Never Look Back
“Alex, what the hell are you doing?” My dad asks while walking into my small room in our trailer.
“Studying for my chem test.” I say in a monotone voice.
“You don’t need to, your good ol’ dad didn’t and look where he got!” He says proudly and snapping his suspenders.
“What if I don’t want to be like you?” I grumble under my breath.
“What was that?”
“Nothing.” Getting annoyed, I grab my iPod and plug in my music and drown out the rest of what he has to say.
When he realizes I’m not paying attention he takes my chemistry book and slams it in my face and takes it away.
“What the fuck?” I yell at him as he slams my door and walks to the other side of the trailer.
He just ignores me and locks his and my moms bedroom door.
I walk back into my room and know I’ll have to sneak it back when they’re not home.
Looking at my planner, I see what I have to do next.
“Spanish.” I mumble to myself. “Mi familia son un montón de idiotas.”
*Time lapse 2 hours*
I crash on my mattress and realize the time.
“Looks like I forgot to eat again.” I speak quietly, taking a peanut butter granola bar out of the box I keep next to my bed.
Letting myself wander into thought, I think of how my family is.
I want to walk into the light and knowing, that I would be the one to top everyone and prove to my family that they can’t control my life and stick their beliefs of being the country boy that gets a shitty job and gets blowjobs from their wife as their beergut belly just gets bigger.
They all think I’ll never get anywhere but I’m gonna prove them all wrong.
I’m not the boy they want me to be.
I’m Alex Gaskarth and I’m never gonna look back and conform to their rules and regulations of hillbilly moments.
So I had a fight with my girlfriend and went to writing to cheer me up.
It led to this.
Hope you enjoy, tell me what you think.
Oh and what Alex says in Spanish is that his family are a bunch of idiots basically.
Till darkness completes us,