Stupid and Fearless
Dedication
“Jack! Open up.” I call as I knock his hotel room door with my foot.
“No.” He grumbles.
“I have Taco Bell.” I roll my eyes.
It’s quiet for a moment. I hear the faint click of the door being unlocked and opened. He opens it a crack, peeking at me to make sure I was telling the truth. He sighs and opens the door, letting me in.
I take in the scene in front of me, a little disgusted. There are beer bottles and an empty bottle of Fireball Whiskey lying on the floor. Jack is clad in nothing but a pair of grey boxers.
“Lookin’ good bud.” I grin sarcastically, teasing him.
“What do you want?” He grumbles, snatching the bag of tacos out of my hand.
“You’re welcome.” I frown. “I didn’t have to bring you any food.”
“Yes you did. You know you did. Otherwise you wouldn’t have been allowed in to begin with.” He says with a mouthful of food.
“True.” I sigh. “Look this whole thing with Jamie is crazy. She really cares about you Jack.”
He scoffs. “I’m sure she does. She really cared when she hooked up with that creep.”
“Jesus, Jack. Don’t be so mean about this.”
“Well what the hell Diana!” He shouts, standing up. “The girl of my dreams hooked up with another guy while I was obsessing over her every damn night. There were so many times I could have brought a girl home but I didn’t want to because they weren’t her! They didn’t have her soft lips. Their smile wasn’t flawless, contagious. Their eyes didn’t light up like a goddamn Christmas tree every time they saw me. They sure as hell didn’t blush and look away every time I complimented them. No one compares!”
“Jack.” My heart breaks. “I’m so sorry. She cares about you, I swear she does.”
“Then why did she hook up with him? ALL I can think about now is what made him so special? Did he even care about her? I swear to god Diana it makes me want to throw up when I think of someone else having sex with her. It makes me want to kill that guy for using her like that. I guarantee he doesn’t give two shits about the birthmark she has on her lower back. I bet he doesn’t care about the way she sings. I know for a fact he didn’t care about her the way I do.”
“I agree with you. He didn’t care. She didn’t care about him either Jack. It was some meaningless, angry, drunken fuck. It was a mistake and she admits that.” I touch his arm softly.
He jerks away from me. “She doesn’t care Diana. I’m not going to sit here and act like she does.”
“Stop. She does care about you. She was bawling her eyes out when I went to see her this morning. Jamie made a mistake. She’s only human Jack. She figured when you left her behind, that you were done with her. She was really hurt and retaliated in a stupid way. Can you blame her? Put yourself in her shoes. Let’s say you fall in love with the handsome Jack Barakat-“
“I am in love with the handsome Jack Barakat.” He rolls his eyes.
“Okay. Well imagine you are Jamie in love with you. Jack decides to leave you before he leaves for tour, not wanting the stress of a relationship. The problem is, you really liked Jack. Then, you see Alex take his girlfriend and you feel not good enough. If Alex can bring his girlfriend, why can’t Jack? So Jack leaves without another word on tour where hundreds of girls are throwing themselves at him. Would you really just sit around at home and wait for him to call?” I counter.
He sits there for a moment quietly. “She was crying this morning?”
“Like hell.” I sigh. “She wouldn’t stop. She really, really likes you Jack. She feels horrible for all of this.”
“Did she hurt herself over this?” Jack asks me quietly.
“What do you mean?” I hedge, not wanting to say anything.
Jack shoots me an exasperated glare. “You know what I mean.”
“You should go talk to her.” I whisper.
Jack jumps up and leaves, not bothering to put on any clothes. I let out a long breath, emotionally exhausted. I make my way back to my hotel room and walk in, only to find Alex still asleep. I take all of my clothes off and crawl into bed next to him. I try not to wake him, genuinely wanting to sleep but before I can close my eyes, I feel his lips on my neck.
“You are so beautiful.” He murmurs softly.
“Mmmm.” Is about all I can come up with. His soft lips are nipping at my neck, causing my thoughts to float anywhere but sleep.
His hands roam over my bare stomach and tickle my lower abdomen. I jerk back from the feeling and crush myself against Alex’s chest. He holds me closely as he kisses my jawline, then my neck, and down to my shoulders. His hand rests gently on my hip, pressing into the skin every now and then.
