Alex strummed his guitar idly as he stared out of the window. It was late, he could expect Jack to be running into view any time now...he shook his head. He wouldn't believe it...he couldn't.
Jack was moving...this would be their last night doing this...in twelve hours Jack was moving four thousand miles away and neither boy could do a thing about it. Alex jumped at the sudden tap on his window but smiled when he saw his boyfriend on the other side. He unlatched the window's lock an opened it so that Jack could climb through.
"Hey." Jack whispered as he plopped onto Alex's bed and the elder put his guitar away.
"Hey." Alex walked over to the bed, settling himself in Jack's arms. "I don't want you to go." He whispered. Jack sighed and wrapped his arms around the older teens small frame.
"I know. I don't want to go either, but I have to."
"N-no...you could stay with me until we graduate and then we could get an apartment over the summer...just please, don't go."
"Lex, you know I have to go. I promise it'll just be a few months. I'll visit over spring break and I'll come back in the summer and we can get our place just like we planned."
Alex nodded, but Jack's reassurance didn't keep the tears from filling his eyes and crawling down his cheeks. He didn't want to accept that this was their last night together until break which was a whole two and a half whopping months away. They'd been friends nearly their entire lives and had started dating just two years ago...being apart for longer than a few days was completely abnormal for the both of them not to mention strenuous.
"Don't cry. Alex, I love you so much and I swear I would change this if I could."
"But you can't."
"You're right, I can't. So why don't we make tonight enjoyable?" Jack made his question more of a statement when he kissed the elder gently and let his hands fall down to Alex's hips.
Alex smiled into the kiss knowing exactly where this was going, they were both teenage boys, really he didn't expect much more. Alex hummed at the comforting touch of Jack's fingers in his hair, lazy grin resting on his lips.

"I'm going to die with only my hand for two whole months." Jack joked, a small giggle escaping his throat. Alex couldn't help but chuckle back but he really did not want to think about Jack's leaving until he absolutely had to especially since their time left could now be counted on his finger tips.
"Hey...don't talk about that...not now, please."
"Shit, I'm sorry Lex. No more, scouts honor."
"You were never a boy scout idiot."
"Yeah but my brother was so it counts."
"Whatever." The elder murmered with a roll of his eyes and snuggled himself further to Jack's chest wishing he could stay there forever.
But he knew he couldn't. There wasn't much talking for the next hour or so the pair submerging themselves in bitter sweet silence and melancholy moonlight. The physical contact knowing that the other was still there was just enough for each boy.
"Five hours." Alex murmered, slightly tightening his grip around the younger's torso. He wasn't ready to give Jack up, he didn't want to, he wasn't sure if he could.
"Don't count. It'll only make both of us crazy." Jack mumbled back also pulling the older boy closer.
"I know...it just sucks so much. I feel like if i keep counting all of a sudden time may just stop and this won't be real, you won't leave and we could stay like this forever. I-I know it won't happen...but I wish it would. I wish something would change so you could stay." Alex was crying by the time he finished talking, tears slowly rolling onto Jack's bare chest.
The younger boy pulled his boyfriend on top of him, hugging Alex protectively into his chest, rubbing the elders back in a soothing manner.
"I know..." he let out a sigh and pressed his cheek into Alex's hair, his own tears straying free from his eyes for the first time that night. "This sucks. So, so, much."
"You'll call right? And we can text, a-and there's always Skype like when you took that trip to your grandparents place a few years ago..." Alex babbled, now choking on his words as he cried. "But none of that's the same..."
Jack shook his head and kissed the elders hair.
"It isn't the same but we'll manage, right. And I know we will cause we always do. Okay? We'll pull through and even if it hurts we've got the summer and then all the time left from there to look forward to."
Alex wanted to protest and complain about how far away that was but he already knew that Jack was well aware that it was far, he also knew that Jack had said it not only to comfort him but also comfort himself. So he stayed quiet and wept into his boyfriend's chest knowing that Jack was doing the same into his hair.

