Circles

Shaden's P.O.V.

I was backstage hanging with BVB waiting for my turn when Alex stopped, and asked to bring things down I guess its time. I got my mic from their tech guys, and step up to my marker the boys From BVB wished me luck I handed Jinxx my camera, and asked him to record the performance. I did my few back up lyrics here, and there soon enough I heard.

"Hey everyone I know you know we had a contest, and thats why we are doing this song this was her submission, and welcome our new friend Shaden Heart!" Alex said.

????"WHY DID YOU PICK THIS TALENTLESS WHORE WHAT SHE FUCK ALL OF YOU TO GET HER CHANCE"
I thought that was Scott's voice it couldn't be he's not a big fan of them no way no he wouldn't I looked down, and saw him, and started to tear up I pushed the tears away, and started to sing while Jack just glared him down then gave me a sympathetic smile. It was my time to shine not his he wasn't going to win today no today I opened my mouth singing as strongly, and as confident as I could.

I'm not coming back (forgive me)
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak (I'm not calling, I'm not calling)
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt, now the rain is just (You're driving me crazy, I'm)
Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
From so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
**I sang as I pointed to him in the crowd**
I'm at home in the clouds, and towering over your head

Alex finished the song
Well I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home

Just then Jack was walking over to me as Alex was singing the last few lyrics with a smile on his face I smiled back at him he grabbed me by the waist, and pulled me in he better not be doing what I thi.... I was cut off mid thought with Jack's lips on mine my mind went blank no one not even Scott being in the crowd mattered it was just Jack and I. I've never felt like this with anyone else, but still I can't say yes to Jack, but I feel like if I don't I will lose him forever why is this so confusing I think I am falling for Jack I can't be I just can't hes a rock star, and I am just a fucked up emo. I deepened the kiss with Jack as he ran his tongue lightly over my bottom lip I denied him when I heard Alex say.

"Well that was a surprise I thought I was going to surprise Shay with something, but I guess Jack had his own surprise for her Hey Jack, Shaden you done sucking face I'd like to get on to the surprise".
"Oh right yeah Hey Shaden wait Alex you wanna tell her, or should I." Jack asked Alex
I decided to speak up because I was annoyed with Alex breaking up the kiss, and Scott being here, and then keeping it a secret for so long.
"Would you guys just tell me already." I said
"you tell her man"
"Alright so we decided that we were going to have you sing alone, and do your two favorite songs what do you say to giving it a shot, and putting on a show for everyone" Jack said
"OH MY GOODNESS GUYS YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE THIS IS JUST TOO AMAZING, but sure so I am singing therapy, and Get Down On You Knees And Tell Me You Love Me right?" I asked knowing obviously Jack told them which other two were my favorite.
"well what else would you sing !" Alex said.
"Haha true that Alex So umm mind if I say something quick before I guess we do therapy?" I asked him
"go for it" Alex said Smiling at me
"Well this song is so close to me, and it has helped me through so much for the last like 4 years, and it got me through a tough break up he's even here in the crowd today he was my first love, my first everything but he broke my heart almost 5 months ago he was some major arrogant jerk he's the one that shouted out at me. I never felt beautiful because I've been bullied all my life, I was never told I was beautiful till him, but in the end it was all a lie he told me. I was abused 4 years ago, and this is when I found this song I've been a fan of these nut jobs here for almost 7 years, and this is one of many songs to describe me, and my ex fiancee this song had convinced me years ago to go get help for self harm to get help for anorexia if you don't feel beautiful raise your hand! See look around? all of you are amazing never let someone get you down, don't even let yourself hold you in, and down because we all feel down sometimes, but as I've learned from some very special people in the last 2 days you can make it long as you try you are beautiful no matter who you are in your own way never let an ex, a bully, even your parent's friend's family anyone tear you down just be who you are." As I finished tearing up a little speaking of a touchy subject. "so now lets do this song, and guys I can't thank you enough for all this you are truly amazing friends I can't imagine my life without you guys, or well the guys from BVB now here we go This is Therapy.


My ship went down
In a sea of sound.
When I woke up alone I had everything:
A handful of moments I wished I could change
And a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade.

In a city of fools,
I was careful and cool,
But they tore me apart like a hurricane...
A handful of moments I wished I could change
But I was carried away.

Give me therapy.
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can keep all your misery.

My lungs gave out
As I faced the crowd.
I think that keeping this up could be dangerous.
I'm flesh and bone,
I'm a rolling stone
And the experts say I'm delirious.

Give me therapy.
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can take back your misery.

I walked down to the edge got on to the speaker closest to Scott, and pointed at him in the crowd mouthed this is all to you Scott I started to sing again. While I was crying

Arrogant boy,
Love yourself so no one has to.
They're better off without you.
Alex sang: (They're better off without you.)

Arrogant boy,
Cause a scene like you're supposed to.
They'll fall asleep without you.
You're lucky if your memory remains.

I started to cry a bit cause it felt so good to be up here giving it my all and Scott being down there one day this will be how it is it will be this way mark my words.

Give me therapy.
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can take back your misery.

Therapy...
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy...
You were never a friend to me
And you can choke on your misery.

"Well isn't that something different let's get this party back up and running." Alex said.
"I agree things are a bit to slow even for my liking and Alex don't let me sing this one alone" I said laughing.
"That's wh.." Jack was cut off. "Don't even finish that Jack." I said pointing at him sticking my tongue out.
"Alright you two lets just do the song." Alex said causing both Jack and I to turn to Alex sticking out our tongues out.

