Jack’s P.O.V

It has been two weeks since I saw Alex in the hospital. He finally got realised yesterday. There was some complications with the stitching from his womb. He was sleeping and moved wrong while he was and opened it up again.

But today was his first day back on campus and he seemed very worried. He was always looking behind himself as he walked to our room. I walked behind him and every time he looked at me, a small, shy smile crawled upon his face. And once we entered the room, he walked to his bed, sat down and put his hands over his face.

‘Alex, are you okay?’ I questioned while walking in his direction.

‘Yeah, I am fine. It’s just all overwhelming, you know. I just don’t feel like going to class and doing anything.’ Alex said.

‘Mr Stevens said that you are able to stay out of classes until you feel comfortable to go back.’ I said sitting next to him putting my arm around his shoulders.

‘That is good to know. I may lie down for a little while now. And if you don’t mind, I would like to be alone.’ Alex said, moving from my embrace and lying down on the bed.

‘Okay, I am going to head to class.’ I said. I got up and moved to my side of the room, packing my bag with all the things I needed for the lessons ahead.

I picked my bag up, placing it on my shoulder before walking for the door, I couldn’t help but look over to Alex who was facing the wall, arms wrapped around his chest and his breathing a little fast. Once I opened the door and exited the room, I closed the door, which led to Alex making a big loud cry, which made me only frown at myself for leaving him. But he asked to be alone, and I will respect his request.

I walked to my first class trying to keep a positive mind but I can think about anything else then that one time I found Tyler. What if Alex is like Tyler, and I find him like that. I will cry so much. I love Alex a lot more then what I loved Tyler. I really do.

I walked into my first class and watched as everyone looked at me, watching my every step until I sat down in my seat. They talked among themselves, I heard mentions of Alex and sometimes my name, which made me feel so insecure.

‘Have you all got nothing else to talk about?’ Rian said as he walked into the room. He smiled softly to me and made his way over to me. Zack followed him over and they both sat down in the seats in front of me. They turned to face me and smile at me, sympathetically.

‘How’s he doing?’ Zack asked.

‘He is very overwhelmed. I left the room and he cried. And I felt so bad for leaving him, but he wanted to be alone, and I can’t help but not think about that time with Tyler.’ I said, looking at them both.

‘He won’t. Alex is strong. He wouldn’t. It’ll be okay Jack.’ Rian said. I frowned at him and wished that I believed him.

Alex’s P.O.V

I woke up from my sleep to find that my eyes were stinging, indicating that I fell asleep crying, again. I hated that I was like this and I hated that I wanted to feel more pain. I can feel the depression which has been closed off for such a long time, slowly showing itself again.

I slowly got up from my bed, looking over the other side of the room, hoping to see Jack sitting on his bed, smiling as he noticed that I noticed him. He would come over to me, hug me, kiss me and tell me that he missed me and the he didn’t want to leave me. But that wasn’t the case.

I walked to the door and opened it, walking out and closing the door again. I needed to go for a walk and seeing as I fell asleep in my clothes, and even my shoes, I didn’t need to change. I fixed my hair as I walked to the back of the school. I am glad that Jack showed me this spot. I needed to sit and think.

I crawled through the fence but without pain running through my body. I walked to the log and sat myself down, looking at the river below. The water had risen and my shoes were hitting the top on the water. We must have had a lot of rain while I was in hospital. Seeing as we are in spring.

I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the river and frowned. I had such a bruised face still, the doctor said my nose was broken and that my jaw was close to being broken. I was afraid to lift up my shirt to find the masterpiece under there.

My thoughts were running wild that I couldn’t hold onto one thought. That’s when I started to think about Jack. The first kiss we shared to the time when he told me that he loved me. And honestly, now that I think about it, do I really love him…

Notes

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