"Alex...Lex, I've gotta go." Jack said just loud enough to wake the older boy up. Sunlight was now flooding the bedroom, dancing over each of the boy's bare skin. Alex squinted his eyes and looked up at his everything.
"My parents are gonna be up soon...and the planes gonna leave..." Jack sighed noticing Alex's face fall at the mention of the airplane. "I-I'll call when we land and even before we leave." He sighed hoping to put the glimmer of hope back in his boyfriend's eyes but it didn't work.
"Go ahead." Alex mumbled as he removed himself from Jack, keeping himself underneath the duvet. Jack nodded and looked at Alex for a moment before getting up and collecting his clothes that were scattered around the floor near the bed then slipping them on.
"You'll be fine without me y'know." Jack said, keeping his voice low.
"How can you say that?"
"Cause you're my angle, and angels make it through no matter how hard it is. You've just gotta remember to keep breathing for me. Can you do that Lex?"
"Yeah." Alex let out a breath and reached out, pulling Jack onto the bed. "I'm gonna miss you so much though. It a already hurts and you're not even gone yet."
"I know." Jack said with an empty laugh to accompany it. He leaned forward resting is forehead on Alex's. "I love you."
"I love you too."
The elder tilted his head and connected his lips with Jack's pulling him into a slow, sweet, and somehow saddening kiss.
Jack was the one to pull away, pain clear in his eyes as he looked to the window and back to Alex.
"I've gotta go."
Alex nodded and turned away telling Jack to go, unable to watch him leave. When the window shut for the last time Alex would hear in months he turned into his pillow and pulled the cover over his head, sobbing into the pillow as though his life depended on it. If it were possible to drown in your own tears Alex would've sworn that's what he was doing now. In the time between spring break and Jack's departure Alex hadn't been fairing well. He'd lost weight, sleeping without Jack by his side as he usually would've been was a struggle. The only time the eighteen year old really felt happy was when he'd get to talk to Jack and video chat with the younger boy.
Being virtually alone aside from his friend Rian didn't help the chesnut and honey haired boy much either. He smiled and pulled open his drawer to retrieve the pictures Jack had sent him along with some notes that never failed to make him smile. Alex traced his fingers over Jack's arm knowing that in a few hours he'd be able to actually touch the younger.
He filed through the pictures finding his favorite of Jack at the beach standing in the water, blowing a kiss at the camera.

"Alex can you get the door?" His mom called from the kitchen.
"Yeah." He shouted back and scrambled off of the couch taking quick steps towards, his mouth dropping when he saw who was behind the piece of wood and he couldn't help but throw himself onto the lanky black and blonde haired boy who stood in front of him. Jack dropped his bag and wrapped his arms tightly around the older boy's waist.
"I missed you so much." Alex whispered into Jack's neck.
"I missed you too, Lex."
Alex pulled away from Jack after a long while of not saying anything, just slowly swaying from side to side. He grabbed the younger boy's hand and lead him into the house. Alex examined his boyfriend from across his bedroom as the younger noodled on his guitar, noticing quite a few changes in the younger since he'd moved to California. Jack had a tan that seemed to suit him, he looked like he'd lost weight and traded it in for muscle,he was a little taller than Alex remembered him to be, and his face seemed to have a serious undertone to it. But none of that bothered him, he was just glad to have Jack with him.
Jack smiled once he finished playing All The Small Things and set the acoustic in its stand.
There really hadn't been much catching up to do since the two had talked daily since Jack left, all Alex had to do was show the younger the few alterations to his bedroom. He'd put up a lot more pictures of him and Jack on his walls and quite a few Jack had sent were posted too. Jack had smiled at that, admitting he'd done the same to his own bedroom.
"So what are we doing this week?" Jack asked, pulling Alex into his chest as they watched the Nightmare Before Christmas.
"I dunno. Not much has changed around here. Rian works at our favorite ice cream shop now, we could go there later tomorrow. And the indoor water parks are open now too. We've got a lot of options really and there's always lying around the house."
Jack hummed and kissed Alex's hair like he'd missed doing for far too long. "As long as we're together."

Alex drove Jack to the Hardigans Ice Cream Shop downtown the next day when the younger complained Alex into going.
"Babe...you've got a little something right there." Jack giggled as he picked up a napkin and reached over the table, wiping off the melted ice cream on the corner of Alex's mouth.
Alex giggled right back and mumbled a thank you.
It was starting to feel almost as if Jack had never left and they were just in the beginning stage of their relationship again, Alex liked that feeling.

