And never did I think that I
Would be caught in the way you got me
But boys love boys and girls
And love is not a choice


Jack’s heart was pounding furiously in his chest against Alex’s own. They were finally a couple and this made him feel very happy, but at the same time very scared. He was willing to commit to this relationship whole-heartedly, but due to his past relationship he didn’t know if the other person was willing to do so as well. Yet, Alex didn’t seem like the kind of guy that would just lead Jack on and then leave him. He was the one to ask Jack to be his boyfriend and he was the one thinking about it. Then again Lisa also felt like the kind of girl that was willing to commit at first.

People change sadly. Their thought process changes and their moralities differ from that of the other person. Their priorities change, and their emotions distort. Lisa was a great girlfriend for the first year of their relationship Jack remembers, but she did somewhat change after their relationship began to last and grow. He always thought her as perfect, but maybe he was blinded. Blinded because no one had noticed him at school. He was always the lanky, lonely band nerd with glasses and a bad haircut that sat by himself in the courtyard every morning and during lunch.

Freshman year was his loneliest because his best and only friend Zack moved to California during the summer. So he was back to being alone again. It didn’t bother him much, he was always used to being alone. Never really interested in having friends or the drama that came with them. Instead, he spent most of his time drawing, reading, or listening to music. Of course, it did get somewhat bothersome and lonely not having anyone to hang out with. Yet Jack was able mange through that. Watching everyday go by before him.

Late September, he remembered siting in his algebra class, taking down notes on graphs and slopes when he saw the new girl walk in. She was really cute of course, medium blonde hair that wasn’t her natural color, a somewhat curvy body that still had some work to do, and big brown eyes. Jack would be lying if he said he didn’t like her the first day he met her. She was assigned the seat next to his own in the far left, way in the back of the classroom. He didn’t know how he felt about her sitting right next to him. She was so cute and so attractive. It’d be shame if he did something stupid right in front of her and not be able to cover up his mistakes and embarrass himself.

The girl thought Jack was really weird looking, in a different way. He wasn’t buff or manly. He was just a lanky kid with long hair, a big nose, and glasses that were too big for his frame. She thought Jack was the weirdest person she’d ever laid her eyes on. But, she needed a friend. Plus, he looked smart enough to know what he was doing. So making friends with him was crucial for her to pass algebra.

“Hi.” She nudged Jack.

“H-hey.” The lanky teen was taken aback by the fact she was talking to him.

“I’m Lisa.” She smiled sweetly.

“Jack.” He smiled back. Extending his arm to shake her hand thinking it was the proper and well normal way to introduce himself to someone.

“I’m kind of new here. You wouldn’t mind helping me look for my classes?” She asked, pulling out the white sheet of paper listing every class she had for the semester.

“‘Course not.” Jack skimmed over the paper. Not really paying attention to the sheet, but for to the fact that she was still talking to him. No one ever talked to him, especially not a cute girl like Lisa.

“Thanks Jack.” She grinned happily. Of course she was going to use this boy to her advantage.

The reason Lisa moved was because her Mom left the state to her new location of her business. Leaving Lisa with the choice of staying in Baltimore or going to New York with her. She chose to stay with her aunt because of her boyfriend Gabe, and she didn’t want to leave him. She really liked her boyfriend and she was happy to know that’d she now be attending the same school as he. Since Lisa was a private school student and her boyfriend wasn’t.

Jack and Lisa became great friends and hung out all the time. Lisa would always complain about Jack’s weird looking hair that she insisted him to change. Although, Jack did want to keep his hair. He let it grow thinking she was right and maybe that would up his chances with his best friend. When Lisa had relationship problems, Jack was there to help her get through them and help her feel better. He would take her out to eat or buy her gifts with the little money he earned at Rita’s Italian Ice. He almost felt as if he were dating her without actually being official.

It wasn’t until Lisa finally broke it off with her on and off relationship with Gabe junior year that Jack had to guts to ask her out. She accepted almost immediately. Jack was a lot taller now, and he lost the glasses like Lisa asked him too. He got clear contact lenses, because Lisa like the color of his eyes. He cut his hair and styled it in a long style with blonde streaks because Lisa said it’d make him look so much cuter. She even got him to play guitar because how cool would it be to date a guitarist?

