Only Just...
Lullabies
~Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye. It could be for the last time. And it's not right....~
Alex’s POV
Searing pain crept into my heart. I swiftly sat up and grabbed on to my chest as if it would make everything better. Thing was, nothing would ever get better. My brother is gone and I will never be able to tell him I’m sorry. The band is on hold for some time. They think I need time to get my mind off of things. How can I get my fucking mind off things when I’m doing NOTHING!?
I sat on the edge of my bed wondering to myself. “Where are you?”
~Forever's never seemed so long. As when you're not around. It's like a piece of me is missing. I could have learned so much from you. But what's left now?~
It’s been a year today. A year since he left me in a world of pain. Fighting was the last thing that we ever did together and I regret it now. I wish that I could go back and say I love you. Your gone and I can’t do anything about it. “Why did you go?! I want you back!” I yelled and then suddenly the bus swerved to the right causing me to fall over. I ran into the front of the bus where the other guys were and questioned what was going on. We all looked out the window. The bus driver had unbuckled himself and was already outside. There was something out there.
Footsteps were heard coming onto to the bus. “Alex?! Is Alex here?! I need to talk to Alex!” A beautiful girl yelled as she frantically ran on to the bus.
“I’m Alex.. What do you need?” I asked while hesitating. Her eyes were hypnotizing. A shade of grey. Her blonde hair swept across her angelic face.
“Daniel...” She fell to the ground. Her limp body was still warm, and her rib cage was still moving slowly up and down. I walked over to her. Knelled down beside her and tried to understand. My brothers name. Why did she say Daniel’s name? Where did she come from? How did she get here?
“You should probably bring her out back to the bunks man.” Zach said while staring at this beauty. I lifted her into my arms and carried her to the bunks. I set her down in mine and sat on the ground wondering.
After two hours of sitting Jack came into the bunking area and sat down next to me. He looked from me to her then back to me and began to say words that wouldn’t form.
“Alex... do, do you think she knew your brother?” Jack asked, after finding words again. I looked from him to her. She looked so peaceful. What was it about her that seemed so familiar? Did I know her? She can’t know my brother. Daniel is dead. Gone. His soul washed away.
~Dead - Like a candle you burned out; spill the wax over the spaces left in place of angry words.~
Two hours felt like two seconds. I was caught in thought. Deep, deep thought. Just then her mesmerizing eyes began to flutter. Then, all of a sudden, she jumped up, hitting her head on the bunk above her.
“Oww..” I watched as she rubbed her forehead. “Alex!” She yelled and jumped onto me, causing me to fall over backwards. She lay on top of me. She quickly stood up, wiping off her jeans before extending a hand for me. I grabbed hold and lifted myself off the ground.
“Do you know how long I have waited to actually meet you in person again? Wow, you grew! I mean, I have glanced down at you on occasion, but Daniel always caught me. He told me I shouldn’t be spying on you, cause you never know what that boy could be doing. I always laughed at him when he told me this. But wow! I’ve missed you!” How does she know me? What does she mean by glancing at me? Does she know Daniel?
“Sorry, a little to much than I was supposed to give to you. Hmm.. Alright! Let us start with a greeting. Hello, I’m Nicole. ” She smiled. She reminded me of someone, but who?
“I’m sorry but I don’t know you, and if your trying to get in my pants by saying you know my bro then get off this bus. I don’t have time for this.” I said. I turned to walk out the door when she started to laugh. I slowly cocked my head to look at her. She was full out laughing. Her beautiful grey eyes were shut and her hands held her slim stomach, as she laughed... There are many questions, still unanswered, that return to my mind. All do to this one girl.
~Scream - To be heard, Like you needed anymore attention...~
It has been two days now, that this strange girl appeared out of no where, in front of our tour bus. It had astonished me of how much she reminded me of someone, someone I held close to my heart, someone that was taking from me a long long time ago.
