I'm gonna break down these walls...
I wish you could see your face right now, cause you're grinning like a fool
I looked like shit, no change there. My hair wasn't working with me and my eyes drooped from sleepless nights and endless nightmares that I will get teased at this school to. I say teased, more like bullied till I want to die.
I pulled my Blink shirt over my skinny, unshaped body sighing at my reflection in the mirror. I pulled my skinny jeans over my scarred legs, the only thing I was good at was bleeding.
The school front was filled with gossiping girls and boys trying to feel them up. Looks like this school was the exact same as my old one.
A boy with caramel hair highlighted with pink walked through the arches and the girls followed him. Oh my fuck he was perfect. I felt fangirl feelings rush through me as well as butterflys, that's when I realised he was headed for the bench I was sitting on. Fuck shit balls wank. He walked up to me, and by the time that had happened everyone had walked away from him.
"Hi, you're the new kid, right?" He said smiling. Oh fuck his smile.
"Y-yeah, Im Jack." I stuttered. Nice one Jack. He sat beside me, he had a blink shirt on as well and once we noticed each others tops we laughed together.
"Well i already like you!" He said grinning. Could Alex be my first friend in years? I doubt it, once he finds out who I really am he'll soon leave me. That's what always happens with fuck ups like me, right?
I spent my first four lessons taking notes in the spare seat at the back of the classrooms alone. I spent every second thinking about Alex, the guy I had just met. This was not good.
Lunch couldn't have arrived any slower, I bought a cheese roll from the canteen as i made my way to a tall tree about half a mile from the school. I decided that this was my spot. That's when I heard singing coming from not far away at all.
Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye,
it could be for the last time as its not right,
​dont let yourself get in over your head he said,
Alone and far from home we'll find you,
It started to speed up from there. I listened in and my feet eventually searched for the beautiful voice. Once they found it I saw Alex sitting against a tree with a guitar and a black notebook.
"You have a beautiful voice." I said letting him know I was there.
"Shit, did you just hear that?" Alex said staring into my eyes.
"Yes, and I want to hear it again." I said smiling sitting beside him.
"No, I suck, I suck at singing and writing."
"How can you think that?!" I said shocked at the winner of the biggest liar.
"I suck, I suck at everything." He said looking down. As he turned his arm I noticed about 6 purple lines on the inside of his wrist.
"I dont think anyone's ever told me a bigger lie. You are an amazing singer, I wish I had your voice so much and if I did I would show it off. And I'll tell you this, you defiantly don't suck at being attractive." He smirked at the last comment. His lips pressed together, and tears started to drip down his cheeks. "No Alex don't cry, please don't cry." I said hugging him, wrapping my arms around his neck.
"Jack why do you care about me so much?"
" we're more alike than you think Alex." Before I could control my self I unbuttoned my jeans, which grew a confused look on Alex's face, and showed him the hundreds of scars that had formed on my leg over the past few years, some white, some purple and some still blood red.
"Jack why?" He said tears staying a friend to his eyes.
"I could ask you the same thing Alex." I said as I buttoned my jeans back up.
"I'm just a fuck up Jack, I'm just a lost soul waiting to give up." I hugged him tight. So tight I struggled to breath, Then kissed his cheek.
"Don't ever talk or think like that Alex, never."
Alex's POV
I liked being in Jacks arms. I felt weirdly safe, the weirdest part was I'd just met him and already I felt myself falling for him. But I would never tell him I was gay, I would never tell anyone.
I pulled my Blink shirt over my skinny, unshaped body sighing at my reflection in the mirror. I pulled my skinny jeans over my scarred legs, the only thing I was good at was bleeding.
The school front was filled with gossiping girls and boys trying to feel them up. Looks like this school was the exact same as my old one.
A boy with caramel hair highlighted with pink walked through the arches and the girls followed him. Oh my fuck he was perfect. I felt fangirl feelings rush through me as well as butterflys, that's when I realised he was headed for the bench I was sitting on. Fuck shit balls wank. He walked up to me, and by the time that had happened everyone had walked away from him.
"Hi, you're the new kid, right?" He said smiling. Oh fuck his smile.
"Y-yeah, Im Jack." I stuttered. Nice one Jack. He sat beside me, he had a blink shirt on as well and once we noticed each others tops we laughed together.
"Well i already like you!" He said grinning. Could Alex be my first friend in years? I doubt it, once he finds out who I really am he'll soon leave me. That's what always happens with fuck ups like me, right?
I spent my first four lessons taking notes in the spare seat at the back of the classrooms alone. I spent every second thinking about Alex, the guy I had just met. This was not good.
Lunch couldn't have arrived any slower, I bought a cheese roll from the canteen as i made my way to a tall tree about half a mile from the school. I decided that this was my spot. That's when I heard singing coming from not far away at all.
Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye,
it could be for the last time as its not right,
​dont let yourself get in over your head he said,
Alone and far from home we'll find you,
It started to speed up from there. I listened in and my feet eventually searched for the beautiful voice. Once they found it I saw Alex sitting against a tree with a guitar and a black notebook.
"You have a beautiful voice." I said letting him know I was there.
"Shit, did you just hear that?" Alex said staring into my eyes.
"Yes, and I want to hear it again." I said smiling sitting beside him.
"No, I suck, I suck at singing and writing."
"How can you think that?!" I said shocked at the winner of the biggest liar.
"I suck, I suck at everything." He said looking down. As he turned his arm I noticed about 6 purple lines on the inside of his wrist.
"I dont think anyone's ever told me a bigger lie. You are an amazing singer, I wish I had your voice so much and if I did I would show it off. And I'll tell you this, you defiantly don't suck at being attractive." He smirked at the last comment. His lips pressed together, and tears started to drip down his cheeks. "No Alex don't cry, please don't cry." I said hugging him, wrapping my arms around his neck.
"Jack why do you care about me so much?"
" we're more alike than you think Alex." Before I could control my self I unbuttoned my jeans, which grew a confused look on Alex's face, and showed him the hundreds of scars that had formed on my leg over the past few years, some white, some purple and some still blood red.
"Jack why?" He said tears staying a friend to his eyes.
"I could ask you the same thing Alex." I said as I buttoned my jeans back up.
"I'm just a fuck up Jack, I'm just a lost soul waiting to give up." I hugged him tight. So tight I struggled to breath, Then kissed his cheek.
"Don't ever talk or think like that Alex, never."
Alex's POV
I liked being in Jacks arms. I felt weirdly safe, the weirdest part was I'd just met him and already I felt myself falling for him. But I would never tell him I was gay, I would never tell anyone.
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