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It's Such A Shame That We Play Strangers

Chapter 7

Alex and I have been talking for about 2 weeks now, yet he's the only one I talk in front of. He's tried to get me to talk in front of Zack and Rian but I just been able to motivate myself.

I class Zack and Rian to be a close friends now, they are really awesome guys and I feel myself gaining social activity back. I don't sit on my own anymore and I am talking.

I have stopped going to talk with Mr Stevens, even though I never really talked, I had to always write down how I was feeling. And if I was to do that at this moment, I would thank him for giving me a chance to move on.

I still think about Tyler on occasion when I look over to Alex on the other side of the room. It's just different to see another person in the place where my last love was.

I don't want to fall in love with Alex, but I can already feel it coming. I can't help but watch him as he leaves and enters our room, smiling and saying hi/bye to me as he does. It's so adorable that he sits at his desk and sighs in frustration if he doesn't understand something on our homework sheets. The way he runs his hands through his hair, the way his eyes always have life in them and just the fact that he wants to be my friend makes me want to love him more.

But that's the problem, he just wants to be friends, no way he'd be into guys, let alone me. Even if Alex was to be into guys, what's the bet he wouldn't go for one of the others, and completely ignore me. Yet, how would he even know that I was, if I never tell.

I was sitting in the chair thinking about this when Alex walked in, making my train of thought leave and everything just went blank. He smiled to me and closed the door, dumping his bag near the door, like normal.

'Hey Jack, how's the homework coming along?' He asked as he sat down on his bed.

'Uh, well. I haven't started it.' I said, looking at the paper.

'That's not like you. What's wrong?' He asked, assuming something was wrong. Good guess.

'Nothing is wrong. I was just thinking.' I replied.

'Okay. Well, tomorrow night, the other dorm hall is throwing a party and I was thinking we could go.' He said, looking to me from across the room.

'Uh, I don't know. I don't think I could do that, just yet.' I said, making Alex frown.

'Once you get a few drinks into you, you'll be fine.' He replied. I looked over to him and shook my head.

'I don't think so. I don't drink.' I replied.

'You don't drink. That's okay, if you come, I wont leave your side.' Alex said.

'And you promise this? I doubt you would want to stay with me all night. I am just some boring, annoying, quiet person who will make your whole night boring. So I guess I shouldn't go.' I said, turning my chair into the desk and picked up the pen.

'Jack, you aren't annoying, boring. Yes you might be quiet but who cares. I promise I wont leave you. I'll stay with you until we leave, or until you want to leave.' Alex promised.

'I still don't know. Can I tell you tomorrow?' I questioned.

'Yeah.' Alex replied and began to lie on his bed. I looked down at my homework and sighed.

I am now starting to question my friendship with Alex. He says he will stay by my side all night, yet for some reason, I don't believe that one little bit. This reminds me of that time when Tyler and I went to a party a couple days just before he passed.

It was about half way through the night, and we were reasonably drunk, swaying and singing to the music which played shitty pop music. He told me he was going to get some fresh air so I let him, having completely trusted him.

I finally stopped dancing after about 15 minutes and went to meet my "trustworthy" and "faithful" boyfriend but when I walked outside, I saw him up against a fence in front of a girl, who happened to sneak into the party, there was actually a pile of girls there, but anyway, I basically walked up to him, tapped his shoulder and he stopped and turned around.

He apologised and said he didn't mean to but I guess I was wrong and so was he. I was just an easy fuck and I feel for a fucker like him.

Notes

Party next chapter, thoughts on what might happen?

Comments

OH MY GOD YESSS

ashleywinter ashleywinter
2/16/16

OH MY GOD YESSS

ashleywinter ashleywinter
2/16/16

OMG THIS IS SO MUCH!!!! WHAT NOOOOO!! OMG NO, I JUST CAN'T!!! JACKS GONNA BE A MESS!!!

Alex_thelion99 Alex_thelion99
2/10/16

omg! what was on the door?! and no Alex can't move!!!!

Alex_thelion99 Alex_thelion99
2/10/16

This is just awesome

ashleywinter ashleywinter
2/7/16