Thanks To You
Daydream Away
Alex POV:
I was laying in my hospital bed, watching the crappy little TV they had in the room. I sighed when a nurse came in to check on me. They were so annoying with their stupid little questions. ‘How are you feeling?’ About the same as I was five minutes ago. ‘Does it hurt anywhere?’ Luckily no because I’m so drugged up I can’t even feel myself breathing. ‘Do you need anything?’ Good food, my guitar, internet, music, Jack, the list goes on. Of course I didn't tell them any of this, I just gave them a fake smile and said that ‘I’m fine, nothing hurts, I’m good thanks.’ This was truly annoying, I was just waiting for the clock to hit 4 pm.
When I had opened my eyes about five days ago, there had been a crap ton of doctors and nurses around me. I had wanted to ask what was going on but when I opened my mouth nothing came out. Everything hurt so bad I had felt tears sliding down my cheeks. That’s when I saw him, Jack. He had tears falling down his own face. He held my hand as they gave me some pain medicine, telling me that everything was going to be okay, that he was sorry. All I could do was shake my head before the pain medicine knocked me out.
After that, Jack had come to visit me at 4 pm everyday, since it was after school and right when visiting hours started it was perfect. He would let me listen to his iPod, we would sit and talk about nothing in particular for hours, just enjoying each others company, and he would always be smiling. I told him when he came in the second day that I was sorry, that he shouldn't be the one that was sorry because it was my own stupidity, and that I deserved this. He had shut me up with a sweet kiss, telling me never to say something like that again.
I had wanted to cry when he asked me if we could just start all over again. I couldn't even trust my own voice, so I just nodded. I don’t think I’ll ever forget the smile he gave me. I couldn't help but smile now, remembering it. Right then there was a small knock at the door, *knock* *knock*------ *knock* *knock. We had come up with that so I knew it was him and not a nurse.
“Come in!”
Jack POV:
I had decided to call the doctors office before I went there to see if I could bring Alex something to eat. They said he had been eating properly without getting sick so I could. I made him a sandwich, bought him a small bag of chips, a soda, and a soft chocolate chip cookie. I smiled as I looked down at the food. I hope he likes it. I remember when he woke up, he had started to cry, the doctors were all around him, pumping him full of pain med's that I knew would knock him out any second.
I got through the doctors to his side, I held his hand, telling him it was going to be okay until his eyes closed. I had stayed until visiting hours were over, just holding his hand and watching him until they made me leave. I left a note for him, telling him I would be back tomorrow during visiting hours again, and that I was sorry. I didn't think I would ever be able to stop saying I was sorry to him. He had warned me, told he it would turn out bad, I had basically been the reason this all happened. When he feel asleep I thought about just trying to leave him, hoping that if I put space between us, this would never happen again.
I soon pushed that thought from my mind, both of us wouldn't be able to handle that. Alex would blame himself and I would never be happy. I had to stay by his side, I loved him too much to leave him again. When I came in the second day, he had apologized and said it was his own stupidity that got him into this, and told me he deserved it. I had never wanted to cry and scream at him more in my life, but that wouldn't have helped, so I did the next thing I could think of. I kissed him, gently holding the side of his face and hoping that I didn't hurt him. I pulled away a couple inches, just so that our lips would brush as I spoke and he had to look me in the eyes.
“Don’t ever, ever, say something like that again. Alex, I know that this is way too late, but, do you think we could just start all over? You know, a fresh, clean start?” He had tears in his eyes as he nodded and I had a huge urge to hug him, but I couldn't because it would hurt him. So, again, I did the next thing and smiled at him. I hadn't even realized I was at his hospital room until I looked up from my thoughts and saw the door in front of me. I took a deep breath and did our knock, I waiting until I heard him call out.
“Come in!” I couldn't help but smile at bit at how excited he sounded. As I walked in carrying the bag, I saw him eye it.
“Here, for you.” I said, resting it gently on his stomach.
“Really?” He gently picked it up.
