Oh, Calamity.

Days past and still Alex couldn’t find the confidence to tell Jack how he really felt and it was slowly eating away at the caramel haired boy and the foul mood that oozed from every pore in his skin was also beginning to get on the nerves of everyone around him. Everyone except Jack, of course.

Jack was concerned for the elder boy as they sat in silence at the park just down the road from Alex’s house. Jack was swinging lazily on the swing with Alex sat at his feet staring at the ground trying to get his consistent thoughts of Jack out of his head as he felt a blunt force to his chest causing him to topple over backwards.

‘What the fuck was that for?’ He asked the smirking younger boy, as he stood up and brushed the dirt off of his hoodie, hating the way Jack found his own immaturity so amusing.

‘Your brain was about to explode if you studied the ground any harder, I saved you’ Jack joked attempting to ease the tension that was rolling off of Alex and surrounding them both. Jack’s concern for the older boy turned slightly to irritation as Alex dismissed his joke with a wave of his hand and an eye roll. Alex didn’t mean to be so irritable but he needed to get these thoughts out of his head before it did explode but the words stuck in his throat like glue. Anytime he tried to form words they just got stuck and wouldn’t come out despite how hard he tried, and the elder was seriously trying.

Jack, in his state of slight irritation, rose from the swing and roughly grabbed the hand Alex had used to dismiss him and pulled the incredibly grumpy teen to look at him.

‘What the hell is wrong with you?’ Jack spoke with irritation clear in his voice, the sound made Alex cringe a little, he knew he was in trouble now and with his current lack of ability to voice his thoughts was not going to help him at all.

‘There’s nothing wrong, I just don’t appreciate getting kicked in the chest’ The elder said nonchalantly, refusing to meet Jacks eyes. He didn’t want to fight with the younger boy, he just wanted to cuddle and kiss him but things just never seemed to work out the way the elder wanted.

‘If there’s nothing wrong why are you being such a bitch?’ The younger questioned with a slightly aggressive tug on Alex’s wrist. All the boy wanted was answers to the millions of questions that clouded his already pretty full brain.

‘Because you’re driving me fucking insane!’ Alex exploded, tugging his wrist from Jacks hand and running the hand through his already messy unstyled hair.

‘Do you have any idea how annoying it is to go to bed thinking of you and to wake up thinking about you? Then I get to also spend the time in between waking and sleeping thinking of you too! You’re all that’s ever on my mind and I don’t know how to tell you any of this’ The elder said not realising what was spilling out his mouth before it was out and was never coming back. The elder slapped his hand over his face, ignoring the stinging sensation left behind. He was such a fucking idiot.

‘And now I’ve just told you in the most unromantic way of all’ If there was ever a moment where Alex wanted the ground to open up and swallow him whole this was it. Jack on the other hand was thrilled with the news, sure Alex could have told him sooner, and without yelling and in a more romantic way but who was Jack to complain? Alex liked him in the way he liked Alex.

‘Never had you down as much of a romantic anyway’ Jack joked as he tried to pry the elders hands away from his face so he could look at him.

‘But I like you too, so much. Even if you are a grumpy bitch’ Jack said again watching as Alex smiled lighly and wrapped his arms round Jacks waist.

‘Maybe I wouldn’t be so grumpy if you kissed me’ Alex said trying sound casual but succeeded in only sounding desperate, but he could beat himself up about that later. Right now he wanted Jacks lips on his but of course Jack was going to make him work for it.

‘That’s not very polite is it now, Mr Gaskarth’ Jack said with a scolding tone, he couldn’t lie he did want to kiss Alex but why not have a little fun first. His plans for fun were cut short by Alex roughly grabbing his face and whispering:

‘Shut up and kiss me now’

This time Jack obliged.

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