I make it back to the party but I have to shake my head a couple of times to get the image of his desperate eyes out of my mind.

I'm back onto Black Veil Brides bus avoiding to get smacked on the butt by Danny while getting up the stairs and went up to Andy to snatch the bottle of liquor out of his hands. "Hey, what the fuck, Gi! Give it back." He hollered. I waved him off like a nasty mosquito.

I got hold of the girls and guys from Petrichor and announced the party was over for them, they complained loudly but I just shoved them off the bus and told them to go to sleep. Danny nearly pissed himself watching me getting the kids out, calling me an angry band-mum.

Then I continued my journey into the back of the bus. I poured out a couple of shots to Ben, James and myself when we passed each other in the bunk area and nicked a few drags off Vinnie and Matt the two stoners who sat on the floor further down the bus.

I finally remembered I was looking for Jack. I found him in the back lounge and hugged him screaming over the music "Jacky Bear, I missed you, I wanna cuddle, wadda bout you?" I was starting to slur a bit.

"Sure, Baby" he lifted me off my feet to place a kiss on my cheek. "But there is no room to sit anywhere, let's go back to our bus, we have booze there as well."

He threw his arm around my shoulder and I grabbed him around the waist and we steadied ourselves walking back to the ATL bus.

We collapsed together onto the couch and couldn't stop giggling as we opened another bottle of Jameson and weren't able to fill the shot glasses without spilling a lot over ourselves.

After a while we just sat together snuggled into each other in a comfortable silence until I asked. "Jack, what is it with Alex these days? I don't get why you can be best friends with him, he is being such an ass all the time. One second he shouts at me, next one he kisses me, then we fight again, is he like mentally ill or what?"

Jack seems to snap out of his thoughts and looks at me a bit confused then after a while he answers. "Gi-Gi it's not what you think but it's complicated and I can't talk about it, you will have to ask Alex himself." He sighs and strokes my cheek with his thumb.

I roll my eyes and huff to this, then I have to yawn. "I'm tired, I think I will go to bed." I try to get up but fail miserably.

"I don't think you will make it back to your bus and I'm in no condition to walk you there and come back. You can crash here if you want."

"Okay, thanks. Then I sleep on the couch." I start to get horizontal when he pulls me back up and shakes me by my shoulders.

"No, you take my bunk and I just sleep here. No worries, go get some rest." He shoves me towards the bunk area with his leg.

"Thanks, you are the best, luv u, Jacky" I say kissing his cheek sloppily ruffling his hair and walking towards the back of the bus.

I am pretty drunk and the bunk area is only dimly lit. I try to take off my shoes and pants before lying down while steadying me with one hand on the wall.

I start mumbling to myself. "Damn shoes, can't untie you fuckers, ... talking to Alex, hah! he rather means screaming! we go nowhere.... just hates me... why are my trousers so tight?....won't go off...shit..stuck in the legs..."
I hop around on one foot, tangled in my clothes.
"....the kiss was awesome .... but .. He is such a dick....idiot...php.. too hard..too drunk...I'm just giving up on this"

I stop undressing with one leg inside my jeans and collapse into the bunk and close my eyes as soon as my head hits the pillow.

It is nice and warm in Jacks bunk and I snuggle up to another warm body and snake my arms around to pull myself in closer. I sigh contently and fall asleep almost instantly.

Notes

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