I turn around to face him and find him grinning at me.
“What?” I ask cautiously.
“It’s just surreal. I’m in bed with a beautiful naked woman who is now my fiancé. She loves me, and I love her. I’m so happy.” He shrugs.
“Well I am too.” I smile and kiss him.
I hitch my leg around Alex’s waist, locking my bare body to his.
“Baaabeee.” Alex groans. “We can’t.”
“Why not?” I pout.
“Because checkout is in about…15 minutes.” He laughs.
“If I take only 5 minutes to pack, that gives us 10 minutes.” I grin. “Think that’s enough time?”
I reach down and slide his boxers off of his waist while I kiss his neck. Alex flips me over on my back and glares down at me, his eyes clouded with lust.
“That’s plenty of time.”
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“Everyone ready?” Alex calls out.
The guys whoop and holler, excited to be back on the road. Jamie and I relax in the back lounge, letting the guys talk about the concert tonight.
“Everything back to normal?” I ask Jamie as I shut the door.
“Pretty much. We still aren’t 100% obviously, but we are back on track.” She smiles. “I can’t thank you enough Di. Seriously, you saved us.”
“It’s not biggie. He did ask about you hurting yourself though.” I admit.
“Yeah I know. He basically kicked down my door after you talked to him. He demanded to see my wrists. I couldn’t stop crying when I showed him and that’s when he broke. He just held me and let me cry. He said he was sorry and wanted to work through this. But damn, I really wish I could take back that stupid fucking night.” She sighs.
“You can’t though. All you can do is make up for it now.” I shrug.
The door to the lounge opens and Jack walks in. He doesn’t say anything as he walks towards us. He leans down and kisses Jamie for about 5 seconds, and then just leaves.
“LOVE YOU TOO JACK.” I call out jokingly.
The door flies open and it’s Jack again. This time he walks up to me and sits on my lap. He slings an arm around my shoulder and kisses my cheek so hard, it actually hurts. He stands up and walks back to the main part of the bus.
“Better?” He asks with his hand on the doorknob.
“Much.” I smile and he closes the door.
Jamie and I laugh. “What a dork.” She giggles.
“But he’s your dork.” I remind her.
“Yeah.” She sighs dreamily. “My dork.”
We talk for about an hour about nothing in particular. Jack came in about 3 times during that hour, just to give Jamie a kiss. It was cute, as if he couldn’t get enough of her. At first, I was jealous. Then I realized I’m the one with a rock on my finger so really she should be jealous if anything. Jamie excuses herself to the bathroom and within seconds, Alex is in the back room shutting the door behind him.
“Finally.” He groans.
“Can I help you?” I cock an eyebrow.
“That depends, will you let me hold you?” His eyes twinkle.
“Yes.” I giggle.
“Then yes, yes you can help me.” Alex waltzes over to me happily.
He slips an arm around my shoulders and one beneath my knees, pulling me up and onto his lap. He stretches his legs in front of him, resting them on the seats.
“I wanted to come back here so many times. I just wanted to be alone with you though.” He kisses my cheek.
“We can go cuddle in your bunk if you want.” I suggest.
“Are you sure?” I can hear the excitement in his voice.
I go to slip off of his lap but his arms tighten around me. He stands up, carrying me bridal style out of the lounge and back to the bunks. We pile into his bunk before anyone can say anything and cuddle up to each other under his blanket. His arms wrap tightly around my body as our legs tangle.
“Pay attention tonight.” Alex murmurs while stroking my hair. “I’m dedicating a song to you.”
“Which?” I ask him softly.
It’s quiet for a moment and then I realize Alex fell asleep.
“No.” He grumbles.
“I have Taco Bell.” I roll my eyes.
It’s quiet for a moment. I hear the faint click of the door being unlocked and opened. He opens it a crack, peeking at me to make sure I was telling the truth. He sighs and opens the door, letting me in.
I take in the scene in front of me, a little disgusted. There are beer bottles and an empty bottle of Fireball Whiskey lying on the floor. Jack is clad in nothing but a pair of grey boxers.
