I slowly awoke from my slumber and something didn't feel right. I had an arm wrapped around my torso and my head was laying on a flat chest that was covered by a shirt. What the hell? My eyes fluttered opened and widen when I seen the sight in front of me. I was cuddling with Jack. A fucking dude. I sat up quickly rubbing my head and made my way out of the bed. Jack was still lying there with his head on the pillow, his arms now laying on the sheets. I stared at the ground and walked out of his room.

I was fucking cuddling with a fucking boy. A boy! What the hell was I thinking? Obviously nothing. Don’t get me wrong, I have no problem with gay people but it changes when a gay guy cuddles you. Actually, I only have myself to blame. I was cuddling with him. I got caught up in the moment that’s what happened! I was scared and he was the only one there to comfort me. Nothing more.

“Hey, you okay?” I heard his voice say snapping me out of my thoughts, making me jump slightly. I turned around and seen Jack staring at me.
“U-uh, y-yeah.” I stuttered. Nice going Alex. He raised his left eyebrow in disbelief and I sighed. “I’m not gay.” Jack laughed and said, “that what this is about? The only reason we were cuddling was because you were scared.”
“Don’t try and blame this on me!” I screamed making Jack jump in surprise. I don’t know why I was screaming. Maybe because he was getting in and I don’t want him to.
“Woah, u-uh, I w-wasn’t b-blaming anything on y-y-you.” He stuttered nervously.
“I’m not gay!” I screamed randomly.
“Alex, I-I know. I was just trying to help and comfort you.” He apologized. I know I was being mean but I couldn’t help it. I needed to push him away, he is getting to close. I didn’t want to push him away but I had to.
“I don’t want your fucking help.” I gritted through my teeth I walked up to him and put my finger on his bony chest. “You tell anyone and you are so dead.”

I ran to his room, grabbed my bag and tired getting out the door of his bedroom but he blocked it with his body. Damn he is so tall.
“Jack, move.” I said angrily trying to push him away.
“No, there is no reason to act like this. I know that it may have weirded you out but don’t you dare blame this on me. I was just trying to help out a friend.” Jack said quietly.
“We are not friends and we never will be.” I snapped. If I could take back the words I said I would have. Right as I said that, his face dropped. He looked at the ground and moved from the door not making eye contact. I wanted to apologize but I couldn’t. I just pushed him even though he wasn’t in the way and stormed out of his house.

I stormed along the sidewalk to my house with my backpack over my shoulder. After a short walk off hating myself and shedding a few tears, I arrived at a place called ‘home.’ But it wasn’t even close to being a home.

I walked in and seen Evan and Lacey sitting on the leather couch watching some show, Mom was in the kitchen and Dad stood right by the door waiting for me.

“Where have you been?” He whispered so no one heard.
“I’m s-sorry, I was studying with a frie- with my tutor.” I said in a normal speaking voice so everyone looked at me.
“I was so worried, you didn’t call.” Dad said. He didn’t mean it I know he didn’t, he only said it because the family was watching. I looked over at Evan and he raised his eyebrows in confusion. I guess he seen I had been crying.
“I got you something, come up stairs and I’ll show it to you.” Dad smiled sickly. I shook my head no and grabbed my arm. “Come on.”

He pulled me up the steps and pushed me into my room, locking the door. “How dare you!” He screamed. “You had your mom worrying all night!” He screamed. “I-I’m sorry. It w-won’t happen a-again.”
“I don’t believe you.” He muttered pushing me, making me slam my back on the point of my desk. I held in a scream and grabbed my back.
“I’m letting you off easy today. Don’t do it again.” He spat in my face before punching me in the chest: hard. It knocked the breath out of me. He walked out of my room and slammed the door. After he left I toppled to the ground and wished for it all to be over.

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Sunday morning came and I laid in bed in pain and wallowing in self-pity. I probably look disgusting. Last night I checked to see if I had any bruises. I had a small one from where he punched me and a big one on my back. I shut my eyes and tried forgetting about everything for a while.

“Alex?” I heard Cassie say. I opened my eyes slowly from the brightness in the room. She was standing at my door looking at me.
“What are you doing here?” I asked her sitting up. She walked over to me and sat on my lap.
“I texted and called you and you didn’t answer, I got worried. I seen you Dad wasn’t home so I came up.” She said quietly so no one else heard.
“It’s just been a long weekend.” I mumbled resting my forehead against hers. She kissed my lips quickly and looked me in the eye.
“What happened?”
“Well, you know Jack, Jack Barakat?” I asked.
“Evan’s friends Jack?” She questioned making sure.
“Yeah, him. Well y’know that he’s gay right?”
“Yeah who doesn't know.” She laughed.
“Well, he’s my tutor and I went over to his house on Saturday because he was helping me with homework. Well I didn’t understand it even after hours of studying. We took a break and it started storming…”
“Oh, Alex…” Cassie sighed. She knew I was terrified of storms.
“Well, I got scared and he was the only one there and I got caught up in the moment and I was hugging him because I was scared and we fell asleep like that.”
“I don’t see what the problem is?” She said raising her eyebrows.
“Well, in the morning. I kinda freaked out and yelled at him and told him that we would never be friends. You should have seen the look on his face…” I whispered the last part.
“Why did you yell? Like I know you freaked out but why?” She asked. I honestly didn’t even know the answer, I guess I was just scared.
“I guess I just didn’t want him to see the real me.” I sighed.
“That didn’t give you a reason to scream at him like that. He was just trying to be nice. Try and talk to him Monday before practice, the guys won’t be around.” Cassie suggested. I laid my head back on my headboard and sighed.
“What if he gets in?”
“What are you talking about?”
“What if Jack, like, gets to close and knows everything that you know.” I sighed. Cassie thought for a minute but then said, “would that be such a bad thing?”
“Yes it would!” I screamed startling her.
“You're just scared!” She shouted back, still sitting on me.
“Of what?” I asked getting calmer.
“That you may start developing feelings for him.” She said calmly. I just stared at her for a moment. Is she right? Was I scared of developing feelings for Jack?
“I am not gay.” I mumbled more to myself than her. “I’m with you.”
“I know, just make up with him tomorrow, alright? Being friends with a guy who kisses guys doesn’t make you gay.”
“I’ll try and talk to him tomorrow, thank you, Cassie. I love you.” I smiled at the blonde girl in my lap.
“I love you too, don’t worry, everything will work its way out.” She said and then kissed me passionately.

Notes

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