Life Being on Tour

The next day I woke up with headache.
'Fuck!', I said to myself in my thoughts and opened my eyes.
I was in Alex bed.
'What the..?', I said to myself and turned around.
Nothing to worry about, just Alex.
I nodded silently to myself. 'Great. Is this the point where I'm losing my fucking mind?! How could've this happen?'
I immediately uncovered myself from the blanket. There I was, naked, in Alex's hotel bed.
'Okay. I'll get it. I really have LOST MY FUCKING MIND!', I said to myself and stood up, panicking about what happened.
I remembered kissing him on his ear. 'What the fuck?'
"No, no, no, no. This can't be happening. No, no, no!"
"Jack? What's wrong?", a sleepy Alex asked.
"Erm.. I don't know how to.. ask you that but.."
He turned around to face me.
Yeah, ignoring the fact that I was naked. Nothing unusual.
"What do you want to know?"
"Did we fuck last night?"
Alex bursted out of laughter.
"What? It's not funny, Alex. Did we fuck or not?"
"No, we didn't. You were drunk and kissed my ear, that's all."
"And how did I get naked?", I asked, still panicking.
"Like you always do. You were horny and needed someone, in that case me, to get rid of it."
"Oh.", was all I could say.
"So, now do me a favor and get dr.."
"Wait a second! I wasn't in your bed. I went to the bathroom and slept on the floor."
"I know. I took you into bed."
"Why didn't you wake me up?"
"Because you were asleep. I didn't want to wake you up."
"Thank you."
"You're welcome.", he said adding a smile.
"I.. I better get dressed now.", I said laughing shyly.
"Yeah, and I have to take a shower after you finished."

After I finished in the bathroom, I walked towards Alex and said:"Look.. I know you hate me but.. I'm sorry for carrying that bag with me."
"It's okay, Jack. I'll get you.. Kind of.. But please, don't ever do coke, you get me?"
"Why?"
Alex looked shocked at me.
"What?", I said laughing.

Alex's P.O.V.
"You're asking me WHY you should NEVER do coke? Seriously?"
"Yeah. Why?", he asked me again. His eyes had something I have never seen before.
He kind of looked disdainfully at me, yet arrogant seems to be the better fitting word for it.
"Just fucking leave."
"What?"
"I said, LEAVE!"
"But.. What? Aalex!"
"No. Not 'Aalex'.. Fuck no! Get out! I don't want you to have in my hotel room ever again when you look so fucking arrogant at me. Leave!"
"So. I look arrogant you say? Really? How about this. I fucking already did coke.", he said.
And with that I wanted to slap him in his face, but I didn't. Instead I pushed him out of my hotel room and closed the door behind me.
He knocked on the door.
"Aalex. C'mon.. I was joking. Please open."
I didn't answer. I just ignored his knocking and tried to get a shower to calm myself down.

When I finished I looked at the clock and saw that we had meet&Greet. 'Fuck! I'm late!', I said out loud and hesitated, walking outside my hotel room.
When I opened the door, Jack slipped in.
"Seriously Jack I have no fucking time. I mean, we don't have time for this now. We have m&g."
"So what. They can wait.", he said holding my wrist.
"Jack. Let. Go. Of. Me.", I said to him, looking angrily in his eyes.
I saw hurt in his eyes.
'Really? He's hurt? Really? Like in all seriousness, he's the one who's hurt?', I asked myself still looking angrily at him.
He was still holding my wrist.
"Let me go!", I said, rising my tone.
"Okay.", he said, finally letting go.

Jack's P.O.V.
"Fucking thank you!", Alex said, rubbing his arm like I'm poisoned or something.
I know what I could use. It's a little helper. Even though I don't have to, I'm going to ask my little helper to help me. (I know.. what stupid description of coke. Huh? I said it. Now watch how my story continues, even though there was a little bit of Alex's P.O.V in it. But that's just to make the story line better. So. Excuse me for my long ass interruption. Enjoy the rest of my tour story.)
I went to the bathroom to snort some coke. (Let me tell you. This shit hurts. I'm not even kidding. You have to really snort that shit in and it hurts.)

After I had the help of my little helper, I went to the meet and greet.

"Hey.. Sorry I'm late.", I apologized to the other guys.
"Yeah, you're ten fucking minutes late, Jack.", Vinny said angrily.
"So what? It can happen. I just needed a little bit of help."
He looked confused at me:"What help? To get ready or what?"
"Yes. You know. A little bit booze here and there."
Just after I spoken that sentence Alex walked in.
He eyed me, but didn't say anything.
"What is your problem?", I asked him out loud.
"Jack, we have meet and greets now, please behave."
"I'm always behaving. I don't know what your fucking problem is."
"Yeah, whatever. I'm glad we only have meet and greets today and not a fucking show."
"What are you two guys talking about?", Vinny asked confused.
"Nothing.. It's nothing.", I said.

After the meet and greet I overheard some fans talking to each other:"I don't know, but he seemed off."
"Yeah, I know. He seemed not to be himself today."
'What the? What are they talking about? I wasn't myself?'
I saw one of them walking towards me:"Erm.. Jack.. Did we something that made you angry?"
"What? No. No, you didn't guys. I'm just a little bit exhausted that's all.", I replied adding a smile.
"Oh, okay. I hope you get enough sleep today, because we're coming to your guys concert tomorrow.", the girl smiled.
"Thank you. Have a nice day.", I said, starting to walk away.
"Wait! Jack. C.. Can I hug you?"
"Sure.", I said spreading my arms.
She hugged me tight, cuddling:"I really want you to get better Jack."
I was baffled.
"Thank you.", I said and with that she walked away.

Wow.. I really needed that hug. I know it sounds stupid, but I really needed it to remind myself that kids are looking up to me.
I felt sick. Sick for doing coke.
'Oh well. Can't make everything right.', I said to myself and looked over to Alex.
"What you want?", I asked him, somehow forgetting everything I just felt about a few seconds ago.
"Don't you dare to speak to me in that arrogant tone again, ever. I'm going to have dinner with Lisa. I don't fucking care what you're going to do.", he said and walked out of the venue.
He can consider himself happy, he has a girlfriend. Someone waiting for him to call him, someone that wants to be with him.. And I.. What have I? Nothing. Just me and my fucking coke.
I don't know, but I had a feeling that the rest of the evening wasn't going to take a good direction.

Notes

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