“Lookin’ good bud.” I grin sarcastically, teasing him.
“What do you want?” He grumbles, snatching the bag of tacos out of my hand.
“You’re welcome.” I frown. “I didn’t have to bring you any food.”
“Yes you did. You know you did. Otherwise you wouldn’t have been allowed in to begin with.” He says with a mouthful of food.
“True.” I sigh. “Look this whole thing with Jamie is crazy. She really cares about you Jack.”
He scoffs. “I’m sure she does. She really cared when she hooked up with that creep.”
“Jesus, Jack. Don’t be so mean about this.”
“Well what the hell Diana!” He shouts, standing up. “The girl of my dreams hooked up with another guy while I was obsessing over her every damn night. There were so many times I could have brought a girl home but I didn’t want to because they weren’t her! They didn’t have her soft lips. Their smile wasn’t flawless, contagious. Their eyes didn’t light up like a goddamn Christmas tree every time they saw me. They sure as hell didn’t blush and look away every time I complimented them. No one compares!”
“Jack.” My heart breaks. “I’m so sorry. She cares about you, I swear she does.”
“Then why did she hook up with him? ALL I can think about now is what made him so special? Did he even care about her? I swear to god Diana it makes me want to throw up when I think of someone else having sex with her. It makes me want to kill that guy for using her like that. I guarantee he doesn’t give two shits about the birthmark she has on her lower back. I bet he doesn’t care about the way she sings. I know for a fact he didn’t care about her the way I do.”
“I agree with you. He didn’t care. She didn’t care about him either Jack. It was some meaningless, angry, drunken fuck. It was a mistake and she admits that.” I touch his arm softly.
He jerks away from me. “She doesn’t care Diana. I’m not going to sit here and act like she does.”
“Stop. She does care about you. She was bawling her eyes out when I went to see her this morning. Jamie made a mistake. She’s only human Jack. She figured when you left her behind, that you were done with her. She was really hurt and retaliated in a stupid way. Can you blame her? Put yourself in her shoes. Let’s say you fall in love with the handsome Jack Barakat-“
“I am in love with the handsome Jack Barakat.” He rolls his eyes.
“Okay. Well imagine you are Jamie in love with you. Jack decides to leave you before he leaves for tour, not wanting the stress of a relationship. The problem is, you really liked Jack. Then, you see Alex take his girlfriend and you feel not good enough. If Alex can bring his girlfriend, why can’t Jack? So Jack leaves without another word on tour where hundreds of girls are throwing themselves at him. Would you really just sit around at home and wait for him to call?” I counter.
He sits there for a moment quietly. “She was crying this morning?”
“Like hell.” I sigh. “She wouldn’t stop. She really, really likes you Jack. She feels horrible for all of this.”
“Did she hurt herself over this?” Jack asks me quietly.
“What do you mean?” I hedge, not wanting to say anything.
Jack shoots me an exasperated glare. “You know what I mean.”
“You should go talk to her.” I whisper.
Jack jumps up and leaves, not bothering to put on any clothes. I let out a long breath, emotionally exhausted. I make my way back to my hotel room and walk in, only to find Alex still asleep. I take all of my clothes off and crawl into bed next to him. I try not to wake him, genuinely wanting to sleep but before I can close my eyes, I feel his lips on my neck.
“You are so beautiful.” He murmurs softly.
“Mmmm.” Is about all I can come up with. His soft lips are nipping at my neck, causing my thoughts to float anywhere but sleep.
His hands roam over my bare stomach and tickle my lower abdomen. I jerk back from the feeling and crush myself against Alex’s chest. He holds me closely as he kisses my jawline, then my neck, and down to my shoulders. His hand rests gently on my hip, pressing into the skin every now and then.
I turn around to face him and find him grinning at me.
“What?” I ask cautiously.
“It’s just surreal. I’m in bed with a beautiful naked woman who is now my fiancé. She loves me, and I love her. I’m so happy.” He shrugs.
“Well I am too.” I smile and kiss him.
I hitch my leg around Alex’s waist, locking my bare body to his.
“Baaabeee.” Alex groans. “We can’t.”
“Why not?” I pout.