*As the music started up I started to shake my hips cuing in the claps with the crowd before making the count down with my fingers *

I've been played a fool four, three, too many times and
When did lust for you become an organized crime?
I tried to keep you honest, babe, but I was just a pawn
You played the part so well, it hurts to know you're gone

* I ran over to Zack leaning on him shaking my shoulders before jumping of from there spinning my body and head.*

Did you mean it? Could you feel it when you broke into my head?
Did you fake it just to break another stranger in your bed?
Was it worth it? Was it perfect when you up and left me cynical?
Like you planned it, you're a bandit.
Just a no good, two-bit, filthy, rotten criminal.
*I made my hand like a gun motion putting it to my temple before making the fake shot sending myself off from in between Zack, and Alex*
*I skipped over past Alex sliding my finger across his shoulders having him singing with me on this song felt perfect He looked over smiling as I reached Jack*

Ouuh
Let me count the ways; I six, seven, ate my words
Right from your silver plate, we checked in, checked out, checkmate
I couldn't keep you honest, babe, 'cause I was just a card you played
The draw so well, it hurts to know you're gone, you're gone, you're gone
* Leaned on Jack before kissing his cheek running off to the front standing on the front speakers near the edge*

Did you mean it? Could you feel it when you broke into my head?
Did you fake it just to break another stranger in your bed?
Was it worth it? Was it perfect when you up and left me cynical?
Like you planned it, you're a bandit.
Just a no good, two-bit, filthy, rotten criminal.

*As it came into the guitar solo I ran past Jack doing the claps sticking my tounge out at him climbing on top of the small riser for Rian's drums shaking my head as the solo picked up as Zack moved to the middle as Alex, and Jack stayed on the outside tossing the guitars across Zack jummped in the middle as I jumped down of the riser through the middle and ran out to the front leaning forward to step on the rail right in front of Scott singing the last part

Did you mean it? Could you feel it when you broke into my head?
* I looked back to Alex nodded my head to the crowd and he smiled nodding I could go in I turned back falling into the crowd just a short bit away from Scott, and Anne.*
Did you fake it just to break another stranger in your bed?
Was it worth it? Was it perfect when you up and left me cynical?
Like you planned it, you're a bandit.
Just a no good, two-bit, filthy, rotten criminal.
*I signaled to security to be brought back in the jkids seemed to notice and started to push me to the front*

Did you mean it? Could you feel it when you broke into my head?
(I couldn't keep you honest, babe)
Did you fake it just to break another stranger in your bed?
* soon as security got me back they pulled me back and put me on stage where I ran over to Alex*
(Cause I was just a pawn you played)
Was it worth it? Was it perfect when you up and left me cynical?
(I couldn't keep you honest, babe)
Like you planned it, you're a bandit.
Just a no good, two-bit, filthy, rotten criminal.
*I leaned on Alex out of breath*

"Thank you so much everyone. This was the best experience of my life" I said as I moved to head off stage. Jack walked over to me hugged me, and kissed my head. "you did great Shay."
"Thanks Jack now go kill it like always" I kissed Jack on the cheek, and when back stage that was the best feeling in the world.
When I got back stage the guys were smiling so hugely at me CC walked over, and hugged me.
"That speech was amazing Shay" CC said.
"you did great Shaden that was amazing, but why were you crying was it that one idiot?" Andy said looking concerned
"Kinda he was my Ex fiancee he kinda destroyed my life"
"what an ass, but you were up there, and he was down there how did that feel." Ash said
"Perfect I want it to be that way one day"
"You belong on stage I've never seen someone so strong on the First time they were up on stage in front of a big crowd. you know how to talk in front of them, and I am sure you inspired so many young girls, and boy's out there to throw away the blade, and go get help you are one special person." Jake said smiling
"Thanks I've performed before but..."
Just then I was cut off with Shane walking over to me
"Hey Shaden I want to talk to you really quick."
"Kay be right back."
I walked away just off stage with Shane.

"So what's up man, and by the way just to say this now thx for the follow on twitter there a while back it means a lot" "well I wanted to tell you after you little performance earlier at sound check I called my lable, and well a few others, and well they want you they want to sign you, but may take a while you know." "Oh my god Shane you didn't have to do that at all" "you deserve it with a voice like yours, and you got killer stage presence you just gave a speech on the spot without thinking. Give it a try you won't regret it since we are done why don't you, and the guys come to the bus, and celebrate." "Shane I wanna keep this quiet for a while till I 100% know I am signed case it doesn't turn out I will tell Jack, and the guys, but keep this quiet to everyone else only your band All Time Low, Black Veil Brides, and Pierce The Veil okaiee??" "fine, but trust me you will get signed there is no way you won't, and how about the bands celebrate in general." "that sounds perfect"

Just then Jack, Alex, Rian, and Zack all Ran over an mobbed me in a sweaty group hug.
"Guys get off your all sweaty, and its kinda nasty" "Aww you love us." Alex said. "you love it" Jack said. "no its cause she loves you Jack." Rian said in a joking tone. "guys!!!""Hey leave her alone it may be true, but leave her alone." Zack said in a mocking voice. "Thanks so much Zack thats a real help!"

"hey guys after you get changed, and all want to come back to our bus and party to celebrate it all." Shane Said. "guys you up for it?" Alex asked us. "I'm Always up so yeah" Jack said "you know I am so in and Jack not your dick no one ever talks about your dick" I started laughing at him. "so text everyone tell them our buses, and yeah well get this on the roll later guys." Shane said walking off "bye Shane" I called out

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