There's A Ghost In This Room

I am an idiot.
I'm a complete idiot for even letting Bethany talk me into meeting her mom, yesterday.
I mean, I had some nerve showing up there!
“Oh hey, I'm the boy who managed to destroy your marriage and break apart your entire family, and make everyone depressed. But it was only because I was shy! Ha-ha!”
That's basically what I was saying to her, and she has every right to hate my guts for it. I just couldn't think up a better lie.
Obviously I couldn't tell her the truth: that “I'm actually a ghost and I made myself visible to your daughter in your backyard and so she's basically been friends with a dead boy her entire life but you've never been able to see me and it caused your lives to go all downhill! Funny story, right??”
I am beyond stressed out about the whole situation. That's never a good thing. When I get too stressed, something…happens.
Like an episode, of a sort. And I don't mean panic attacks.
I don't want to think about it now though, because if I think about it too much, it starts to happen.
I don't want to talk to anyone either, because in my stressed state, it gets hard to control my emotions; and I could completely blow up on someone, and also have the episode soon after.
And let's just say…it's a very inhumane sight to see. Something that'll get me killed, for sure.
I walked to my classes with my hood over my head, and I avoided everyone's glares. In class, I didn't answer any questions; just kept my head down. My teachers knew that it was unusual of me, and assumed that I was sick, so they left me alone.
At lunch, I stayed in my chemistry class, so I could avoid having to socialize with Ashlynn and all of them. I felt a little bit bad about it, but I felt even worse about leaving Bethany alone.
And it's not like I'm actually ready to tell her why I'm acting this way, because it has a lot to do with my past; and that's always a touchy subject for me. So she won't understand, and I won't be able to explain it to her, and then she'll be really mad at me.
And now, I'm even more stressed.
Fuck.
In my next two classes with Beth, she didn't even bother to look my way.
Yep, she was totally mad at me.
Fuck fuck fuck.
Throughout our math class, I had my head down; but I could hear Zack in the background. He was teasing someone.
But it wasn't Bethany. If it was, I would've kicked his ass, but no..he was teasing someone else. And he was being super harsh about it.
I wasn't going to interfere though, with this problem I'm having, but I really wish I could've.
When the bell rang, I looked up and saw that Zack and his jock friends had stood up and were smirking deviously at this little scrawny kid with cool hair.
But the guy looked scared out of his mind.
He shakily grabbed his bag and ran out of the classroom; the jocks laughed and ran after him.
Apparently our teacher had stepped out of the classroom, so she wasn't there to protest the rest of the class running out of the door and screaming: “FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!”
I exchanged a glance with Bethany who looked equally shocked. But she was also…scared. She must be feeling scared for that boy.
I followed after the group of people out into the side courtyard that led you out into the parking lot.
Everyone was in a circle and chanting, and taking their phones out to record.
I pushed through the crowd, and saw that the jocks had grabbed the boy and held back his arms, while Zack shoved his fist hard into his gut; causing him to cough and cry out in pain.
This angered me to no end, and I couldn't possibly just stand there and watch like all of these heartless people!
My emotions were flying all over the place at this point, and I couldn't stop myself when I ran into the circle and shoved Zack to the ground.
The whole crowd went silent.
Zack looked up in shock, but when he saw who I was, he started getting up, while letting out a bitter laugh.
“Oh hey, it's Mr. Gaskank to the rescue! You just like to stand up for all the losers now, huh?” He chuckled in my face, as he was standing chest to chest with me to seem intimidating.
“Shut the fuck up, Zack. I'm fucking warning you right now.” I muttered so only he could hear.
“I'm not afraid of you, pretty boy. If you're gonna do something, then do it.”
He shoved me in the chest, causing my anger to rise more and more.
“Go ahead Gaskank. Make your move!” He yelled in my face, pushing me again.
I couldn't contain myself anymore, and I tackled him to the ground and began throwing the hardest punches that I possibly could.
The jocks ran over and tried to pull me off and hit me, but I dodged their punches, and shoved them both to the ground with ease.
Completely enraged, I started attacking one of them; throwing punches until I felt a crack in their nose, then running over to the other and kicking them in the gut.
The crowd was gasping in shock, and some even started cheering again.
I couldn't possibly stop myself; that was until I heard a voice scream out that was more distinctive to me than the others.
“ALEX, STOP! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!”
I stopped and turned around to see Bethany, looking at me with such shock and fright written all over her face.
What the fuck am I doing? What just happened? She thinks I'm a fucking monster, now!
I looked around at all the shocked faces around me, and I froze.
I suddenly couldn't breathe, and I could feel the liquid rising up my throat, and I felt my hair getting wet; and my vision blurring a little.
Shit. My episode. It was happening.
No no no. There's so many people. Not here, not now!!
Bethany’s eyes started widening even more, and her mouth was agape with confusion.
“A-Alex??”
And with that, I turned and ran away as fast as I could; off the school campus, through the woods, and then disappeared to Shadowland, where I could finish in peace.

Notes

Hey, sorry I've become such a horrible updater.
I was so busy enjoying my gifts and reading a bunch of fanfictions, that I forgot I needed to write lol.
Right now, I only have one chapter pre-written, so it's all catching up to me and I really need to get on it.
Especially since I've decided to start writing a Jalex, and I spent all of yesterday planning the whole thing out. I would really REALLY suck at writing two fics at the same time, but since this story will have a sequel, I might as well just start the Jalex. I don't know exactly when I'll start actually writing it..I guess when I have more of this pre-written.

Hope everyone had a fun Christmas! And New Years will be pretty cool too!

Thanks! :)

Title cred: Painting Flowers- All Time Low