“Yep, hope you like it.” He opened it and I thought he was going to cry, I held back a giggle.
“Oh god Jack, you don’t know how much I wanted normal, good food.” He said, but it almost sounded close to a moan as he began taking the food out of the bag.
“Well, I’m not sure how good it will be-”
“Shush. Trust me, grilled mud pies in a bun would be better than the food here.” I giggled at that and he smiled at me before digging in. After he was done eating we sat and talked for a little bit. He wanted me to lay next to him, but I was worried that I was going to hurt him at if I did. Then he gave me the puppy dog eyes and I couldn't say no.
“Fine, but you better tell me if I hurt you or if you get uncomfortable.” He laughed at that.
“I’m already uncomfortable.” He motioned towards his body and I flinched. Hoping he didn't notice, but of course, he did.
“I’m sorry, bad joke.”
“No it’s alright.”
I got up and gently laid beside him. He moved closer so I wrapped my arm around him and he rested his head on my shoulder. We laid there like that for hours, watching crappy TV and enjoying holding each other again. Before I knew it visiting hours were over, I gave him a small kiss on his forehead then his lips. He wrapped his arms around my neck to deepen it. After a couple minutes I knew, sadly, that I had to pull away before a nurse came in and saw us.
“Bye Lex, see you tomorrow.” I gave him a small smile.
“Bye Jay.” His eyes held sadness that I knew reflected in my own, yet he still gave me a small smile back.
Before I walked out the front door, I stopped at the desk and asked about when they thought he could leave. The nurse there told me that they were hoping either tomorrow or the next day, but they had to fit him for crutches first. I smiled and thanked her before walking out. One problem down, now the next problem to face.
Jeremy.
I was laying in my hospital bed, watching the crappy little TV they had in the room. I sighed when a nurse came in to check on me. They were so annoying with their stupid little questions. ‘How are you feeling?’ About the same as I was five minutes ago. ‘Does it hurt anywhere?’ Luckily no because I’m so drugged up I can’t even feel myself breathing. ‘Do you need anything?’ Good food, my guitar, internet, music, Jack, the list goes on. Of course I didn't tell them any of this, I just gave them a fake smile and said that ‘I’m fine, nothing hurts, I’m good thanks.’ This was truly annoying, I was just waiting for the clock to hit 4 pm.
When I had opened my eyes about five days ago, there had been a crap ton of doctors and nurses around me. I had wanted to ask what was going on but when I opened my mouth nothing came out. Everything hurt so bad I had felt tears sliding down my cheeks. That’s when I saw him, Jack. He had tears falling down his own face. He held my hand as they gave me some pain medicine, telling me that everything was going to be okay, that he was sorry. All I could do was shake my head before the pain medicine knocked me out.
After that, Jack had come to visit me at 4 pm everyday, since it was after school and right when visiting hours started it was perfect. He would let me listen to his iPod, we would sit and talk about nothing in particular for hours, just enjoying each others company, and he would always be smiling. I told him when he came in the second day that I was sorry, that he shouldn't be the one that was sorry because it was my own stupidity, and that I deserved this. He had shut me up with a sweet kiss, telling me never to say something like that again.
I had wanted to cry when he asked me if we could just start all over again. I couldn't even trust my own voice, so I just nodded. I don’t think I’ll ever forget the smile he gave me. I couldn't help but smile now, remembering it. Right then there was a small knock at the door, *knock* *knock*------ *knock* *knock. We had come up with that so I knew it was him and not a nurse.
“Come in!”
Jack POV:
I had decided to call the doctors office before I went there to see if I could bring Alex something to eat. They said he had been eating properly without getting sick so I could. I made him a sandwich, bought him a small bag of chips, a soda, and a soft chocolate chip cookie. I smiled as I looked down at the food. I hope he likes it. I remember when he woke up, he had started to cry, the doctors were all around him, pumping him full of pain med's that I knew would knock him out any second.