It wasn’t until graduation that she broke it off with Jack. No hard feelings she reassured him. It was just that long distance would be hard to deal with. She said Jack was really cute and he was surely going to find someone else.

Jack was devastated of course. His first and only girlfriend broke up with him and felt like she could never be replaced, but now that his pain has subsided little by little he realized Lisa wasn’t all that great. She was changing Jack for her own benefit. She didn’t want to be seen with that weird looking lanky guy with the glasses, so she changed him. But none of that mattered anymore. It shouldn’t have in the first place. All that Jack was trying to focus on now was his boyfriend who was kissing him and palming him through his jeans. Sucking on his bottom lip and moaning softly.

“You know? You still owe me something.” Alex growled as he pushed Jack on the couch and sat on his lap.

“Oh yeah?” Jack smirked as Alex grinded on him.

“Yeah.” Alex looked him in the eyes.

“What could that be?” Jack grabbed Alex by the waist tightly. Lifting the brunette’s shirt up so he could grip his skin to leave darker bruises then the one’s he’d left earlier.

“You don’t remember teasing the fuck out me Jacky?” The older man said his name in a seductive octave, attacking the younger’s neck and sucking on it.

“Oh right.” He giggled lightly, then moaned when Alex began to grind on him again. Causing that delicious friction his now hardening cock desired.

“You owe me.” Alex kissed him roughly. Teeth clacking together and eventually tongues colliding against one another.

“How do you want me to pay you back, hm?” Jack mused. Interested in the brunettes idea of pay back.

“Oh, I’m not asking for much Jacky.” The brunette trailed his fingers down Jack’s chest to the bulge on his skinny jeans. “Just suck me off and we should be fine.”

“Ah, that’s what you want?” Jack gripped his hips tighter and laid him on the couch. Climbing on top of the brunette’s body. Grabbing his wrists and holding them on either side of Alex’s head. “Babe, we all know the one that does the sucking here is you.”

“Oh yeah?” Alex smirked, and then moaned when he felt Jack’s crotch brush against his. “But you did suck me off in the car remember?”

“Yeah, but I just wanted to get you off babe.” Jack winked, sucking on Alex’s neck.

“Well I’m horny and you should get me off right now.” Alex bucked his hips.

“You sound so needy.” Jack hummed. Licking Alex’s neck.

“C’mon Jacky, please.” Alex bucked his hips.

“Since you asked so nicely.” Jack lifted himself off of the older man, letting him sit as he knelled before him.

Jack helped Alex get out of his jeans, which pooled around his ankles and teased him through his boxers. Licking him through the soft material. Feeling Alex throb on his tongue. With his right hand he pulled Alex’s cock out and pumped it. Admiring the pre come leaking through it. It was aching red on the tip and Jack soothed his with his tongue. Licking all the salty white substance just aching to release. He wrapped his lips around the tip and sucked without moving his head, as if he’d been sucking through a straw.

“Shit Jack.” Alex moaned. Resting his head on the couch and tangling both of his hands through Jack’s jet black hair. Tugging it when Jack did something just right. The younger man began to bob his head back and forth causing the older man to buck his hips forward. Jack held his thigh, trying to stop him to thrust in his mouth. Still not used to having Alex’s dick in mouth just yet. He took a few more inches of Alex and finally. He was able to move his head faster, palming himself in the process.

“Oh my god.” Alex groaned looking down at Jack who was looking back up at him through his eyelashes. Eyes locked on each other as Jack bobbed his head. Moaning on Alex’s dick when the elder pulled on his hair. The younger man closed his eyes and focused on trying to get Alex’s dick all the way into his mouth. He stopped and just slid inch after inch into his mouth and finally. He hollowed his cheeks and he felt the tip of Jack’s dick brush up against his throat. He bobbed his head and looked back at Alex who was a moaning mess. Jack mused the way Alex moaned. As if he were singing Jack’s name as he was being pleasured.

“Holy fuck Jack!” Alex mouth opened wide. “I, I can’t. I’m so close-“ Jack pulled off. Leaving Alex whimpering. He left the living room and left the brunette there on the couch. He was a whimpering mess. Almost crying for a release. Jack came back, still fully clothed and with lube in his hands.

