8th June 2009, Six months earlier.
I stumbled out of my bedroom and down the stairs, threw on my rucksack and headed out of the door. Only one more week until we graduate.
The weather was decent for Baltimore; I guess that put me in a better mood than usual, I chose against driving to school, the weather was too beautiful. I planned on moving away as soon as I graduated, or at least some form of vacation. I needed a break, I had saved a few hundred bucks in advance, and in a few more weeks I’ll have another hundred.
I almost tripped up the curb and skipped across my best friend, Alex’s, front garden.
Three knocks was all it took for him to open his front door, he opened it with a smile but it quickly dropped.
“Oh, Jack...” He said quietly in his morning voice, scratching his neck.
“What’s up with you?” I retorted. I tried to step into his house but he blocked the way.
“I... I can’t walk with you today. I’m seeing an old friend.” He sighed, refusing eye contact.
“Oh... that’s okay, I guess.” I looked down, it hurt a little. It hurts how he leads me on, forgets to tell me things. Needless to say, I could smell that perfume from a mile off.
“I should’ve called you, sorr-” He held my wrist but I shook him away from me.
“Forget it.” I whispered as I stepped down from the doorstep. I tugged my bag back over my shoulder and made my own way to school alone, refusing to look back.
School wasn’t so bad; I had Cass and Zack, and some other friends, but I just didn’t feel good enough. Is that selfish? I take everything for granted, apparently. I missed having to give Alex up, especially to that whore. I’m always second best to her, I’m the person that picks up the pieces when she’s broken everything.
I sighed and slammed my locker shut.
I turned around but to my surprise Zack was right behind me, blocking me from getting to my class.
“Merrick.” I nodded.
“Barakat.” He nodded back. I locked my locker up and pulled my rucksack over my arm again. “Why you so pissed?” He chuckled quietly, shuffling aside quickly.
I shrugged my shoulders and began a slow stroll down the hall.
“Do you want to talk about it, or?”
“No, I’ll be ok.” I lied. I didn’t feel bad about lying, I could look somebody in the eye and lie to them, and I guess some of this grief, from my mother, Alex and my dad, caused me to lose all conscience that ever existed in my body.
Zack knew never to nag at me, it’s something other people haven’t really caught up on, they don’t realise that if they keep asking me things, they won’t get a response. If they did, I’d just walk away, just like I do with every other problem in my life.
I threw my half empty bag onto the floor and quietly sat down. I was always the one who tried not to cause a scene, it’s not nice for people around you to witness, so when the teacher tried getting an argument out of me I’d admit that he was right and that “I shouldn’t have been dawdling around the corridors for ten minutes with Zachary Merrick.”
That usually happened every Monday morning though. Plus, it gained a few girly giggles at the front. However, the usual “Faggot.” Remarks from the guys seated at the back.
I was never open about my sexuality, nobody knows, they just... presume I’m gay, just because I’m not interested in vag.
I’m not interested in guys either; I just don’t like people that much.
Math, Chem, English and Gym flew by; before I knew it I was sat at an empty dining table in the cafeteria. Zack was probably still in the gym and Cass would’ve been with her boyfriend.
“Alone again, Jacky.” I mumbled, playing with my pasta (which was overcooked).
I sat and stared at my food for a good five minutes before I decided it was too cold to eat and threw it in the bin.
It only took me two minutes and I was in the music department.

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This is six months earlier, I think I'll keep alternating? From past to present? Well you guys decide!
Chapter credit to Bring Me The Horizon - Sleep Walking