All I'll Ever Need

~Jack's POV~

I looked down to find Alex sleeping peacefully on my chest. His coffee colored hair a mess and his caramel eyes closed. A smile formed on my face as I looked down at the sleeping
boy that laid on my chest. I leaned down and said quietly into his hair "We can fix each other. Both of us can help each other stop." if only I could say it when he was awake, but I have to be strong for Alex. He needs me after what his father has done to him for years now his soul is shattered and I need to help fix him.

I slowly stood slipped out from under Alex's grip and picked him up bridal style. He felt so light, all most sickly light. I would make sure I saw him eat because I need to make sure he isn't anorexic or something like that. I wouldn't throw him out if he was it would make me want to help him even more. I made my way up stairs and to his room and laid him on his bed slowly. Bringing the covers up to his neck and basically tuck him into bed like my mom use to do to me when I was younger.

The thought of my mother brought tears to my eyes which I quickly blinked away, as I left the room turning the light off and taking one last glance at Alex before I left. I made my way quietly to my room, shutting the door behind me. I glanced around my room before sliding down the back of my door. Tears that I had been holding the whole time while trying to be strong for Alex.

How could I not know that he self harmed. We have been best friends since we were six. Yet I couldn't tell he was hurting so bad that he had to take the pain out on himself. I stood up walking over to my dresser before opening the top drawer, I pulled out a little wooden box that was hidden in the very back of the drawer. I opened the small box and looked in it to see that 7 little blades still laid perfectly on the red velvet lining of the box. Light from the moon that shown through the window hit the little blades perfectly causing them to sparkle in the darkness of my room.

I slowly took on of the blades from the small box before I sliding my jeans off, and sliding the bottom of my boxers up and reveling the little patch of scars that has been growing for the past two years. I slowly took the small blade in between my index and thumb and sliding it across the small patch of scared skin.

One for being gay
Two for loving my best friend
Three for not seeing his pain
Four for good luck

I looked down to see the small crimson red droplets begin to roll down my thigh before finally hitting the floor. I sat and watched the blood roll down my pale skin. This was sick, me sitting making and watching myself bleed.

No you are sick, and disgusting no wonder your parents left you. Your only lucky Alex is broken and not thinking right or he would be gone just like your parents

No he wouldn't do that to me, we are best friends.

By this time the tears had come back and I was crying again. I looked down to see that the blood had dried and had darkened creating even more contrast against my pale skin. I stood up and walked to my bathroom and washed the blood from my thigh.

I made my way to my bedroom and got changed into my pajamas before slowly making my way into bed. My dreams were filled with my parents and Alex.

~Alex's POV~

I woke up in a bed no clue where I was. I began to panic until I remembered I was at Jack's house. I slowly began to go back to breathing normal. I went and picked up my phone and checked my Facebook. I had 3 new messages so I clicked to see what they were, but immediately wished I hadn't.

Taylor: Why haven't you killed you killed yourself already fag.
Jacob: He probably cant even do that right.
Mat: Maybe me and the guys can go give the fag a hand with it.

I broke down in tears and cried for a while until I felt a pair of arms around me, I began to struggle until I saw it was Jack. I melted into his touch crying into his chest for the second time in less than 24 hours. We sat there me crying for a good hour.

I looked up at Jack and saw that he was staring down at me a smile plastered to his face. " I'm sorry that I've been crying so much." I said quietly looking at the ground again. "Its fine now we are staying home today because I think that we need a day off from all of this craziness. Do you agree?" I smiles nodding slowly. He helped me stand up and we made our way downstairs.

As we ate I looked over at Jack and saw that he had a huge smile plastered to his face. That's when I realized that I loved see that smile it was so adorable, and I hated seeing him frown. No Alex your not gay you were already kicked out of one home because of that you wont do it here to.

We spent the whole day talking and cuddling on the couch watching Adventure time. And as bad as it sounds this was one of the best days I have had in years just being able to not worry about what my father is going to next was amazing. Then being able to hand out with Jack who I may or may not have a small crush on was amazing.

Notes

Hey there peeps I hoped you enjoyed this story so far. It has been fun to write and Im loving the feed back that I have gotten so that you all. Please correct any mistakes I may have (defiantly) made :). Have a good day my lovelys<333

~Ashley~