*A Few Days Later, Heading to Ohio, Zjael’s POV*

“Zjael, come here.” Rian said from the back lounge. I walked back there to find him and Zack. I quickly, but quietly, closed the door to the little room and locked it.

“You find me a place and a job, yet?” I asked quietly, yet very excitedly. We didn’t want Alex and Jack to know or find out. Jack would stop us if he knew, and Alex might tell him the plan if he knew, so neither could know.

“Yeah, we go to Cleveland, Ohio tomorrow and we will have Matt take Alex and Jack out so we can take the bus and move you into your new little apartment.” Zack said and Rian took over.

“We pulled some strings at Alternative Press. They’re gonna give you a job as a photographer and they are gonna talk to you about everything and have our good friend, Adam, help you out to understand everything.”

“Alright, is it, by chance, Adam Elmakias?” I asked. I was a little bit of a fan of his work.

“Yeah, you’ve heard of him?” Rian asked.

“Yes! I love his work!” I said excitedly.

“Well, that’s good then.” Zack said with a smile.

“You might want to get out of here before Jack starts to think we’re planning something.” Rian said and I nodded before leaving. I crawled into my bunk with a smile. I heard footsteps walk towards me and stop in front of my bunk. I wasn’t surprised when my curtain opened to reveal Jack.

“Hey, Z, want some company?”Jack asked, I decided that I might as well. After all, he won’t see me for a little while after tomorrow.

“Sure.” I said and scooted over. Jack slowly crawled in and laid on his side, facing me.

“Can I ask you something?” Jack asked. I started to freak out…does he know something?

“S-Sure, b-but I m-may n-not a-a-answer.” I stuttered. That question never failed to make me extremely nervous.

“That’s fine.” Jack said and took a deep breath. “What’s happened in your past? We all know something bad happened, but we want to help and sometimes the best way to help is for you to talk about it.”

“I don’t want to talk about that.” I whispered as memories played in my mind. I tried to block them out but some got through. They were the worst of times. It always ended with me seeing my dad drop dead in front of me. I curled into a ball and hugged my knees and soon started to hyperventilate. “No! Stop! Stop! Stop!” I screamed. I couldn’t comprehend anything going on. Suddenly, everything went black.

*Jack’s POV*

“I don’t want to talk about that.” Zjael whispered barely audible. Seconds later, fear took over her expression and she curled into a ball.

“A-Alex!” I yelled to the singer. I might have just fucked up again. He came running up instantly then heard Zjael as she started to hyperventilate. He looked and saw her in there as I crawled out quickly.

“Get her out of there.” Alex said hurriedly. Once we got her out of the bunk, she hugged her knees tighter against her body. “Zjael, no, you need to stop and listen to me. Sweetie, it’s just chemicals in your brain, you need to breathe.” Alex said softly and very calmly.

“No! Stop! Stop! Stop!” She screamed in terror. Her hyperventilating increased. Rian and Zack came running to us after hearing her scream.

“What the fuck is going on?” Zack asked.

“Is she having some form of attack?” Rian asked.

“Everybody shut the fuck up!” Alex yelled at everyone. “We all need to be calm.” He said, calm once again. “Zjael, sweetie, you need to breathe.” Alex said. Not even a minute later she went limp. “She passed out.”

“What do we do? She feels warm.” I said and Rian double checked.

“She’s normally this warm.” Rian said; I felt a spark of jealousy in me. How the fuck would he know?

“Let’s lay her down on the couch in the back lounge.” Alex suggested. I slowly picked her up, brought her to the back lounge, and carefully laid her down. “She should wake up soon.”

“Anything else?” I asked carefully.

“Yeah, what caused it?” Rian asked me. I didn’t even look at him.

“I don’t have to answer you. I was talking to Alex.” I said snidely.

“Jack, that’s a question we actually need answered. We do need to know what caused it. We need to know what to be careful of next time it comes up.” Alex said and I sighed.

“I told her she didn’t have to give me an answer and asked what happened in her past.”

Notes

I feel like the whole panic attack part sucks. I just kinda wrote it how I thought a bad one might go. I've had panic attacks, but not too bad and I've been able to control it myself, so I didn't really know how to write this, but I went for it.

Hope you guys like this. I decided that I would try and update the chapters that I have had written for the past couple weeks.......maybe months. Haha might as well update with 2015 written chapters on the last day of 2015. Chapter 12 will hopefully be up soon. :) Leave some comments for me to read because I love reading them and interacting with everyone.

-Rose