Alex and I sit in the living room couch, I lay leaning back on the couch Alex lays with his head on my chest listening to my heartbeat he said, my hands slide through his hair. I smile to myself grateful that today his hair doesn’t seem to be his number one priority allowing me to do this.
“They’re here.” I murmur to him quietly, this time he wraps his arms around my waist pulling me in tighter to him.
“No.” He whines, I smile to myself and rub his neck, I start to sit up trying to force him off of me.
“Come on babe. Get up before I call Zack in to pick you up.” Alex sighs and groans getting up, sitting next to me. I sigh and look at him not entirely sure what to say. Not wanting to have to say goodbye at all.
“Lets get you packed up.” I smile a bit at him and start to stand, Rian knocks on the front door. “Come in!” I call, He walks in and looks at Alex frowning slightly.
“Where are all your things?” he asks “I’ll give you guys a minute and carry them in for you.” I smile at him gratefully.
“In the bedroom. Thanks.” I nod and sit back down by Alex. “Come on, Love.” I smile and reach my hand across to touch his cheek making him look at me. I lean in and kiss him for a second. “I love you.” I mutter, touching my forehead to his. Alex laughs and smiles just before closing the distance between us one more time, holding the kiss for a long moment.
“I love you too. Forever and always and until death do us part.” He smiles at me. I wrap my arms around his neck and pull myself in close to his chest, I close my eyes just concentrating on how if feels to be so close to him. I force myself to pull away from him first.
“Come on, Love, you can’t leave the guys waiting. Go help Rian pack up the bus. I have a gift for you. Just let me go grab it.” I smile and push his hair back, he nods at me.
“Fine.” He smiles weakly trying to lighten the mood. I smile back wider.
“You’ll have fun. Okay?” I stand up and offer my hands to him pulling him up. “I’ll wait for you by the bus.” I jog off into the kitchen into the back of the pantry where I hid my gift, where I knew he wouldn’t find it. It’s in a little black wooden box that I made with my grandfather. I walk out and lean against the bus, fiddling with the box. Alex and Rian walk out of the house carrying some bags and the guitar Alex didn’t have sent with the Tech bus. Rian nods at me and carries everything on the bus giving us privacy.
“So what did you get me?” He laughs and offers me his hand, I take it and squeeze his fingers.
“Well,” I blush “You remember the first concert you took me to?” I smile up at him “The first one of yours. You gave me a pick and told me you loved me. The first time.” He laughs
“Sounds familiar. Why?” He smiles down at me.
“I know its kind of cheesy, but I still have it, and I got a similar one made.” I laugh and drop his hand. I open the box and pull out a necklace with a guitar pick on the end that says ‘All Time BLow TMB’ and on the back says ‘Tagging My Boyfriend.’ I hand it to him, and blush.
“Don’t trust me?” He chuckles.
“No, I just don’t trust all of your screaming fan girls.” I get on my toes and slide the necklace over his head, I get on my toes and tighten my arms around his neck.
“Thanks.” He smiles, I feel his hands touch my hips and pull me in slightly. I go in for the last kiss. “I love you.” He pulls away as he steps on the bus. I frown and try to keep myself looking happy for him.
“I’ll see you as soon as I can. I love you too!” The door closes behind him and the engine starts. I turn to walk into the house before letting Alex see my sadness.

*****

I lay in bed curled up in a ball feeling lonely in this big house by myself. I groan when I hear the phone ring, I roll over and pick up my cell phone.
“Hello?”
“Hey Hanna! Its Katie!” I smile a bit, Katie is my best and what feels like only real female friend.
“Hey Mouse,” I laugh, as she’s ridiculously short. “What’s up?”
“I need your help. Tom just broke up with Maya and she’s in a spiral. Girl’s night? I was thinking Bri and Christine could come over too.” I nod to myself.
“God that’d be awesome. I’ll get food and stuff for facemasks, you get breakup movies?” I grin already out of bed and getting dressed.
“Ugh thank you sooo much. You’re a life-saver!” I smile
“Well, I don’t have anything better to do. We can have it over here. And you guys are all welcome to spend the night. My brothers gone so we have three free bedrooms and almost all of them have room for three.” I laugh
“I don’t know what you’re talking about your bed can fit eight.” She laughs, “Keep in touch! Oh and when should they all come over?” I think for a minute checking the time 10:30 the house is spotless, I mostly clean and watch movies when not at work.
“Anytime after four.” I nod “I’m going to head out now. Get our fat food. Text me if there’s anything I need to pick up.”
“Okay, I love you Katie!” I grin
“Love you too.”
“Bye.”
“Bye!” I smile and pull on Alex’s Ravens jersey. It still smells like him, and his excessive hairspray. I smile to myself thinking about it, I jog out to the car grabbing my purse on the way. I start the engine and start down the street. I hold my phone in my hand waiting for any sign of Katie or Alex calling. I pull into an intersect when I hear my phone buzz ‘HEY HEY HANNA FUTURE KARTH HEY’ I smile a little; I’m just glad jack is so weird it doesn’t matter that he’s my ring tone. I look at the screen and smile, a picture of me kissing Alex’s cheek while on at Valley Fair in Minnesota, My hometown with my old friends.
“Hey Ale- Bear.” I smile to myself shaking my head, I’ve been trying to stop calling Alex by his first name.
“I told you not to call me that!” I hear him laugh, my heart melts. God I miss him so much.
“Hmmm, No. I like it.” I frown “I miss you. Life is so uneventful all by myself in this big house.” I lean on my head slightly and pull onto the highway.
“I can only imagine. What are you doing now? Sounds like you’re driving?” His voice sounds lighthearted but tired.
“Yeah, I’m just going grocery shopping. I’m having a party with the girls tonight.” I laugh a bit thinking of all the hell he gives me about my girl’s nights. “You know? Fat night. Movies, Pizza guacamole face masks.”
“Ooooh Get me in on one of those when I get home.” I hear him laugh to himself
“I’ll really be sure to. You’ll have to shave off your beard. You know the one you always decide to grow when you’re on tour.” I laugh, Last time we needed the help of a professional, also known as Rian pinning him down while I shaved the ridiculous thing off.
“We’ll see about that.” I hear him chuckle. “When are you going to be coming out to see me?”
“I know you’re counting down love. Two days and I’ll be there.” I smile
“Maybe I am.”
“How was your set?” I push my hair back and try to watch the road and focus on his voice, measure how well he was doing.
“It was good. Jack got some new bras, Zack got a tampon. Un-used, don’t worry.” I hear him laugh as a Semi in front of me starts swerving; I drop my phone as I reach for the steering wheel to avoid it hitting me
“Hanna?” I hear him
“Hey babe! I dropped my phone! Give me a second!” I lean down and slow down, there’s a bridge that’s completely empty of cars in front of me. I lean down and reach for my phone, I wrap my fingers around it and sit back up just soon enough to see the semi trying to cross the intersection to my left.
“ALEX!!” I shriek and go to slam the brake.