“Awe, Lexy. You thought I was done teasing you huh?” Jack smirked as he got closer to the brunette.

“Jack, ple-“

“Take my clothes off.”

“Jack I-“

“Do you want to get off or not?” Jack grin grew wider when he saw the hope in Alex’s eyes.

The brunette began to unbutton and unzip Jack’s jeans. Pulling them down and allowing the man to step out of them. He stood up and pushed his boxers all the way down as well as Jack’s. Leaving them both naked from their bottom halves. Alex began to pull on his shirt. Taking the annoying cloth off completely. Alex began to remove Jack’s shirt, but the younger pinned him against the wall. Holding his wrists next to his head and kissing his jawline seductively.

“You know,” The younger began to bite down on Alex’s neck. “You look really hot when you’re like this. Needy. Like a slut. My slut.” Jack purred as he reach down and painfully teased his thumb on Alex’s tip.

“J-jack.” He looked at him with pleading eyes. “Please.”

“Please what?” He smirked, kissing his neck and sucking on it in a pleasurable manner.
“F-fuck me. Oh my god Jack please, just-fuck me.” Alex pleaded.

Jack moaned and turned Alex over, who immediately spread his legs. Splaying his hands on the wall. Jack grabbed the lube and coated three fingers instantly inserting one into Alex who pushed himself on it.

“M-more Jack. More.” He mumbled.

“So needy.” Jack groaned, putting the rest of his fingers inside of Alex. Purposely missing Alex’s sweet spot.

“Ja-jack no fingers. Mmm want you cock.” Alex moaned. Pushing on Jack’s hand trying to make the best of it.

“Beg for it.” Jack growled in Alex’s ear. Licking the shell of it and then biting the lobe.

“Jack, please j-just-“ Alex’s moan was cut short when Jack went deep inside him. Pausing for a moment to let the older man get used to the sudden intrusion.

“You look so hot when you’re needy.” Jack licked his lips.

“Ah, Jack. Fuck me. Ah.” Alex pushed back, trying to get the younger man to move.

Jack pulled out almost completely and pushed back in. Both men moaning in unison as their lower bodies collided. Once again, the taller man pulled out and pushed back in. Grabbing a hold of Alex’s slim hips to change his angle. He thusted faster and finally found what he was looking for when the brunette released the most intense moan. Panting and begging.

“A-ah there J-Jack! Holy fuck.” Alex pressed his forehead against the wall moaning even more when the younger boy pounded into him faster and faster.

“D-does that feel good baby?” The dark haired man mused, running his hands up and down Alex’s chest. Teasing his nipples with his fingers and slowing his thrusts.

“F-Fuck yes. Jack faster, p-please. I need it.” Alex moved his hips even more. Practically riding Jack in desperation. Jack groaned and once again rested his hand on Alex’s hips. Pounding faster and harder into Alex. Loving the way his dick slid in and out of the brunette in the filthiest, yet beautiful manner.

“You’re so hot Lex. Making those gorgeous noises for m-me.” Jack moaned, feeling himself get closer and closer to his climax with every pant, moan, and whimper the older man made.

“Ja-Jack, Ah please, t-touch me. Holy fu-ck.” Alex moaned as Jack traced his hands down his waist and grasped his aching dick in his hand, pumping it fast. His thrusts were getting sloppier and he focused more on getting Alex off. The brunette arched his back and leaned his head against Jack’s shoulder. The younger man caught his plump lips in sloppiest kiss as Alex came into his hand. He jerked him till he was finished and groaned in a low voice as he felt Alex’s tight walls. One more sloppy thrust and Jack was coming deep inside of Alex. He collapsed onto the boy who supported his weight against the wall. Both panting heavily, desperately trying to regulate their breathing. Jack pulled out of Alex and bit his lip when he saw the last of his come drip on Alex’s ass in the most erotic way. They both took a shower, separately. As Jack suggested. He was too tired for round two and Alex agreed. After cleansing their bodies and getting rid of the smell of sweat and sex. They both laid in their boxers on Jack’s bed. Cuddling happily.

“Goodnight Jacky.” Alex said snuggling into Jack’s bare chest.

“Night Alex.” He replied, kissing the brunette’s head before drifting to sleep.

