Nightmares

I wake up, stretching and yawning, cuddling into the arms of the man laying next to me. The man I love, Rian Dawson. I never thought he could be mine, being my teacher and all, but here we are!

It makes me a little sad sometimes to know that I'm not allowed to leave this house, but at the same time, I don't believe there's much out in the world for me. I do miss my friend Zack though. He and Jack are still together, but they say I shouldn't see him, that it could hurt my relationship with Rian.

I'll do anything for my love with Rian. I used to be scared of him, of what we had. Not anymore. He's taught me what love is. Everything that the boy, Alex, I think it was, showed me, was wrong.

There's so much pleasure in pain. Even if he doesn't say it much, I know Rian loves me. He has said it, it's not like I'm pulling it from nowhere. And he's never left me. He never will. Rian's the first person I've completely trusted in a long time. The other ones have all hurt me.

But I'm happy now.

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