We walked for a bit through the equestrian center’s paths hand in hand. I missed holding her hand. I hadn’t stopped watching her videos without feeling a bit lonely and as soon as I discovered she was in London I got so excited.
Soon I saw a clearly pissed Stella being smelled by, I guess, a stallion. She pulled away and nearly kicked the poor horse when she saw us. When I realized she wasn’t pinning her ears at me I smiled a bit, making her ears pin forward even more. Was she… happy to see me?
“Oh, hello there, little one” I stroked her neck as she lowered her head, pushing María back.
“Did you miss me?” I asked, hesitant at first. She quickly pulled her head up and pushed me softly with her head on my torso. Ok, that was a crystal-clear yes.
María chuckled a bit and, when I looked up, I saw her holding her phone up.
“You should see how cute you look together” she chuckled more and handed me her phone to show me the picture. A wide smile spread on my face whilst I handed her phone back, not only because of the photo but because María thought I was cute. Oh, Jack, stop it.
We stared at each other for a while when Stella suddenly pushed me with a playful expression to María, who stared wide-eyed to her friend. Then she turned to me with a smile. Everything around us went slower than usual but I couldn’t care less. Right in that moment, I wanted to kiss her. Wait, what? Kiss her? Jack, what’s up with you? I was so confused. Did I want to kiss her? Hell yes, I wanted to.
I leaned closer, slowly, not wanting to scare her. Our foreheads were touching when I saw a little tear roll down her cheek.
“Hey, babe, what’s up?” I asked softly, cupping her head with my right hand. I just called her babe? She shook her head and pulled away a bit. I put my arm around her waist and pulled her closer to my chest.
“Sorry” she whispered. “I-I just…I just don’t want to fuck up our relationship, sorry” she trailed off. Oh, so she just wanted us to be just friends? Of course, Jack, no one wants to be with you. I felt rejected and pulled away slowly.
“Jack, I didn’t mean it like that” I looked up to see her face, she was staring straight into my eyes, “it’s just that… I don’t want to hurt you.”
“You won’t” I hugged her. What did she mean, hurt me? Surely she kept lots of secrets away from her fans, but were they really that bad? I’ve heard she used self-harm when she was younger, and I even saw and touched some of her scars but-
“I’m not ready to hurt or be hurt by someone else neither” she began to cry again, holding back a sob every now and then. I pulled her closer, drawing circles with my index finger on her back. She started to calm down.
“Look at me” I said softly, holding her head up with two fingers so she was looking at me, “it’s going to be okay, understand? You know you can call me anytime, right?” she nodded, smiling a bit. God, that smile. If it wasn’t because that was the fakest smile in the world, it would’ve turn me on. Jack, it’s not the right time now the right place to have a boner, so stop it.
“Thanks, Jack” she smiled again, “You really are a sunshine” that made me chuckle, making her smile widen. Yes, that was the smile I was looking for. I leaned closer, a bit too quickly, and kissed her, closing my eyes. She was still for a second and just when I started to pull away, she kissed me back. It was a slow, yet a rushed kiss, but it still made my stomach drop, in good way, feeling butterflies- no, screw that- the entire bird species inside of me.
We pulled away to breathe and we realized Stella was staring at us, half pissed and half euphoric. She pinned her ears back a bit, but a few seconds later, she pinned them forward again, pulling her head up and moving it side to side happily. I sighed in relief, at least she wasn’t killing me, knowing how over-protective she is with María.
I turned to her, she was blushing. I gave her a peck on her lips.
“You look so cute when you blush” that made her blush more and giggled. She fucking giggled! María then kissed my cheek and hugged me. We pulled away when someone behind us coughed, making Stella pin her ears back, not completely, but in a warning way.
“Jack, shouldn’t you be going to the show already?” Ruben. He looked a bit pissed, but why? He was María’s best friend, they even dated but had to break up because they were too friend-zoned. He wasn’t jealous, was he?
“Hmm, yeah. But the show starts in an hour, so…” I looked at María first, then to Ruben. Yes, he was a bit pissed, but I couldn’t find a bit of jealousy in his face.
“Well, I actually think we should be going now” María interrumped, making us turn to her, “mind if I go with you?” she asked.
“Yeah, sure” I winked in her direction, making her blush again. I turned to Ruben, “You can come if you want to” he shook his head no.
“No, I’ll pass… thanks anyway” I nodded and María started to walk to a car they rented when they got here. Ruben tapped my shoulder.
“I’m not going to start with the whole, typical don’t-touch-my-best-friend thing, but just… don’t break her heart, you hear me?” he almost whispered, clearly pissed. I nodded. “Thanks. Have fun!” he said in a loud voice as he walked away. Why was everyone so over-protective around this chick? I mean, she was beautiful, smart, hot and interesting, but why so over-protective?

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The show was amazing and the fans were just twice as amazing. I hadn’t stopped running around and I was sweaty as Hell. I went off stage being greeted by María’s embrace, but she pulled away quickly, making me pout.
“Jack, I love you, but first, shower, please” she chuckled. I blushed a bit, but I wasn’t noticeable because of my already pink, sweaty face. I gave her a peck on her lips before running to the shower. When I got there, I realized something. She said she loved me?!
I showered and put on some skinny jeans and a my Ramones T-shirt and sprinted backstage. She was on the phone with a frown but she smiled when she looked at me. I walked to her with a questioning look.
“Understood” she hung up with a heavy voice, holding back a sob. I hugged her and waited for her to speak. “So, what’s the plan for tonight?” she asked, smiling like nothing happened. I took that as a hint she didn’t want to talk about it.
“Well, we could hang by ourselves or join the other guys. I’m sure they’d be glad to see you again” I smiled at her. “Did you like the show?”
“Hell, yeah! It was amazing!” she cheered, “Last time I saw you guys I was just a small and chubby teenager” she smiled.
“You’ve been to one of our shows before?”
“Yeah, when I was starting with YouTube and had only twenty-three subscribers, you guys went to Barcelona and me, Olga and two friends of mine went to your show” she smirked.
“Hmm, I don’t recall seeing your face there” I tried to remember seeing her. No way I'd forget her.
“That’s probably because I had very bad acne, I was quite fat, I wore round glasses and my hair was above my shoulders” she explained. No way she was like that. Jack, don’t argue, you didn’t have the most awesome hair in the world neither.
“Thank you, puberty, then?” I joked, earning a laugh from her. Wow, I haven’t heard her laugh in a while, her laugh was so soft it sounded like a chuckle, but not really.
“Yeah, you can say that” she kept laughing. “By the way, I bet you guys still have one or two of my bras” I chuckled.
“I’ll look for them, don’t worry” I smiled, still chuckling.
We stood in silence for a while until her phone rang again. She grumbled as she answered the phone.
“Hey there- Ok, ok, just calm down- No?- Ruben, what the fuck? Ok, see you later” she sighed. My heart sank a bit; she was leaving. “I have to go...“ she trailed off with sad eyes.
“Yeah, don’t worry. We’ll see each other tomorrow at the center, then?” I asked, hopeful. She nodded and bit her lip. Then she got closer to me and kissed me before pulling away with a smile.
“See you tomorrow” she waved, walking to the exit. And leaving me wanting for another kiss. What was she doing to me? I didn't know, and I didn't care, what I was certain of was this:
I couldn’t wait to see her tomorrow.

Notes

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Title credit: Serial Killer by Lana del Rey.