They both woke up well rested thankfully, getting themselves ready for the next work week. Lucky for both Jack and Alex they would be working together most of the week. Leaving their days off together for each other. This was a big deal for Jack now since he and Alex were in a relationship. He wanted Alex to feel special. Because well he is special and now that he and Alex have made what they have official it was time to show that off. He was getting tired of feeling sad and was beginning to push away those bad feelings and painful memories he thought of here and there and tried focusing on Alex. Alex, Alex, Alex.

“Jack!” The brunette yelled from across the hallway in the guest bathroom.

“What?” The jet black haired man yelled back.

“I have a boner!” Alex half giggled.

“That sounds like a personal problem.” Jack replied, slipping into those god forsaken, waist choking jeans that he thought made his legs look longer.

“No, it’s our problem.” Alex yelled, Jack almost hearing the smirk that appeared on his face. “Come kiss it and make it better.”

“We have to go to work in like thirty minutes, your dick can wait.” Jack ruffled his hair, brushing his fringe and to make himself not look like sex.

“No, it can’t.” He whined. Alex giggled again. He was lying about the boner honestly. He just wanted to tease Jack somehow as payback from yesterday, though it didn’t seem like it was working.

“Yes it can.” Jack jerked the door of the bathroom open to find his boyfriend half dressed, facing him and pouting. “You’re not even hard!”

“So, I just wanted you to blow me. Is that too much to ask for?” The brunette smirked, sliding his shirt on.

“Right now, yes.” Jack laughed. “Now come on. We’re gonna be late!”

“Fine, but you’re blowing me when we get home.” Alex pouted again. Slipping on his shoes as he sat on the closed toilet seat.

“We’ll see about that.” Jack smirked, crossing his arms and leaning against the doorway. Now that was sexy, and even if Alex was lying about the boner before, he wouldn't be lying about one if he said he had one right now.

Their work day was uneventful as always. Cleaning and selling, as well as the usual fucking around when the store was dead. Jack and Alex were both resisting to kiss each other since they were still a bit shy about coming out to the world though the two had no one to really come out. Vic had already caught on and well they shouldn’t really be embarrassed. Public display of affection still hasn’t settled into their system just yet. Though Jack’s blushing and Alex’s lip biting was all too obvious. The two would share glances and giggle. They tried their best to hide it yet, they couldn’t. Even if they felt like they were, they weren’t.

“Hey so you two can go now.” Vic approached the boys who were restocking vinyl records.

“Seriously? But our shift isn’t over for another hour.” Alex asked, who looked at Jack then back at their manager.

“Yeah, but the store is somewhat dead and I think I can manage on my own for a while before the afternoon shifts begin. So go do something fun,” The short man stuck his tongue out at the two.

“Alright then.” Jack smiled. “Thanks Vic.”

“I’ll go clock us out.” Alex walked towards the register, entering both of their numbers in.

“Oh and Jack, you two stop trying to hide. You guys want to keep it on the down low, but y’all make it so damn obvious.” Vic smirked.

“What are you-“ Jack raised a brow.

“You’re oblivious. Now get the hell out of my store.” Vic rolled his eyes, practically pushing him towards Alex.

“Let’s go.” Alex smiled.

“Alright, Bye Vic.” Jack turned around.

“Leave before you guys get even more sexually frustrated.” Vic laughed as Alex raised his eyebrows and Jack walked away.

Both Jack and Alex crossed the street to the parking lot together, but Jack had his hands in his pocket and Alex was feeling kind of awkward. Maybe he wasn’t exactly sexually frustrated. But he was the romantic type and loved things like hand holding and embracing. Just being cuddly and stupid with your significant other really made Alex happy. But Jack seemed to reserve himself a little. Maybe he just wasn’t as comfortable as he seemed at first.

And it wasn’t that Jack didn’t want to hold Alex’s hand or show any affection. He was just not used to being that kind of person. Lisa never liked it when Jack attempted to do anything like that with her. He assumed that was just things people simply didn’t do in a relationship, just in movies. He was oblivious and well flat out never experienced a real relationship.

“Jacky?” Alex asked, turning his to his boyfriend.

“Yeah?” Jack replied, never leaving his eyes from the road as he drove.

“Wanna go somewhere?” Alex bit his lip.