“No! Jack, I swear if you drop me...!" Alex half laughed and shouted. They were at the water park and Jack being the idiot he was had to mess with his boyfriend at least once on his trip. He'd slung Alex over his shoulder threatening to drop him in the deep end of the pool, they both knew he wouldn't but each of them played along nonetheless.
Jack laughed and set his boyfriend on the ground gently, keeping an arm around the older boy's waist.
"C'mon asshole, I wanna go down the slide." Alex said with a roll of his eyes, pecking the younger's lips before leading him towards the water slides. Jack pressed Alex as closely as possible into his chest as they went down the water slide, both boys screaming out of excitement as they flew downward and dropped into the pool.
"Lets go again!" Jack shouted, childlike glee oozing from his voice, as soon as he bobbed up from beneath the water's surface. Alex laughed and swam towards the pool's edge and the younger boy followed.
"How bout we go to the hot tub and just chill out, we've been here for hours now."
Jack smiled, also quite open to Alex's suggestion, and hoisted himself out of the pool, holding out a hand for Alex to grab onto. So he did...only to pull Jack back into the pool.
"That's for acting like you were going to drop me." The now dirty blonde said, completely serious until his facéde broke and he was smiling from ear to ear laughing like a complete idiot.
Now it really did feel like Jack hadn't gone anywhere...and that made it even harder to bare the though of letting his Jack go yet again. Jack wrapped his arms around Alex's waist and sighed contentedly. He hated this, he loved being with Alex, but being so happy and just having to leave...he'd tried so hard to get his dad to keep his job instead of relocating. He really had, but he lost that battle and there he was ready to cry all over again. Five more days weren't enough for him, any limited time with Alex wasn't enough for him. That's what he hated most, he'd have to wait months to see the older boy again.
And being apart from Alex that long didn't suit him. Sleep was always a struggle without Alex's soft snores as his lullaby, and he'd taken the habit of exorcizing too much to avoid just how lonely he was, and he'd lost the spark in his eye becoming dull and boring in his new home, he could only imagine how worse that would get when he was being weened off of the taste of what should've been their every day. Aside from that he hadn't made many friends in California, there was Zack but he was Jack's cousin and that didn't exactly count as an actual friend.He hadn't informed Alex of any of that, he didn't want his boyfriend to worry any more than he already did. Even more now that he'd seen Alex, the elder was probably at an unhealthy weight with how thin he was and the first day he'd been there the elder was obviously exhausted. Being apart was nothing short of cruel torture for them both.
"Alex, can we turn in for the night? M'tired." Jack whined, pawing at his boyfriend's thigh that he currently had his head resting on.
"Yeah, c'mon." Alex chuckled, lightly pusing at Jack's shoulder so the younger would get up.
They made their way into Alex's bedroom, only to find that Jack really wasn't all that tired once there. The younger pinned Alex against the door and connected their lips in one swift motion and as expected the elder gave in and eagerly pulled Jack towards his bed.
They both agreed that it had been too long since they'd done this and shamelessly wasted no time.
The pair stripped off their clothes, grasping onto whatever they could of each other, lips meeting frevently as they kneeled on Alex's bed.
Jack pushed the elder down onto his back, it'd already been established that he'd be taking dominance and he was going to assert that as much as he could. The lanky teen bent over his boyfriend, grabbing a fist full of his honey streaked hair tugging at it lightly before enclosing his lips around the other's.
Then time slowed, it always did right before they got to the main act but neither of them ever fully got used to it. Jack pulled away making eye contact with the elder, who was clearly wanting more attention than he'd been getting. Jack smiled slightly and reached over to Alex's bedside table where his bottle of lube was sitting- lacking much of its content that had been there prior to Jack's departure. He generously coated three fingers before bringing them to tease Alex's entrance before sliding two in.
The elder hissed at the sudden intrusion but shifted back telling Jack to keep going. Jack slipped in a third finger with no warning, forgetting how long it'd been since Alex had done this. He curled his fingers causing the older boy to bite down hard on his lower lip, the burning stretch almost too much for him.
"Are you good?" Jack asked a few minutes later, widened pupils dark with lust. Alex nodded and released his lower lip from the grip of his teeth. The younger pulled out his fingers and reached towards the bedside table to be stopped halfway there.
"Just you." Alex whispered, pushing Jack's hand down onto the mattres.
"Alex-"
"Just you." He repeated, staring at the boy on top of him with an almost annoyed expression. Jack simply nodded and reached for the bottle of lube where it lay on the bed. He knew Alex wouldn't be stupid enough to deney him that, without it it'd only hurt them both, Alex more so than Jack. Jack lined himself to Alex, slowly pushing forward trying to ease the elder's pain as much as he could until he got the signal to move. But the pained scowl on Alex's face said that Jack wouldn't be getting the sign to go just yet, months of not even being stretched had clearly taken their toll on Alex.
"O-okay." The elder huffed, forcing himself to relax when he'd made himself as comfortable as he could.
Jack started out slowly until soft moans were falling from his boyfriend's raw lips, quickening the pace of his hips little by little.
"F-fuck, harder." Alex whimpered as he hooked his legs around Jack's waist.
Jack followed the command for a few moments before slowing his pace and rolling his hips in small circles just to drive Alex crazy. The elder wrapped his arms around Jack's shoulders beginning to claw his back, already breathing heavily. "H-harder dammit." Alex stuttered, pulling himself closer to the younger.
Once again Jack complied for few moments, making a waterfall of curses fall softly from Alex's lips. But it didn't last long, Jack pulled himself completely out, earning a whine of protest from the elder at the sudden emptieness.
Jack rolled his eyes and scooted off of the bed ignoring the confused expressionon Alex's face. He stood over Alex pulling the elder towards the edge of the bed by his hips.
"Jack what are you doing?" Alex panted, looking up at his boyfriend wide eyed, pupils blown.
"You'll see just turn around."
Alex raised a brow but turned over onto his stomach anyway, bringing his knees up to his sides. Jack brought his hands onto his boyfriend's hips, gripping them rather tightly, pulling Alex closer to him and slamming in with absolutely no warning. "Shit." Alex breathed, his fingers already knotting into the bed sheets.
"Fuck, you're so good Lex." Jack muttered, bending over so his chest was pressed to his boyfirend's back. All he got in reply was a guttural moan from the dirty blonde and a slight push back. Jack smiled to himself and pulled Alex up to stand on his knees, keeping a steady pace all the while. He angled himself around for a few thrusts until he found exactly what he was looking for, Alex's arched back and loud moan his dead give away. "Shh, you wouldn't want your parents to come in and catch us would you?" All he got in return was another loud moan from Alex's swollen red lips. "Oh but you'd like that wouldn't you, huh?"
"S-shit, Jack." Alex panted before biting down, hard, on his lip. Completely ignoring Jack's questions, too wrapped up in pure pleasure to even play along. "Right fucking there." Jack moved his hands along the expanse of Alex's chest, finally settling on the elder's perky nipples giving each of them a light pinch; in turn making Alex take a sharp breath in.
"You like that,don't you Lex?" Jack growled almost animalisticaly into his boyfirend's ear. Of course Alex loved it, he'd been way too far apart from Jack for too long; he'd missed this and he'd longed for it only days after his boyfriend left. "Y-yeah..." The elder choked out as he reached an arm back to tangle his fingers in Jack's hair. "F-fuck, keep going." And of course Jack wasnt going to comply, he pulled himself coupletely out of his boyfriend and settled himself onto the bed, laying on his back, resting on his elbows. "I want you to ride me." He explained nonchalantly, waiting for Alex to act upon his request. Less than a moment later Alex was sliding himself down onto Jack's cock. He stayed still for awhile, adjusting himself as needed. Before Jack could bother the elder about moving he was raising on his knees and slamming back down again. "Shit!" Jack choked out along with a low moan. The dirty blonde continued to slide up and down Jack's cock, holding back loud moans all the while. The fact that Jack was making the most fucking hot noises beneath him made that a hard task. Alex rocked his hips back and fourth, taking in all of Jack's length. With each time he slammed down the sound of skin hitting skin echoing through the room. He stopped for a moment, rolling his hips in small, filthy circles admiring Jack's slack jaw, messy dark hair sticking to his forehead, and his doe eyes staring at Alex's every movement before beginning to slide up and down the younger's dick yet again. Finally Alex let out the moan he'd been holding in when Jack's length hit his prostate dead on. Chills trailed up his spine as he continued to hit the same spot repeatedly until he felt like he was going to fucking explode -- quite literally. Sensing his boyfriend's fustration Jack brought a hand to Alex's leaking member, sloppily jerking him off. It didn't take much until Alex was bucking into Jack's hand and painting his boyfirend's chest with ribbons of white. He continued to slowly slide up and down Jack's throbbing cock, riding out his orgasm for what it was worth. Alex tipped his head forward, merging his lips with his boyfirend's open mouth. Jack kissed back with too much tongue, too much teeth, completely greedy and it was perfect. "Fuck, Lex." Jack gasped brining a hand to grip onto Alex's hip.
"I'm so close." He moaned, bucking his hips up to meet Alex. "Go ahead." He said, voice low, breath fanning out against Jack's neck. "Come for me." Jack continued raising his hips meeting each of Alex's movements, low,dirty moans falling from his lips. Soon enough Jack couldn't take it anymore and was coming inside Alex, moaning out the latter's name. Alex collapsed beside the younger, officially spent and ready to sleep, but the sticky mess on Jack's chest still needed to be attended to. Jack pulled himself out and rolled off of the bed.
"I've got it, you just go to sleep." Jack said as he leaned down to kiss the salty skin of Alex's forehead.
"I love you." Alex murmured already drifting off.
"I love you too, Lex." -

