Jack Barakat Imagines
To Live and Let Go
Your POV
*2 years ago*
I came home from work to find my boyfriend of two years on the couch muttering to himself. “Jack?” I asked wearily. “What’s going on?”
My voice startled him, and he jumped. He turned around to look at me, and patted the seat. He wiped his forehead and took a deep breath. I followed his instructions and sat down.
Jack took both my hands in his and started playing with my fingers. “Y/N..” he started. He caught my gaze, and immediately looked away. Was something wrong? “Y/N, I.. I need to talk to you.”
“Isn’t that why I’m here now?” I nervously laughed.
“Yeah.. Yeah it is.” Jack ran a hand through his hair, and took a deep breath.
“So?”
“So. Y/N.” He met my gaze again. “Y/N. I.. I think we should see other people.” He said the last part really fast. But I caught it.
“What?” My smile immediately fell. Why the fuck did he want to do that for? I was so sure that we were doing 100% fine. I guess not.
“I think we need to see other people,” he repeats.
“That’s what I thought you said.. Why?” Tears were welling up in my eyes. I didn’t want this to happen. Nothing I could do about it anyway I guess.
“I don’t think we’re working out anymore, I just.. I think we should go our separate ways.” We fucking live together. Was he just kicking me out?
I didn’t say that though. “Is this because of your tour schedule? Because I can go around that, I really don’t mind, it’s okay.” I was speaking really fast, and my tears were falling down already, I’d say anything to get him to stay.
“No, it’s not.” He tore his eyes away from mine. “I just think we shouldn’t be together anymore.”
“Oh.” My face was stained with tears, and my chest felt like it was hit with a bulldozer. I stood up without a word. I guess I could stay with my friend. I don’t want to come back to grab my stuff, but I was going to have to.
Jack tried to grab my hand, probably to tell me why he hated me now, but I didn’t want to look at him anymore. It hurt too much. I’m never going to be able to look at him, not without my heart shattering into a million pieces.
“No, it’s okay, I understand..” Those were the last words I’d said to him, and walked out of our- his- apartment.
*Present*
Jack had left, and I was broken. I didn’t know how to deal with it. I couldn’t go back to get my stuff, so my friend went instead. I was bedridden for about a month, but my friend convinced me to get back up. I didn’t want to, but I also didn’t want to impose, so I forced myself.
I didn’t stay at my house all day, but I still thought about him quite a lot. In fact, I met someone new, about six months after Jack broke up with me. I convinced myself that I’d go slow, but that went out the window when we went to second base, and just went all the way. A year after being with him, I realized I was already three months pregnant. How I managed not to know still baffles me, but I was still excited. I was going to have a baby.
I still thought about Jack a bit. But a lot less, now that I have a kid with Luke. He wanted to go to the store, so I agreed and now here we were, at JCPenney’s in the middle of the day.
“Hey babe,” Luke wrapped his arm around me, and kissed my cheek. I giggled. “I’m going to go get something for the little guy, okay?”
I smiled at him, and nodded. “Okay, I’ll be here.” Luke nodded, and took Eli from me. I stayed where I was.
I was looking through the women’s department, getting something for myself. I missed having him in my arms, and we didn’t have a stroller either. I was rummaging by myself.
I heard loud voices approaching us, it sounded as if they were arguing. I didn’t know what I was doing, but I hid behind the clothes rack anyway.
My eyes went wide, and I saw my ex boyfriend walking down the hall with some chick next to him. I mentally groaned at the sight.
“I don’t want to go through the women’s section,” Jack whined. My heart ached at his voice. I remember it too clearly.
“I just want to get some things. You can go play at Legoland if you really don’t want to be here,” she told him.
He laughed and wrapped his arm around her, and kissed the top of her head. “Nah, I’m good. If you want me here, I’m here.” He looked really happy, and I instantly felt like shit.
The girl was walking towards me and I started to back up, I didn’t want them to see me, but I didn’t take into account the fact that the clothing rack didn’t cover me up where I was walking backwards to.
“Y/N?” Jack called. Fuck. Me.
I turned around, and silently waved with my free hand. I was contemplating on just pretending I was someone else, but I just replied instead. “Yeah?”
“I thought that was you. Hey babe, come here, I want you to meet someone.” I winced at the word ‘babe’ being used so casually. I hoped he wouldn’t notice.
She came by and smiled when she saw me, at least she seemed friendly. “Who’s this?” she asked Jack.
“This is my-” he stopped briefly as he thought of a proper adjective for me. “Old friend, Y/N.” His girlfriend smiled at me and I smile back.