“Because checkout is in about…15 minutes.” He laughs.
“If I take only 5 minutes to pack, that gives us 10 minutes.” I grin. “Think that’s enough time?”
I reach down and slide his boxers off of his waist while I kiss his neck. Alex flips me over on my back and glares down at me, his eyes clouded with lust.
“That’s plenty of time.”
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“Everyone ready?” Alex calls out.
The guys whoop and holler, excited to be back on the road. Jamie and I relax in the back lounge, letting the guys talk about the concert tonight.
“Everything back to normal?” I ask Jamie as I shut the door.
“Pretty much. We still aren’t 100% obviously, but we are back on track.” She smiles. “I can’t thank you enough Di. Seriously, you saved us.”
“It’s not biggie. He did ask about you hurting yourself though.” I admit.
“Yeah I know. He basically kicked down my door after you talked to him. He demanded to see my wrists. I couldn’t stop crying when I showed him and that’s when he broke. He just held me and let me cry. He said he was sorry and wanted to work through this. But damn, I really wish I could take back that stupid fucking night.” She sighs.
“You can’t though. All you can do is make up for it now.” I shrug.
The door to the lounge opens and Jack walks in. He doesn’t say anything as he walks towards us. He leans down and kisses Jamie for about 5 seconds, and then just leaves.
“LOVE YOU TOO JACK.” I call out jokingly.
The door flies open and it’s Jack again. This time he walks up to me and sits on my lap. He slings an arm around my shoulder and kisses my cheek so hard, it actually hurts. He stands up and walks back to the main part of the bus.
“Better?” He asks with his hand on the doorknob.
“Much.” I smile and he closes the door.
Jamie and I laugh. “What a dork.” She giggles.
“But he’s your dork.” I remind her.
“Yeah.” She sighs dreamily. “My dork.”
We talk for about an hour about nothing in particular. Jack came in about 3 times during that hour, just to give Jamie a kiss. It was cute, as if he couldn’t get enough of her. At first, I was jealous. Then I realized I’m the one with a rock on my finger so really she should be jealous if anything. Jamie excuses herself to the bathroom and within seconds, Alex is in the back room shutting the door behind him.
“Finally.” He groans.
“Can I help you?” I cock an eyebrow.
“That depends, will you let me hold you?” His eyes twinkle.
“Yes.” I giggle.
“Then yes, yes you can help me.” Alex waltzes over to me happily.
He slips an arm around my shoulders and one beneath my knees, pulling me up and onto his lap. He stretches his legs in front of him, resting them on the seats.
“I wanted to come back here so many times. I just wanted to be alone with you though.” He kisses my cheek.
“We can go cuddle in your bunk if you want.” I suggest.
“Are you sure?” I can hear the excitement in his voice.
I go to slip off of his lap but his arms tighten around me. He stands up, carrying me bridal style out of the lounge and back to the bunks. We pile into his bunk before anyone can say anything and cuddle up to each other under his blanket. His arms wrap tightly around my body as our legs tangle.
“Pay attention tonight.” Alex murmurs while stroking my hair. “I’m dedicating a song to you.”
“Which?” I ask him softly.
It’s quiet for a moment and then I realize Alex fell asleep.
So I stumbled across the first installment of this and started reading. Needless to say, I'm all caught up and just finished with what you had of this second installment. This story is so cute and I really love it.
If you ever find yourself writing for it again, I will be here to read. I think these characters deserve an ending. <3 Some ideas you could work with is writing a chapter with what song exactly he chose to dedicate to her (the fact that that is where it left off is killing me) as well as maybe approaching how the fans react to their relationship. At the very beginning you brought up the fact of either keeping it hidden or putting it out there, but it was never approached again, so that may be something to approach if you continue with this, which I really hope you do. Like will the relationship still be hidden? And if so, what kind of toll would it take on them? Just a thought or idea to maybe inspire you to continue this, since it seemed like you were struggling with writer's block.
But if you don't continue, I just wanted to leave a comment letting you know I really enjoyed what you have of this. You're a really great writer. Just wanted to show you that people like me are still stumbling across this story and enjoying it. :) Once again, I will be one reader here if you ever choose to continue.
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