Much sooner than either Jack or Alex had expected it to arrive, Sunday came and they were on their way to the air port. The pair were snuggled close in the backseat of Alex's mothers' car. Jack was kissing Alex's hair every few minutes and the elder kept tightening his grip on his boy with each passing second. But neither complained about the other's needy contact. Even if it did bother them they couldn't complain, not when Jack's departure was so close.
"Lex, you know I'm not going anywhere right now. I'm right here, I'm not gone yet." Jack murmured in attempt to sooth his boyfriend. Alex simply nodded and loosened his grip around Jack's torso only to pull himself as close as he could to the younger with his seatbelt limiting his movements. Jack sighed and rested a hand on the curve of Alex's side. He pressed another kiss onto the elder's soft hair and adverted his attention to the window; he knew that the upset expression on Alex's face would be enough to break his heart. Much sooner than wanted they were at the air port. Jack had already gotten his bags out of the car and he and Alex were standing on the side walk in front of the entrance to the air port.
"I'll miss you." Jack mumbled, his forehead resting on Alex's.
"I'll miss you too." Alex choked out, trying his best to hold back tears.
"Hey, don't do that, don't cry. I'll be back soon and everything's gonna be okay."
Alex couldn't respond at all to that, he couldn't bring himself to believe that Jack was leaving again. So instead of bothering to say anything more he tipped his head up to meet Jack's lips with his own, savoring the taste.
"I love you Jay." He said softly, lips still just centimeters away from the younger's.
"I love you too Lex...hey can you promise me something?"
"Y-yeah?" "Keep breathing or me while I'm gone, just like you've been doing. I need my angel to be alright, okay?" Jack said as he nudged Alex's nose with his own.
"I promise, I'll do as best I can."
Jack nodded and pulled his boyfriend into his chest, just standing there for a long while before letting him go.
"I love you." Jack said knowing Alex needed to hear it just once more before he left.
"I love you too."
Before Alex could fully register what was happening Jack slipped out his arms gathered his things and began walking into the airport...and all he could do was watch him go.