I shook her hand politely, nodding at her.
“Y/N!” I heard Luke call me from behind. I grinned wider, for real this time, and turned around to see him. I waved him over to us.
“Luke! This is Jack, my old friend, we just ran into each other.” I had told Luke about Jack, very briefly though. All he knows is that I loved him a lot, and he broke my heart. I never told him of the intimate lover shit we did. Luke looked at me with knowing eyes, but I just nodded my head. I acknowledged that this was the same person, but I’m okay now. It seems as though Jack didn’t speak one word about me to his girlfriend. “Jack, this is Luke.”
Luke was holding Eli, and stuck out his hand to shake Jack’s. Jack stared at him and at Eli, and I just watched, curious of what was going on.
Meanwhile, Jack’s present girlfriend squealed at the sight of Eli. “Awh! He’s so cute! Is he yours? What’s his name?” Luke took back his hand when he realized Jack didn’t shake it.
I smiled at Luke and he touched my hand supportively. “Yeah, he’s ours. His name is Eli.” Jack’s light smile faded. He wasn’t smiling much when Luke walked up, but he definitely wasn’t smiling now.
“Yours as in you two?” he asked, pointing at the both of us. His girlfriend playfully smacked his arm.
“Jack! You can’t just ask people that! I’m sorry about him, he’s just an oddball.”
“I remember,” I nodded. Jack looked at me, and my heart started to flutter. I looked away, though. I didn’t want to look at him for very long. I couldn’t.
“Well, we should get going,” Luke said, shifting Eli over to the other arm.
“We should too, bye!” Jack’s girlfriend called to us as she grabbed his arm and pulled him away. I walked willingly next to Luke and Eli.
“You okay?” he asked, with a worried tone.
“Yeah, I’ll be okay.” I took a deep breath. As we were walking, I turned around to look at Jack one last time. He was looking at me too. His hand came up and he waved at me. I’ve never seen anyone wave with so much sadness. I waved back and he tore his gaze from mine to look at his girlfriend. He gave her a fake smile as she was talking to him.
I felt bad that I was walking away with him unhappy. All I really wanted was for his happiness, but I don’t think he is. Nothing I can do about it now, though. He kicked me out of his life. I have a new one. One with Luke, and more importantly, one with Eli.
*2 years ago*
I came home from work to find my boyfriend of two years on the couch muttering to himself. “Jack?” I asked wearily. “What’s going on?”
My voice startled him, and he jumped. He turned around to look at me, and patted the seat. He wiped his forehead and took a deep breath. I followed his instructions and sat down.
Jack took both my hands in his and started playing with my fingers. “Y/N..” he started. He caught my gaze, and immediately looked away. Was something wrong? “Y/N, I.. I need to talk to you.”
“Isn’t that why I’m here now?” I nervously laughed.
“Yeah.. Yeah it is.” Jack ran a hand through his hair, and took a deep breath.
“So?”
“So. Y/N.” He met my gaze again. “Y/N. I.. I think we should see other people.” He said the last part really fast. But I caught it.
“What?” My smile immediately fell. Why the fuck did he want to do that for? I was so sure that we were doing 100% fine. I guess not.
“I think we need to see other people,” he repeats.
“That’s what I thought you said.. Why?” Tears were welling up in my eyes. I didn’t want this to happen. Nothing I could do about it anyway I guess.
“I don’t think we’re working out anymore, I just.. I think we should go our separate ways.” We fucking live together. Was he just kicking me out?
I didn’t say that though. “Is this because of your tour schedule? Because I can go around that, I really don’t mind, it’s okay.” I was speaking really fast, and my tears were falling down already, I’d say anything to get him to stay.
“No, it’s not.” He tore his eyes away from mine. “I just think we shouldn’t be together anymore.”
“Oh.” My face was stained with tears, and my chest felt like it was hit with a bulldozer. I stood up without a word. I guess I could stay with my friend. I don’t want to come back to grab my stuff, but I was going to have to.
Jack tried to grab my hand, probably to tell me why he hated me now, but I didn’t want to look at him anymore. It hurt too much. I’m never going to be able to look at him, not without my heart shattering into a million pieces.
“No, it’s okay, I understand..” Those were the last words I’d said to him, and walked out of our- his- apartment.
*Present*
Jack had left, and I was broken. I didn’t know how to deal with it. I couldn’t go back to get my stuff, so my friend went instead. I was bedridden for about a month, but my friend convinced me to get back up. I didn’t want to, but I also didn’t want to impose, so I forced myself.