“Where do you wanna go?” Jack grinned meeting Alex’s gaze as he stopped at a street light.

“Anywhere, I just want to spend some time with you outside our- your apartment.” Alex shrugged slightly.

“Yeah, our apartment is rather boring.” Jack giggled as the street light changed from red to green and slowly beginning to press on the gas pedal. Alex couldn’t help but blush. The reassurance Jack gave him definitely killed his doubt (if any) he had.

“Oh hey, the fair’s in town. Wanna go?” Jack stopped at a convince store to fuel his SUV with gas.

“Yes! Oh, I haven’t gone in ages.” Alex’s eyes lit up. He’d completely forgotten about Maryland’s State Fair.

“Me either, and we’ll be able to spend the whole afternoon there.” Jack happily explained. Smiling to see the happiness that overwhelmed his older boyfriend.

“I can’t wait.” Alex giggled happily. Maybe spending some time with Jack outside of their apartment was exactly what they needed to break this awkward tension Alex felt with Jack outside of the protection of closed doors.

Jack waited patiently as he filled his car with gas. Overlooking his life for a moment and how drastically it has changed within the span of a month. Not only was he able to escape his fucking rut he was in, but he met someone that made him happy. Alex was what Jack needed. What he has wanted for a while. Someone to reassure him that life wasn’t about pondering over the past, but living now and to let the future stress for itself. He needed Alex, and was sure to keep him for as long as he could. He really liked Alex, a lot, and he did not want to suffer another devastation. But there was always that god damn thought that ruined everything. His own mind becoming his own enemy.

This is too fast. I’ve only known the guy for so long and I’m already dating him. What if he hurts me? What he eventually gets a place of his own and leaves me? Finally getting what he wants from me then deposing of me like Lisa did?

“Fuck.” Jack exhaled.

“What’s wrong?” Alex leaned over the driver’s seat to look at Jack through the open door.

“Nothing. It’s just my arm hurts.” Jack lied, pulling the nozzle out of the car.

“Oh, well I mean if you’re hurt-“

“Alex, I’m fine you worry too much.” Jack giggled nonchalantly. Trying to get his mind away from what he was thinking. Trying to not ruin what could be a great afternoon with his boyfriend.

“I do. I care about you Jacky. A lot actually. I think I have the right to worry about my boyfriend, you know?” Alex bit his nervously. Calling Jack his ‘boyfriend’ hadn’t settled in completely just yet.

“Well I guess you do.” Jack smirked. Getting back on the road on his way to the fair grounds. Which was a roughly a fifteen minute drive.

“I do. I just, Jack. I feel really happy and well grateful to be with you because I know you still have those depressing thoughts and trust issues and I don’t want to ruin what we have. I feel like we- I rushed into things with you, but you know. It felt, almost right because well I really like you and you were willing to give me the chance and well Jack. I want to make you happy.” Alex looked at the younger boy. Just spilling his thoughts out.

“Alex, I- Things happen for a reason. You said it yourself. So what if we rushed into things.” Jack shrugged off his earlier worries. He was sick of being his own worst enemy. Time to be happy for once. He thought.

“I did, yeah you’re right.” Alex grinned and looked down.

“Alex?” Jack turned to face the brunette after parking his car.

“Yes?” He looked back up.

Jack planted a soft kiss on the older man’s lips. Letting the kiss ease whatever tension they felt. Softly molding their mouths together in the most perfect way. Letting them form a passionate kiss as he was being honked by other drivers to proceed because the street light had changed from red to green. Jack began to drive again, this time using one hand on the wheel and the other intertwined with Alex’s. It felt right. It made his chest swell and feel happy all together. He’d never felt this way before, and he loved it. Every chance he got he’d turn his head a catch a glimpse of the brunette who was actually staring right back at him with his big, beautiful, brown eyes. And that god dammed smile that just melted Jack’s heart.

Notes

I promised didn't I?
Sorry for more boisecks I couldn't help it.
Anyway, this chapter was gonna be a lot longer, but some of you got antsy and I thought it was long enough and well yeah, I will try to update a lot more, but you know school before gay porn. Anyway, sorry again for such a late update!<3 Please forgive me and enjoy the boisecks c:
Title and (changed) lyrics cred to Panic! at the Disco♪
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