I got through the doctors to his side, I held his hand, telling him it was going to be okay until his eyes closed. I had stayed until visiting hours were over, just holding his hand and watching him until they made me leave. I left a note for him, telling him I would be back tomorrow during visiting hours again, and that I was sorry. I didn't think I would ever be able to stop saying I was sorry to him. He had warned me, told he it would turn out bad, I had basically been the reason this all happened. When he feel asleep I thought about just trying to leave him, hoping that if I put space between us, this would never happen again.
I soon pushed that thought from my mind, both of us wouldn't be able to handle that. Alex would blame himself and I would never be happy. I had to stay by his side, I loved him too much to leave him again. When I came in the second day, he had apologized and said it was his own stupidity that got him into this, and told me he deserved it. I had never wanted to cry and scream at him more in my life, but that wouldn't have helped, so I did the next thing I could think of. I kissed him, gently holding the side of his face and hoping that I didn't hurt him. I pulled away a couple inches, just so that our lips would brush as I spoke and he had to look me in the eyes.
“Don’t ever, ever, say something like that again. Alex, I know that this is way too late, but, do you think we could just start all over? You know, a fresh, clean start?” He had tears in his eyes as he nodded and I had a huge urge to hug him, but I couldn't because it would hurt him. So, again, I did the next thing and smiled at him. I hadn't even realized I was at his hospital room until I looked up from my thoughts and saw the door in front of me. I took a deep breath and did our knock, I waiting until I heard him call out.
“Come in!” I couldn't help but smile at bit at how excited he sounded. As I walked in carrying the bag, I saw him eye it.
“Here, for you.” I said, resting it gently on his stomach.
“Really?” He gently picked it up.
“Yep, hope you like it.” He opened it and I thought he was going to cry, I held back a giggle.
“Oh god Jack, you don’t know how much I wanted normal, good food.” He said, but it almost sounded close to a moan as he began taking the food out of the bag.
“Well, I’m not sure how good it will be-”
“Shush. Trust me, grilled mud pies in a bun would be better than the food here.” I giggled at that and he smiled at me before digging in. After he was done eating we sat and talked for a little bit. He wanted me to lay next to him, but I was worried that I was going to hurt him at if I did. Then he gave me the puppy dog eyes and I couldn't say no.
“Fine, but you better tell me if I hurt you or if you get uncomfortable.” He laughed at that.
“I’m already uncomfortable.” He motioned towards his body and I flinched. Hoping he didn't notice, but of course, he did.
“I’m sorry, bad joke.”
“No it’s alright.”
I got up and gently laid beside him. He moved closer so I wrapped my arm around him and he rested his head on my shoulder. We laid there like that for hours, watching crappy TV and enjoying holding each other again. Before I knew it visiting hours were over, I gave him a small kiss on his forehead then his lips. He wrapped his arms around my neck to deepen it. After a couple minutes I knew, sadly, that I had to pull away before a nurse came in and saw us.
“Bye Lex, see you tomorrow.” I gave him a small smile.
“Bye Jay.” His eyes held sadness that I knew reflected in my own, yet he still gave me a small smile back.
Before I walked out the front door, I stopped at the desk and asked about when they thought he could leave. The nurse there told me that they were hoping either tomorrow or the next day, but they had to fit him for crutches first. I smiled and thanked her before walking out. One problem down, now the next problem to face.
Jeremy.
Notes
Anyone who has been in the hospital, at least over night, will understand most of the humor in that. I got most of Alex's feeling's from my own when I was in the hospital not long ago. I've been looking back at my previous chapters and I was wondering, am I just rambling? Is this even making any sense? I hope so. Anyways, here you guys go! It's like 2 am here and I couldn't sleep (thanks horror movies, I have school tomorrow-.-) so I decided to write another chapter. I may even write another one tonight if I still don't feel like sleeping. Please comment! Thanks!:D
~Anna
I honestly think I might change the name on here too.... Just to make it easier... What do you guys think?
11/8/15