Wanted Man

-Alex’s Point of View-

Dinner had been uneventful, mainly just the sound of our clinking spoons as we ate the stew I had made. It was decent, considering how distracted I had been. I hoped Jay didn't think I was avoiding him, he was just so attractive and I.. I wanted him? Yes.. NO! No.. Yes? Fuck! No, No the only thing I wanted about him was for him to be gone.
I had never actually felt this way about someone, I just knew I didn't have that connection with girls. But now that there was a guy, here, in my house, it was a whole new ballpark. Was I supposed to invite him to sleep with me? I mean, its not like I had another bed. Well I did, but he couldn’t sleep there. That was the room where I had put all of Tom’s things. His quilt was thrown over the bed and his books and drawings were on the desk. His guns were displayed across the walls. It was just like his old room, I had even painted the walls a light grey, just like his room at Ma and Pa’s. They weren’t ever really in our lives, though. Pa worked as a trader so he was out trapping and hunting if he wasn't in another town. But during the rare times he did happen to be home, he stayed away from me. He blamed me for Mama’s death, since she died right after I was born. I was just a giant fuck up… Always have been, always will be I guess.
“Jay?” I said over the running water as I rinsed our dishes.
He looked up at me curiously, “Yeah?”
“Would you mind.. would you mind s-sleeping with m-me?” I stuttered.
His eyes grew wide and I stumbled over my words, trying to fix my earlier statement, “I mean, sharing a bed with me. It wouldn’t mean anything, I just don’t have another good place for you to sleep. I-I well, uhm I-” I said, but he stopped me.
“Alex. It’s fine, of course I’ll sleep with you.”
At his words, I felt my face heat up. God Damn It Alex! He didn't mean it like that. But as I turned back around, I swear I caught a glimpse of him winking at me.
I tried to suppress the shudder of desire that went through my body, but this was, of course, impossible.
“Well, I’m done here, lets go upstairs. I’ll see what I can find for you to sleep in.
I raced up the stairs, shaking my ass a little more than necessary since I knew he was right below me. Stop Alex! What will he do if he found out?! He could tell the entire town!
That final thought turned my attitude somber, causing me to slow down quite dramatically.
Which in turn resulting in Jay slamming into me.
“Shit Lexy! Why’d you stop!” he exclaimed, and I raised my eyebrow, “Lexy?”
He blushed a little, “It just happened, I don’t know, nicknames are weird.”
I pondered this as I continued the short walk to my room. I tried not to think of the feeling of his body pressed against mine, even if it was only briefly. The impact was so hard and sudden, I couldn’t imagine if he was like that in bed.. Oh it would feel so good…
A little groan slipped out of my mouth and Jay’s head instantly snapped towards me from his position which was now beside me.
“Oh my gosh, did I hurt you that bad? I pounded into you pretty hard when you stopped there. Don’t ever stop, Lexy” he said slowly, almost as if he was aware of his effect on me. He was pushing my buttons with the stupid nickname (which sounded more like a pet name), and using the word pounded, and telling me to never stop..
I almost made another noise, but quickly bit down on my tongue.
“This way Jay!” I squeaked, my voice at least an octave higher and more strained than I ever remembered.
He smirked, but followed me. He had to know now.. Or maybe it was only obvious to me…
What if.. What is he was like me? No.. that’s crazy to think.. He wouldn’t be…
He paused a little past the entrance of the room, and I walked to one of my dressers, purposely the wrong one, farthest from my destination. Then when I was positive his eyes were on me, I let out a rather girlish giggled, saying of course it wasn’t in there.. And I strutted over to the proper chest. I bent over at the waist, exposing my ass, and slightly shifted my weight back and forth. I felt a bubble of hope rise in my chest as I imagined Jay watching me. But when I found another pair of boxers and long-johns I turned back to see his eyes averted, staring intently at a picture on the wall. I felt like crying. I extended my arm to hand him the clothes but he shook his head slightly, “Uhm, I usually just sleep in boxers.. Is that okay?”
I couldn’t help but grin at the thought of him being so close to me and practically naked, “Oh of course that’s fine! I usually do the same, but I thought you might have been more comfortable with these”
I handed him a pair before I left to let him get changed. All I wanted was to relieve myself, but I couldn’t, not with Jay here.
After a minute or two, I knocked on the door, my own clothes in hand, “Jay? Are you done?”
“Yeah” he called, and I opened the door. He was already nestled under the covers and looked like he could fall asleep any moment. If he wasn’t so cute like that I would've been upset about not being able to see all of him.
I felt like his eyes were scanning up and down my practically naked body, but maybe that was just wishful thinking. I crossed the room to blow out the lamp, glad I had already taken care of the ones downstairs. Finally I peeled back a small portion of the bed sheets and duvet so I could slide under.
“Goodnight Jay” I murmured as I closed my eyes, sleep starting to wrap its fingers around me.
After a moment, or maybe two, I couldn’t tell due to fading in and out of light sleep, I swear I heard him respond, “Night Lexy.”

Notes

Title Cred: Wild Goose by Frankie Laine
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