Everybody Wants To Go To Heaven, But Nobody Wants To Die
Sleep Is Just A Cousin Of Death
‘Eyes like a car crash, I know I shouldn’t look but I can’t turn away. A body like a whiplash, sew my wounds but I can’t heal the way I feel about you. I watch you like a hawk, I watch you like I’m going to tear you limb from limb. Will the hunger ever stop? Can we simply starve this sin?’
“Jack, can you hear me?” Someone spoke. “Jack.” The repeated my name. “Chris, he’s going!” This time they weren’t speaking to me. I just needed to relax. Rest. Fall asleep. Leave my body. Leave my one love – If he already hasn’t abandoned me already.
Alex... What happened?
“Jack, I need you to wake up!” I heard a different voice. But I knew I was going.
My eyelids only just parted. I couldn’t see anything apart from a white light.
“Jack, we’re going to get you out. Stay still.” One of them spoke again. Their words just echoed inside my head. Around and around.
One of the men grabbed me from under my shoulders; little did I know I trapped was in a sideways smashed up car on the highway. Fuck. Alex is in there still?!
Alex. He’s gone. I began screaming his name in some form.
“Agh!” They pulled me again, I was stuck. My legs were unbearable, my head was pounding. I couldn’t move. I fell limp.
“Jack, we’re going to try once more, okay?” One of the guys shouted. I nodded instinctively. They pulled, and my legs loosened up, after another few tugs, I was out and had fallen onto the ground. One of the men carried me to the red and blue blurs. I was determined to stay awake. I recall screaming Alex’s name through sobs again.
He sat me on the edge of the ambulance, I refused to lie down. I just sat there, he offered me a blanket but I refused. I couldn’t stop staring at the car. My best friend. My only love. I felt a tear begin to run down my cheek. The cold wind didn’t affect me, I just sat there.
“Jack, can you hear me?” Someone spoke. “Jack.” The repeated my name. “Chris, he’s going!” This time they weren’t speaking to me. I just needed to relax. Rest. Fall asleep. Leave my body. Leave my one love – If he already hasn’t abandoned me already.
Alex... What happened?
“Jack, I need you to wake up!” I heard a different voice. But I knew I was going.
My eyelids only just parted. I couldn’t see anything apart from a white light.
“Jack, we’re going to get you out. Stay still.” One of them spoke again. Their words just echoed inside my head. Around and around.
One of the men grabbed me from under my shoulders; little did I know I trapped was in a sideways smashed up car on the highway. Fuck. Alex is in there still?!
Alex. He’s gone. I began screaming his name in some form.
“Agh!” They pulled me again, I was stuck. My legs were unbearable, my head was pounding. I couldn’t move. I fell limp.
“Jack, we’re going to try once more, okay?” One of the guys shouted. I nodded instinctively. They pulled, and my legs loosened up, after another few tugs, I was out and had fallen onto the ground. One of the men carried me to the red and blue blurs. I was determined to stay awake. I recall screaming Alex’s name through sobs again.
He sat me on the edge of the ambulance, I refused to lie down. I just sat there, he offered me a blanket but I refused. I couldn’t stop staring at the car. My best friend. My only love. I felt a tear begin to run down my cheek. The cold wind didn’t affect me, I just sat there.
I LOVE YOU ASDFGHJKL; I HOPE YOU GET THINGS SORTED OUT
10/11/13