“Somethings bothering you.” Her voice rang like bells. She gently touched my right shoulder as she sat down next to me. I turned my head away. How can a stranger know so much about one person?
“It’s nothing.” She got up and started to walk out of the hotel room. She looked over her shoulder and whispered “Remember.” Then she left. I sat there, repeating that one single word in my mind, remember. Remember what!? What is so important for me to remember? I leaned back on the bed so my back was lying. My feet dangled over the edge, toes just barely touching the carpeted floor.
“Alex!” My mind slowly came back to reality as my name was shouted from the living area in our suite. I slumped off the bed and walked into the room. The guys were surrounding Nicole. All of them were excited, but confused. She whispered something to them. Her lips formed the words “He has to figure it out on his own.” Her eyes sad as she said this. I walked over to the group. My eyes never left Nicole’s. Why doe she mesmerize me? I could fall asleep by how gentle her eyes were. Her voice when she spoke was like musical notes.
~Sing me to sleep, I’ll see you in my dreams...~
“What’s up dudes?” I asked while putting my fake smile on. Jack then threw a book at me. “What the hell was that for?” I yelled.
“We were just looking at it. Thought, since Nicole’s gonna be on tour with us for a little bit she might want to get ta know us. I brought this with me. Ya know, Just in case I got bored.” Jack said. The things that boy brings on tour has always astonished me.
“Oh god! This isn’t Freshman year is it?” I smiled. I opened up the year book and sat on the couch. I started to flip through the pages. I saw a picture of Jack and I dressed as bananas for School costume contest during Halloween.
“I still have those.” Jack said. I looked at him.
“We are wearing those next tour! First concert!” I high-fived Jack and turned the page. There I saw Danny, Jack, me and some girl. The girl had long brown hair. Her eyes were mesmerizing. I looked closer and looked at Nicole and then the picture. No. I can’t know her. I would remember such beautiful eyes.
“Nicole Melsy?”
Alex’s POV
Searing pain crept into my heart. I swiftly sat up and grabbed on to my chest as if it would make everything better. Thing was, nothing would ever get better. My brother is gone and I will never be able to tell him I’m sorry. The band is on hold for some time. They think I need time to get my mind off of things. How can I get my fucking mind off things when I’m doing NOTHING!?
I sat on the edge of my bed wondering to myself. “Where are you?”
~Forever's never seemed so long. As when you're not around. It's like a piece of me is missing. I could have learned so much from you. But what's left now?~
It’s been a year today. A year since he left me in a world of pain. Fighting was the last thing that we ever did together and I regret it now. I wish that I could go back and say I love you. Your gone and I can’t do anything about it. “Why did you go?! I want you back!” I yelled and then suddenly the bus swerved to the right causing me to fall over. I ran into the front of the bus where the other guys were and questioned what was going on. We all looked out the window. The bus driver had unbuckled himself and was already outside. There was something out there.
Footsteps were heard coming onto to the bus. “Alex?! Is Alex here?! I need to talk to Alex!” A beautiful girl yelled as she frantically ran on to the bus.
“I’m Alex.. What do you need?” I asked while hesitating. Her eyes were hypnotizing. A shade of grey. Her blonde hair swept across her angelic face.
“Daniel...” She fell to the ground. Her limp body was still warm, and her rib cage was still moving slowly up and down. I walked over to her. Knelled down beside her and tried to understand. My brothers name. Why did she say Daniel’s name? Where did she come from? How did she get here?
“You should probably bring her out back to the bunks man.” Zach said while staring at this beauty. I lifted her into my arms and carried her to the bunks. I set her down in mine and sat on the ground wondering.
After two hours of sitting Jack came into the bunking area and sat down next to me. He looked from me to her then back to me and began to say words that wouldn’t form.
“Alex... do, do you think she knew your brother?” Jack asked, after finding words again. I looked from him to her. She looked so peaceful. What was it about her that seemed so familiar? Did I know her? She can’t know my brother. Daniel is dead. Gone. His soul washed away.