A month had past and Jack was past tired of waiting to go back to Alex. He hated California, not the place really but the distance it put between him and his boyfriend. That's why when he saw Alex's number pop up on his caller ID he was elated, it was strange that he was calling from his house phone, but Alex was calling dammit and that was enough for Jack.
"Hello?" "Hey, uh Jack." A voice that most definitely wasnt Alex's said.
"Y-yeah?"
"It's Mrs. Gaskarth...Alex is in the hospital." Right there Jack could feel his heart drop into his stomach. What would he even be in the hispital for? as far as Jack knew he was in good health, he sounded fine when they talked just the day before.
"He's going to be in there for awhile until his weight starts to go up. He told me that he wanted to explain everything to you himself...but I can tell you what's going on if you need to know...Jack? You there?"
"Uh, yeah. C-can you, uhm, tell me what's wrong?"
"Well he's underweight, he's fallen into the zone where he's considered to be anorexic. He should be better in a few months, probably even before you come back." Jack nodded though Mrs. Gaskarth couldn't see him, tears beginning to prickle at his eyes.
"C-can I talk to him?"
"He doesn't have his phone at the hospital but I'll be sure to bring it to him tomorrow."
"O-okay...thanks Mrs. G." Jack said quickly hanging up his cell phone and throwing it on his bed.
That was it, he was going back home to his boyfriend.

