As soon as we get on the bus, Alex throws me over his shoulder and carries me to the bathroom. He didn’t even bother getting me any spare clothes so I can get out of my soaked ones.
“Alex,” I shrieked as he proceeded into the bathroom and closing the door behind us. I could hear the rest of the guys on the bus hollering at Alex’s ballsy move.
“Now we’re alone,” Alex grin mischievously before kissing me hard as he lifted me up onto the counter.
“We haven’t gone on the third date yet,” I whined as he kissed me down my neck, finding my soft spot behind my left ear, resulting in a moan escaping my lips.
“Nothing’s wrong with a little foreplay,” he grinned before slamming his lips into mine again.
He soon began to lick my lower lip and bit on it a little. I opened my mouth for him and his tongue snaked right in. His tongue pranced around my mouth, while mine did the same with his. I wrapped my legs around his waist, making him press closer against me. His hands held onto the lower of my back while mine got lost in his hair. We broke apart after being like for about four or five minutes. We both were panting from the nice make out session we had.
“I need to lose these soaked clothes, babe,” I told him, still trying to catch my breath.
“Stay here while I go get you something,” he left the small bathroom with me still on the counter.
“I’m back and I bear nice clothes for my beautiful girlfriend,” Alex sweet talked as he closed the door behind him again.
“Thank you. I’m going to kill Zack for throwing me in,” I smiled and stripped right in front of him. I slipped on the black shorts he grabbed me and my black Don’t Panic t-shirt. I adjusted my lucky anchor necklace I never took off.
“Hey I encouraged it. Am I going to be punished too,” he asked with a puppy pout.
“Yeah, no sex until date four,” I winked and left the bathroom.

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So after everyone had showered after the football game, everyone gathered in and around the dressing room since the doors were about to open and the show would start shortly after. I told Alex I was not going to miss the other sets since I didn’t get to see them last show due to my anxiety attack and the show back in Orlando since we spent the entire time on the bus.
“It’s nice to see you calmed and relaxed,” I heard a British accent and turned around to see Matt standing behind me. Both Matt and Josh were my two favorite blokes in YMAS.
“No shit. I hated being like that. I haven’t had an attack that bad since I was a freshman in college,” I told him.
“Well you are lucky to have Alex and Nyssa at your side. Along with everyone on this tour to be there for you,” he smiled and hugged me warmly. I could see myself making lasting friends with everyone on this tour.
♪Alex♪
When show was starting, I took Bonnie to one side of the stage so she could watch everyone play. In my mind, I saw this as date two for us. I wanted to reach date three so I could show Bonnie that I care a lot about her and that she means so much to me. That and I want to get to the next stage of our relationship before her meds run out in the case that she gets an attack when she and I start getting into the heat of the moment. I wouldn’t want Nyssa to see us in our naked glory when I needed her help to get Bonnie leveled out again.
“Alex,” Bonnie called to me over the music.
“Yeah,” I asked.
“Is it too soon to tell you how I feel,” she asked.
“I don’t think so. Why,” I asked.
“I love you. I really do. You’ve brought me out an anxiety attack and you’ve been nothing but a darling for me. And that make out session was the best I’ve ever had,” she smiled brightly. She confessed that she loves me. Holy shit! I’m on cloud nine for sure.
“I love you too Bonnie. I’ll always be here for you. Even if we’re not in the same room or state. I’m always here,” I told her, my smile matching hers. I kissed her softly. I was in total bliss.
♪Bonnie♪
During the intermission between You Me At Six and Mayday Parade, I went to go find Nyssa to tell her about what happened between me and Alex during the opening set of the night. When I found her chilling with Jack, Rian, Mike, Jaime and Vic, I jumped into her lap and started squealing like a little girl.
“Bonnie, that hurt,” Nyssa complained at my hard landing.
“I told Alex that I love him. He returned it to me too. Oh my god, Nyssa I’m super happy right now. I had to come tell you,” I was smiling from ear to ear with pure joy at everything that was happening today.
“I’m happy for you Bonnie. I’m sure Alex is missing you terribly. Go back to him and have a fun night. I’ll join you when Pierce has to go on,” Nyssa smiled with me and I ruffled her hair before leaving the room to go back to sit with Alex.
“Well there you are. You ran off pretty damn fast after the set was over,” Alex said as he hand me my can of Mountain Dew. I wasn’t in the mood to drink tonight; I just wanted to spend the night with Alex enjoying his company.
“I had to go see Nyssa for a sec. Thank you for getting me my drink by the way,” I kissed him before I took a sip of my pop.
“Anything for you, Bonnie,” Alex smiled and kissed me again. I could taste the Jameson on his breath, but I didn’t care I liked Jameson.
“Here’s to happy nights and few attacks,” I raised my can and Alex raised his glass.
“Here’s to us,” Alex and I finished our toast before taking sips of our drinks.
I am seriously hoping that I don’t have another attack soon. I want to go the rest of the tour without another one. I hate feeling so helpless. I get isolated in my mind and I see the dark corners I want to keep hidden when I’m under. I can’t stand it yet there is no cure for anxiety. Only ways to try to manage it, which isn’t helpful when I have to rely on my medication to keep me as normal as possible and that’s going to run out in one more day and I’m scared out of my mind on what’s going to happen next when I have no more meds to take.