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I'm not sure if I'll keep this chapter up, but here we go...

Hey everyone. Sorry that it's taking so long to update. I've been getting better, but I'm still a little anxious.

Long story short, I had this opportunity to do something that quite a few people would've jumped at without questioning it. Some people in my family thought that it would be good for me to do it. But the problem was that my heart wasn't in it. I didn't feel like I belonged. Don't get me wrong, if I was feeling 100 percent better, I probably would've taken it.

I just feel like I'm not sure about who I am or what I want to do with my life just yet, and one of my biggest fears is that I'll never figure those things out.

I know that I haven't really let myself or anyone else down because I backed out. I'll still have more opportunities later on. But for right now, I just want to pretend like today never happened.

Another problem is that I really don't have very many friends right now. All of the people I knew are at different colleges and I'm pretty alone right now. And you want to know a secret? I've never actually had a real best friend. Every time I thought that I had one, they always left me eventually, when they found a bigger group of more outgoing friends.

The opportunity I had could've helped me with that, but like I said, my heart wasn't in it and I'm going through a rough patch right now. It's just really bad timing. I just wish that I wasn't regretting it right now.

Anyways, I'm sorry for bothering you with all of that. The next chapter will be up soon.

Have a lovely day/ afternoon/ evening/ night!

-Anna

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