian. I smiled when I felt the bed dip next to me and an arm drape over my waist. I knew it was Jack and that is what kept the smile on my face as I let sleep finally take over my body.

Notes

Hey guys, I'm almost done with this semester with finals starting a week from Sunday! That means the possibility of a less chaotic schedule (I like to live a rather busy life so that possibility is a rather strong one). So, I'm just really bad with procrastinating right now to the point of I need to be practicing for my juries and I've been watching music videos for the past few hours trying to see if you could tell when different performers were miming (I wish that were a joke). However, I get to see my favorite band in about twenty one days so I'm over the moon the right now. I really hope you enjoy this update, which was rushed since I promised someone I would help them practice tonight.

Leave a comment and rate if you enjoy :)

- Jess