Sacrifice

Alex's POV

Now I know why I left this shithole 4 years ago.
Thought dad was better but it doesn't look like it.
I couldn't get to sleep.
Jack was out off it, which makes a change cause he never sleeps and it was normally me who slept.

I was watching Jack sleep when I heard something downstairs.
I got myself out of the tangled arms I was in and went to have a look.
"FUCK SAKE ISOBEL CAN'T YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT!" My father shouted.
I heard mum sob.
I sat on the top step of the stairs and listen to them.
"Why is Alex even here? Doesn't he get the message he not wanted here." My father said.
That hurt a lot.
"Don't say that Peter, you pushed Lily away and looked what happened to her. I not going to let that happen to Alex." Mum said back.
"That Jack boy he changed Alex. Alex wasnt like this when he left for the fucking country now he back fucking arses. That boy needs to go just like the last one!" He said loudly.
I couldnt help but let a tear fall. I really loved Ross and dad pushed both of us so Ross left and so did I.
"No! You are not doing that this time Peter! Jack cares about Alex and Alex cares about Jack just because you don't like it doesn't mean you have to break them up! They are happy leave them fucking to it." Mum said loudly back at him.
"don't raise your voice to me bitch!" He said and slapped her hard even I heard it.
I couldn't listen to anymore. I went to check on Jack, he was still sound asleep. I went over to him and kissed his head and left the room.

I went to Lily's room.
Her room hasn't changed since that day part from the room was clean.
I went over and sat on her bed.
"What's happening Lils?" I spoke to myself hoping to get answer from her but didn't get one.
I got up and went over and looked at the photo of me and her on her wall.
"I miss these times Lil, wish you didn't do this, everything fucked up now Lily. Dad beats mum and me when I'm here. He hates the fact I'm with Jack. He wants to destroy us like he did with me and Ross. " I said sitting against the wall.
I was lost in thought that I didn't hear mum come in.
"Alex?" She said and joined me on the floor.
"I know he hit you mum. I know he wants to break me and Jack like he did with Ross. What did I do wrong mum?" I said and rest my head on her shoulder.
"He's still upset about Lily Alex. I know that won't happen Alex and so do you. You've done nothing wrong sweetie okay none of us have but him he's the one who fucked everything up." Mum said pulling me into a hug.
"Its not the point mum, he shouldn't be using you as a punch bag or me when I ever come here. I know but I thought that with Ross and looked what happened. Yep he fucked up all on his own." I said quietly.
" You know Lily would be proud off you. Going to America, finding Jack, having your dream. I know Lily never got her dream but at least one of my children get to live their dream." Mum said and smiled at me.

She got up and went to get the photo album we made before she died.
"I love looking at this when I miss you both." Mum said sadly rejoining me on the floor and giving me half the photo album while she had hold of the other half.
"Remember this? We lost you two in the crowd but you where still in the ball pit." She chuckled.
" Yeah I remember, it was Lily's ideas to hide." I chuckled back.
"She was a minx for things like that. She had the brains for it while you put it into practice, I always thought it was dangerous when you two where together." She smiled.
"I miss her mum." I said resting my head back on her shoulder.
She rested her head on top of mine.
"I know you do sweetie, we all do, but you've been this strong son far and you can keep on doing this, you have Jack to help you he seems to really care Alex don't push him away like you did with your friends." She whispered and kissed the top off my head.
I was going to argue back but I didn't want to.
"Go to bed sweetie, you need sleep I know you not getting much sleep." She said looking at me.
"Its not what you think mum trust me." I chuckled.
"Who said in was thinking it." She smiled wide and chuckled.
I got up and helped mum up.
We said goodnight and went our separate ways.

I walked into the room and saw Jack.
I couldn't help but smile.
Jack better than Ross.
Jack understands me better.
With that I flopped onto the bed next to Jack who just grunted in response.
I couldnt help but laugh at this.
" What you laughing at?" He muttered.
"Nothing go back to sleep." I said back quietly and kissed his forehead.
"Can't you woke me up." He said sitting up and rubbing his eyes.
"Sorry but pay back from all the times you woke me up." I said cuddling up to him.
"Have you even been to sleep yet?" Jack said getting comfy again.
"Nope. Too much crap going on in my head." I said
"Like what?" Jack asked playing with my hair.
I liked it when Jack plays with my hair.
Reminds me of when Lily used to make me play hairdresser with her.
A tear fell down my cheek but I quickly wiped it away before Jack saw.
"Lily." I simply said.
"Jack I don't think i can stay here. Its too painful, memories, words, actions everything. If you want to known the answer to something look round the house it'll tell you everything you need to know." I said quickly looking away from Jack.
"But I want to hear it from you." He said making me look at him.
He reached over and turned the bedside light on.
We both hissed at the light.
"How are we so alike? Its scary." I said looking at Jack.
"Guess we're made for each other." Jack whispered and kissed me loving.

Notes

blaaaah its shit...

Got to see my boyfriend after nearly 2 months... I'm feeling the love right now okay..