"Dad! Do you not understand that he needs me?!" Jack shouted, throwing his hands into the air. He was standing in front of his father's desk in his study, he'd been explaining the situation to him for at least half an hour and all he got in response was a cold No, well Jack wasn't settling for that.
"You can't just leave school and go halfway across the country. You'll graduate here and then you can go back." And that was the last straw, he didn't care how much trouble he'd be in, but this was just not acceptable.
"What the fuck is wrong with you? Alex could be fucking dying in the hospital right now and I'm stuck here where I didn't even want to be in the first place. And if you haven't noticed I'm miserable here too, not only because the person I love more than anything in the world is like fucking four thousand miles away but I just don't belong here. And you know what, I never will." Jack sighed and ran his fingers through his hair. "When I asked you to stay where we were I wasn't kidding. I wasn't just being the typical kid afraid of change...I asked you to stay because I need to be back home...I need to be with Alex to be okay." By the time Jack was finished he barely noticed the hot tears rolling down his cheeks or the arms that were gently wrapping themselves around his shoulders. But he guessed both of those changes were good, his dad wasn't one to openly show affection and a hug coming from him...well that meant a lot. And those tears had been fighting to break loose ever since he'd gotten on the first plane to California. As far as Jack could tell he was going back home... He was going back to Alex.

"Remember to call when you land and the driver will have the keys to your apartment, okay?"
"Alright." Jack said as he unbuckled his seat belt. "Thanks Dad...I really don't think you know how much this means to me."
"Yeah I do...I know what it's like to be in love." His father said, glancing at his mother who sat in the passenger seat. Jack smiled and clamoured out of the car, collecting his things before bidding his parents farewell and making his way into the California airport for the fourth time that year.

"Alex, someone's here to see you." A nurse said standing in the doorway, her name was Debbie...at least that's what Alex thought it was but really didnt' care.
"Let them in." He said almost lifelessly not bothering to look in her direction. He could hear her saying something to someone in the hall and a voice saying thank you...Alex swore he knew that voice. No, it couldn't be who he thought it was...there was no way. Alex turned his head to see Jack making his way through the door carrying a large bouquet of orange roses. No, he was seeing things...Jack was in California...not here.
"I know flowers are a little girly but I know how orange is your favorite color so..." Alex shut his eyes and opened them once more...Jack was still there, goofy smile on his lips, stupidly tight fitting jeans, the shoes Alex had bought him, and his infamous Kevin McCallister tee shirt. Jack was right fucking there...Jack came back for him.
"This isn't real." Was all Alex could utter from his lips.
"I'm pretty sure it is. I mean I just got off of a plane a good two hours ago and I don't think I imagined that." "You came home? Why...?" Jack made his way to Alex's hospital bed and sat on the edge.
"Cause you needed me...and I need you too."
"W-when are you going back?"
"I'm not, my dad got me a place to stay here. I'm not going anywhere."
Alex smiled wide and reached out to wrap his boyfriend in his arms.
"You're the fucking best. I love you so fucking much." Alex mumbled into Jack's neck breathing in the younger boy's familiar scent.
"I know, I love you too." Jack chuckled beginning to hug Alex back.

Jack smiled into Alex's neck, he was finally back where he belonged and he sure as hell wasn't letting go.

Notes

So this was the first smut I've ever written...I hope it wasn't that terrible and you enjoyed it. So far everyone I've tested it out on loved it so I'm hoping it gets a similar reaction here. Feedback is welcome :)