I didn’t stay at my house all day, but I still thought about him quite a lot. In fact, I met someone new, about six months after Jack broke up with me. I convinced myself that I’d go slow, but that went out the window when we went to second base, and just went all the way. A year after being with him, I realized I was already three months pregnant. How I managed not to know still baffles me, but I was still excited. I was going to have a baby.
I still thought about Jack a bit. But a lot less, now that I have a kid with Luke. He wanted to go to the store, so I agreed and now here we were, at JCPenney’s in the middle of the day.
“Hey babe,” Luke wrapped his arm around me, and kissed my cheek. I giggled. “I’m going to go get something for the little guy, okay?”
I smiled at him, and nodded. “Okay, I’ll be here.” Luke nodded, and took Eli from me. I stayed where I was.
I was looking through the women’s department, getting something for myself. I missed having him in my arms, and we didn’t have a stroller either. I was rummaging by myself.
I heard loud voices approaching us, it sounded as if they were arguing. I didn’t know what I was doing, but I hid behind the clothes rack anyway.
My eyes went wide, and I saw my ex boyfriend walking down the hall with some chick next to him. I mentally groaned at the sight.
“I don’t want to go through the women’s section,” Jack whined. My heart ached at his voice. I remember it too clearly.
“I just want to get some things. You can go play at Legoland if you really don’t want to be here,” she told him.
He laughed and wrapped his arm around her, and kissed the top of her head. “Nah, I’m good. If you want me here, I’m here.” He looked really happy, and I instantly felt like shit.
The girl was walking towards me and I started to back up, I didn’t want them to see me, but I didn’t take into account the fact that the clothing rack didn’t cover me up where I was walking backwards to.
“Y/N?” Jack called. Fuck. Me.
I turned around, and silently waved with my free hand. I was contemplating on just pretending I was someone else, but I just replied instead. “Yeah?”
“I thought that was you. Hey babe, come here, I want you to meet someone.” I winced at the word ‘babe’ being used so casually. I hoped he wouldn’t notice.
She came by and smiled when she saw me, at least she seemed friendly. “Who’s this?” she asked Jack.
“This is my-” he stopped briefly as he thought of a proper adjective for me. “Old friend, Y/N.” His girlfriend smiled at me and I smile back.
I shook her hand politely, nodding at her.
“Y/N!” I heard Luke call me from behind. I grinned wider, for real this time, and turned around to see him. I waved him over to us.
“Luke! This is Jack, my old friend, we just ran into each other.” I had told Luke about Jack, very briefly though. All he knows is that I loved him a lot, and he broke my heart. I never told him of the intimate lover shit we did. Luke looked at me with knowing eyes, but I just nodded my head. I acknowledged that this was the same person, but I’m okay now. It seems as though Jack didn’t speak one word about me to his girlfriend. “Jack, this is Luke.”
Luke was holding Eli, and stuck out his hand to shake Jack’s. Jack stared at him and at Eli, and I just watched, curious of what was going on.
Meanwhile, Jack’s present girlfriend squealed at the sight of Eli. “Awh! He’s so cute! Is he yours? What’s his name?” Luke took back his hand when he realized Jack didn’t shake it.
I smiled at Luke and he touched my hand supportively. “Yeah, he’s ours. His name is Eli.” Jack’s light smile faded. He wasn’t smiling much when Luke walked up, but he definitely wasn’t smiling now.
“Yours as in you two?” he asked, pointing at the both of us. His girlfriend playfully smacked his arm.
“Jack! You can’t just ask people that! I’m sorry about him, he’s just an oddball.”
“I remember,” I nodded. Jack looked at me, and my heart started to flutter. I looked away, though. I didn’t want to look at him for very long. I couldn’t.
“Well, we should get going,” Luke said, shifting Eli over to the other arm.
“We should too, bye!” Jack’s girlfriend called to us as she grabbed his arm and pulled him away. I walked willingly next to Luke and Eli.
“You okay?” he asked, with a worried tone.
“Yeah, I’ll be okay.” I took a deep breath. As we were walking, I turned around to look at Jack one last time. He was looking at me too. His hand came up and he waved at me. I’ve never seen anyone wave with so much sadness. I waved back and he tore his gaze from mine to look at his girlfriend. He gave her a fake smile as she was talking to him.
I felt bad that I was walking away with him unhappy. All I really wanted was for his happiness, but I don’t think he is. Nothing I can do about it now, though. He kicked me out of his life. I have a new one. One with Luke, and more importantly, one with Eli.
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RIGHT SOMEONE POINTED THAT OUT ON MY WATTPAD VERSION AND I WAS LIKE ???? how did i do that I'm magical
9/19/16