~Dead - Like a candle you burned out; spill the wax over the spaces left in place of angry words.~
Two hours felt like two seconds. I was caught in thought. Deep, deep thought. Just then her mesmerizing eyes began to flutter. Then, all of a sudden, she jumped up, hitting her head on the bunk above her.
“Oww..” I watched as she rubbed her forehead. “Alex!” She yelled and jumped onto me, causing me to fall over backwards. She lay on top of me. She quickly stood up, wiping off her jeans before extending a hand for me. I grabbed hold and lifted myself off the ground.
“Do you know how long I have waited to actually meet you in person again? Wow, you grew! I mean, I have glanced down at you on occasion, but Daniel always caught me. He told me I shouldn’t be spying on you, cause you never know what that boy could be doing. I always laughed at him when he told me this. But wow! I’ve missed you!” How does she know me? What does she mean by glancing at me? Does she know Daniel?
“Sorry, a little to much than I was supposed to give to you. Hmm.. Alright! Let us start with a greeting. Hello, I’m Nicole. ” She smiled. She reminded me of someone, but who?
“I’m sorry but I don’t know you, and if your trying to get in my pants by saying you know my bro then get off this bus. I don’t have time for this.” I said. I turned to walk out the door when she started to laugh. I slowly cocked my head to look at her. She was full out laughing. Her beautiful grey eyes were shut and her hands held her slim stomach, as she laughed... There are many questions, still unanswered, that return to my mind. All do to this one girl.
~Scream - To be heard, Like you needed anymore attention...~
It has been two days now, that this strange girl appeared out of no where, in front of our tour bus. It had astonished me of how much she reminded me of someone, someone I held close to my heart, someone that was taking from me a long long time ago.
“Somethings bothering you.” Her voice rang like bells. She gently touched my right shoulder as she sat down next to me. I turned my head away. How can a stranger know so much about one person?
“It’s nothing.” She got up and started to walk out of the hotel room. She looked over her shoulder and whispered “Remember.” Then she left. I sat there, repeating that one single word in my mind, remember. Remember what!? What is so important for me to remember? I leaned back on the bed so my back was lying. My feet dangled over the edge, toes just barely touching the carpeted floor.
“Alex!” My mind slowly came back to reality as my name was shouted from the living area in our suite. I slumped off the bed and walked into the room. The guys were surrounding Nicole. All of them were excited, but confused. She whispered something to them. Her lips formed the words “He has to figure it out on his own.” Her eyes sad as she said this. I walked over to the group. My eyes never left Nicole’s. Why doe she mesmerize me? I could fall asleep by how gentle her eyes were. Her voice when she spoke was like musical notes.
~Sing me to sleep, I’ll see you in my dreams...~
“What’s up dudes?” I asked while putting my fake smile on. Jack then threw a book at me. “What the hell was that for?” I yelled.
“We were just looking at it. Thought, since Nicole’s gonna be on tour with us for a little bit she might want to get ta know us. I brought this with me. Ya know, Just in case I got bored.” Jack said. The things that boy brings on tour has always astonished me.
“Oh god! This isn’t Freshman year is it?” I smiled. I opened up the year book and sat on the couch. I started to flip through the pages. I saw a picture of Jack and I dressed as bananas for School costume contest during Halloween.
“I still have those.” Jack said. I looked at him.
“We are wearing those next tour! First concert!” I high-fived Jack and turned the page. There I saw Danny, Jack, me and some girl. The girl had long brown hair. Her eyes were mesmerizing. I looked closer and looked at Nicole and then the picture. No. I can’t know her. I would remember such beautiful eyes.
“Nicole Melsy?”
Notes
So, I have not updated this story in 2 years now... It's still on Mibba, but I plan on changing the following chapters. In this first chapter I only changed the color of her hair.Please comment :D
Thank You,
Angie Marie
4/13/13