I grab the black dress and put it on top of my body.
"I think that's the one."
"Really?" She nods and I smile. "I'm gonna try it on." I put it over my shoulder and walk to a near by assistant.
"Hi, ready to try on?" She asks.
"Yes." She nods and walks to a vanilla color door and knocks, making sure there's no one there. She inserts the key and turn the knob.
"Here you go. If you need another size, just press the blue button."
"Thanks" she closes the door and I look at myself in the full body mirror. My eyes red and bit swollen, my body figure was slim... Too slim. I take off my regular clothing, and put in the black velvet dress over my head, and let the fabric pass through my body. The shoulder of the dress rested at the end in my shoulders, the end of the dress stopping right above my knees. I look in to the mirror and I felt like I was looking at the dead. I open the door my dressing room and look at Emy for her opinion.
"It looks great on you." She says, giving me two thumbs up. I shrug and went back inside, take off the dress and put back on my striped black shirt with my high black ripped jeans along with my oxfords. I grab the dress, and walk out to the cashier. She smiles at me,and I force a smile at her.
"Have a great day," she says, and I just nod.
This wasn't a great day, I just went funeral dress shopping... There's nothing great about that.
"You okay?" Emy asked and I just nod, she sighs and wraps her arm around my slim shoulders. "Hey.. Hey." She whispers, as I take a deep breath, controlling myself into not crying. "You know.. He wouldn't want to see you this way."
"I just can't be like this, Emy... I loved him so much, and he left me... Me and Clarity"
"There's a reason for everything Natalie." I shrug and she squeezes my shoulders, than linking her arm with mine.

This was my life now... My life without the love of my life.

My life as the widow of Alex Gaskarth

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